• ambience:⠀tearoom﹐apothecary﹐firewood﹐horse stables﹐moodist
• to hype up:⠀zzz theme﹐zzz theme 15﹐zzz gacha﹐intermission﹐hydrogen
• soundtracks:⠀nitw﹐p5 jazz mix﹐café leblanc mix﹐marshall's café﹐succession suite
• playlists:⠀a quiet moment alone﹐it's going to be okay﹐midnight aura﹐that 2 am fresh air﹐i still miss you﹐lovers﹐love letters﹐studying﹐romanticizing studying﹐mathematics
• background music:⠀it's brazil babyy﹐escape from reality﹐in space
• other sounds:⠀tales of the night forest﹐medieval hardcore party mix﹐woodlands
• channels:⠀thermosento

• angelology
  • the concept
  • the angel of divine glory
  • the nine types of biblical angels
  • the 72 angels of magick by demon brand

• enneagram theory
  • character and neurosis by claudio naranjo

• april, 2025 ⠀600, 125,

⸻⠀ to improve

• head shape
• ears!!
• body proportions (horizontal)
• body language / poses

⸻⠀ improved!

• facial expressions
• colour
• painting style
• speed
• hands & fingers

⸻⠀ goals

• ⭘⠀finish that short story about the jungian quote
• ⭘⠀finish that fanfic 1st draft (3/5)
• ⭘⠀read...
  • ⤷ ⭘ the odyssey, by homero
  • ⤷ ⭘ the illiad, by homero
  • ⤷ ⭘ this is how you lose the time war, by amal el-mohtar & max gladstone
  • ⤷ ✓ time loop narratives are about love, by katy
  • ⤷ ⭘ how american culture ate the world, by dexter fergie
• ⭘⠀watch a documentary abt ivan illich, descartes and rousseau
• ⭘⠀write the 15 letters
• ⭘⠀donate my good clothes to a thrift store & thrift some pants
• ⭘⠀clean dad's backpack
• ⭘⠀change my name
• ⭘⠀change my documents
• ⭘⠀work on my masters entry

sort of diary about the events that unfold in my paracosm, because now i want to keep track of what's going on & how the history of this world unfolds & shapes my heart. this world is a coping mechanism i developed in my 11-12s n i have no intention on treating it like an unhealthy symptom. i treat my headmates as friends.

• 241116 ⠀ dell got anxious for being left alone at the rocky-valley island n followed us (idk how, coz we travelled by ship.) he fought w dana n i to take part in the 'wintery-land' expedition. i let him stay as long as he stops trying to talk over me. we set camp for the meantime.

• 241130 ⠀ i got overwhelmed by smth i can't recall n ran away to the forest. i took off my coat n boots n lashed out at a tree. later, dell found me sobbing near a cabin...

• aniwave
• thesaurus﹐etymonline﹐library﹐articles
• eat this much﹐rua﹐adhd help
• pdf converter﹐docero﹐mybib
• kuroshiro﹐shuen_art﹐shiragichi﹐jiefinch

• autumn equinox ⠀march 20, midday
• winter solstice ⠀⠀ june 21, midnight
• spring equinox ⠀⠀september 22, 10 pm
• summer solstice ⠀december 21, 7 pm

• to be someone's favourite person.
• to be reliable.
• to be the 1st choice.
• to be admired.
• to be a good teacher.
• to be satisfied w my appearance.
• to have personal style.
• to have a trademark.
• to be compared to an older brother/father.

• soul & guts
• physical balance
• vocal tract
• scream
• laugh
• reactive response
• posture
• idle stance
• way of walking
• muscle mass
• clothes
• love & heart
• emotional response