❝ Los tagalogs distinguen tres clases de brujos que están refundidos en una sola bruja en ilocano: el Asuang, el Mananangal y la Mangkukulam. [...] El Mananangal, es el que por las noches deja en un rincón su medio cuerpo de cintura abajo, y con el resto vaga por el espacio haciendo daño. ❞

• —Isobelo de los Reyes, La Religión Antigua de los Filipinos

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• o sweet little lamb,
• come down from the fold.
• as you bend to pray
• wrasps rattle your throat.
• aren't you cold?
• you bleed when you cough.
• i'll hold you tight
• as you leave me your soul.
  • ⠀

wikipedia says* there's an ilocano belief in four kinds of souls, which i tried to research & began to doubt. i don't know how reliable is the aswang project, & this filipino soul book* doesn't really elucidate matters. does the four-soul concept even exist, or is it just something anthropologists presumed, misinterpreted, or miscounted? my older relatives say they never heard of it. soul dualism, yes, but twice/squared?

other sources offer variant spellings & overlapping definitions for the following ilocano words:

• kadkad(d)u(w)a: companion soul (literally "two companions"); reason/vigor/courage; can be lost or guided back to the body (my ilocano dictionary says kadkaddua also means afterbirth [placenta/membranes]).
  • i remember my mother muttering an incantation to restore my dog's kadkaddua after a near-accident shook him (he fell...

• Margo Berdeshevsky’s “visual poem” series, Les Ombres de Versailles (The Ghosts of Versailles)
• the first two lines & other parts of the Lolligags’ All the Deer Daughters ▸
  • ice cream surprise ?
  • I scream surprise ?
• Shimmies in Super 8 (1993)
  • specifically for Huggy Bear’s “Snow White, Rose Red”

that I encountered while reading:

• sistrum
  • a musical instrument of ancient Egypt consisting of a metal frame with transverse metal rods which rattled when the instrument was shaken
• apotropaic
  • supposedly having the power to avert evil influences or bad luck
• skirling
  • to emit the high shrill tone of a bagpipe
• hamartia
  • a fatal flaw or crucial error that leads to the downfall of a tragic hero or heroine
• clepsydra

• bee! i’m expecting you! * emily dickinson
• pretty words * elinor wylie
• the black art * anne sexton
• tribute to the angels #29-32 * hilda doolittle
• the moon and the yew tree * sylvia plath
• three enter the dark wood * lesley jenike
• self-portrait as the gesture between them [adam and eve] * jorie graham
• tête de faune * arthur rimbaud
• new endymion * w. s. di piero
• placet futile * stéphane mallarmé
  • ô duchesse * princesse!
• cinderella * sylvia plath
• up around cinderella * arielle greenberg
• the great palaces of versailles * rita dove
• kinematograf * vladimir nabokov
• eros and the skull * charles baudelaire, tr. by richard howard
• the fraught settee * edward gorey
• Q.R.V. * ▸ edward gorey, the tiger lillies

borrowed from ❀

• 1000 Times Good Night (2013)
• 45 Years (2015)
• 8 Women (2002)
• A Beautiful Mind (2001) ✓
• A Judgement in Stone (1986)
• A Judgement in Stone (1995) ✓
• A Necessary Music (2008)
• A Page of Madness (1926) ✓
• A Patch of Blue (1965)
• A Single Man (2009) ✓
• A Touch Of Spice (2003)
• Alice in the Cities (1974)
• Amy (2015) ✓
• Artificial Paradises (2012)
• Atonement (2007) ✓
• Audition (1999) ✓
• Autumn Sonata (1978)
• Belle de Jour (1967) ✓
• Betty Blue (1986)
• Billy Elliot (2000) ✓

I prefer mini-series over ongoing TV.

• ☐ sense & sensibility (1981) ᴛᴜʙɪ ∙ ep04
• ☐ futurama (1999) ʜᴜʟᴜ ∙ s10, ep12
• ☐ regency house party (2004) ʏᴏᴜᴛᴜʙᴇ
  • ✓ ep01-09 ∙ ☐ ep10-13
• ☐ dear brother (1991) oniisama e... ∙ ᴛᴜʙɪ ∙ s1, ep6: lost & alone
• ✓ over the garden wall (2014) ʜᴜʟᴜ/ᴄᴀʀᴛᴏᴏɴ ɴᴇᴛᴡᴏʀᴋ
• ✓ black narcissus (2020) ʜᴜʟᴜ/ғx
• ☐ what we do in the shadows (2019) ʜᴜʟᴜ/ғx
  • ✓ s1 ∙ ☐ s2
• ✓ picnic at hanging rock (2018) ᴘʀɪᴍᴇ
• ✓ jane eyre (2006)
• ✓ bleak house (2005) ᴅᴠᴅ
• ✓ brideshead revisited (1981) ᴅᴠᴅ

• 1983 issues of Vogue
• "Essay on Fashionable Literature" (fragments) by Thomas Love Peacock
• "Myths Over Miami" by Lynda Edwards
• Bad Like Me by Courtney Love
• Aldous Huxley
  • "Fashions In Love" (article?)
  • "The Vulgarity of Modern Life"
• Vogue, August 1965, "Youthquakers"
• Marie-Claire, January 1995, "Karl Lagerfelds Skandalfrau: Anita" by Sabine Schwabenthan

• films
  • ❀ watched
  • ❀ favorites
• books
  • ❀ finished reading
  • ❀ didn't finish
  • ❀ visualized on pinterest, along with a massive private to-read board so that i can
    • shift the order of book covers, which is hard to do at ❀ librarything & tedious to do on listography
    • plan on what to spend my ʜᴏᴏᴘʟᴀ credits
• fragrances
  • ❀ parfumo collections

• ʙɪᴏʀᴇ́ ∙ charcoal micellar water
• ᴜʟᴛᴀ ∙ perfectly purified gel cleanser (discontinued, but I stocked up when they sold for $5 each)
• ʙᴀɴɪʟᴀ ᴄᴏ ∙ clean it zero brightening peeling gel scrub (discontinued?!)
• Fʀᴇᴇᴍᴀɴ ∙
  • manuka honey & tea tree clay mask/cleanser
  • banana-oat instant smoothing mask
• in case of seborrhea/dandruff:
  • no Fʀᴇᴇᴍᴀɴ masks or azelaic acid (they sting during flare-ups)
  • ɴɪᴢᴏʀᴀʟ ∙ shampoo (contains ketoconazole)
  • ᴘᴀᴄɪғɪᴄᴀ ∙ vegan ceramide jelly patches
• ᴄᴏsʀx ∙ aha/bha toner
• ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴋᴇʏ ʟɪsᴛ ∙ 10% azelaic acid serum
• in warm weather: ᴛᴀʀᴛᴇ ∙ mermaid skin serum
  • (discontinued? looking for a replacement)...

┊ in my cosmetic bag ┊

• ʙᴜʀᴛ's ʙᴇᴇs ∙ mint cocoa
  • smells/tastes like M&Ms
• ʙᴇᴄᴄᴀ ∙ cherry ganache ♡
• ʟɪᴠɪɴɢ ʟɪʙᴀᴛɪᴏɴs ∙ chocolate mocha
  • melts too easily

┊ rotating on my vanity table ┊

• some generic brand (forgot what it's called) ∙
  • snowberry
  • hot chocolate
• ʙᴜʀᴛ's ʙᴇᴇs ∙ sweet orange
• ᴋᴇʀᴢᴏɴ ∙ smack: iris & raspberry
• ʟᴀɴᴇɪɢᴇ ∙ berry lip sleeping mask
• ᴄʜᴀᴘsᴛɪᴄᴋ ∙ peach tea lip oil

┊ down to the bottom with a lip brush ┊

• ʙᴀʟᴇɴᴄɪᴀɢᴀ ∙ paris l'essence
• ʙᴀʀᴏɴᴇss ᴄᴀʟɪ ∙ tarocco
• ʙᴠʟɢᴀʀɪ ∙ eau parfumée au thé blanc
  • ᴇʟɪᴢᴀʙᴇᴛʜ ᴀʀᴅᴇɴ ∙ white tea is similar
• ᴄʜʟᴏᴇ́ ∙ love, chloé
• ᴄʀᴀʙᴛʀᴇᴇ & ᴇᴠᴇʟʏɴ ∙ himalayan blue hand cream
  • allegedly different from the edt
• ᴅɪᴏʀ ∙ poison esprit de parfum
  • too bad about the phthalates (literally poison), so I wear a vintage knock-off oil from ᴀsɢʜᴀʀ ᴀʟɪ instead
• ᴅɪᴘᴛʏᴏ̨ᴜᴇ ∙ tam dao
  • ᴏʀɪʙᴇ ∙ desertland is similar
• ғʀᴇᴅᴇʀɪᴄ ᴍᴀʟʟᴇ ∙ iris poudre
• ᴊᴇᴀɴ-ᴘᴀᴜʟ ɢᴀᴜʟᴛɪᴇʀ..._classique_