• say my name and his in the same breath, i dare you to say they taste the same.
• we were certainly uncertain, at least i'm pretty sure i am.
• praise the lord, burn my house, i get lost, i freak out, you come home and hold me tight as if it never happened at all. where is your light? am i home? i will try not to keep you too long.
• you've set on me, but you are not the sun.
• preach all you want, but who's gonna save me? i keep a gun on the book you gave me - hallelujah, lock and load.
• i promise i'm doing my best, i just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet.
• and i don't mind throwing away this filthy silver tongue (you barely joyous, broken thing)
• i know you're coming in the night like a ...

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• animals awarded human credentials
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• common misconceptions ♡
• cosmic latte
• headfooters
• hedgehog's dilemma
• i can eat glass
• inflatable rat
• judas goat
• lonely hearts killer
• love lock
• menthol cigarettes
• pantone 448 c
• plants with symbolism ♡
• rat king
• uk special forces selection
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i am on the mend; at least now i can say that i am trying. and i hope you will forget things i still lack. time to get the seeds into the cold ground, it takes a while to grow anything.

• jog everytime i'm anxious
• schedule everything in google calendar
• journal a few times a week
• get prescription sunglasses (?)
• finish in cold blood + start a new book
• quit reddit (fr this time)
• stay hydrated + eat properly (practice cooking)
• work with my monotropism (sticky attention)
• clean out my car
• go for hikes w dad once a week
• get my bangs trimmed (maybe)
• digital declutter
  • downloads

♡ favourite | ✶ to finish | ✓ finished

𝔦. — playing

• deadlock ♡
• darkest dungeon

𝔦𝔦. — to play

• cult of the lamb ✶
• dishonored
• divinity: original sin 2 ✶
• fallout: new vegas ✶
• hades ✶
• hellslave
• red dead redemption 2 ♡ ✶
• resident evil 2 ✶
• return of the obra dinn
• slay the spire
• the witcher 3
• west of loathing
• resident evil 4 (2005) ✶

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — played

• dumpster baby · bladee ⠀ ✧
• bleed · malcolm todd & omar apollo ⠀ ✧
• nfwmb · hozier ⠀ ✧
• cry · the sundays ⠀ ✧
• tempest · deftones ⠀ ✧
• so what if i'm a freak · snow strippers ⠀ ✧
• lying from you · linkin park ⠀ ✧
• in my room · julia wolf ⠀ ✧
• oh my days · orville peck ⠀ ✧

♡ editor's choice | ✶ current events

—— january

• cyberpunk: edgerunners (2022) w/ ash
• ghost in the shell (1995) ♡ w/ dad
• tron: ares (2025) w/ evie
• the oligarch's son | the new yorker
• what comes after the protests | the new yorker ✶
• among america's low information voters | the new yorker
• the itch | the new yorker
• where the sidewalk ends | lux magazine
• i loved texas chainsaw massacre before i loved myself | electric literature
• what my adult autism diagnosis finally explained | the cut ♡
• deadlock ♡ old gods, new blood update
• baldur's gate 3 ♡
• return to silent hill (2026) w/ ev & g
• the future is too easy | defector ♡
• what happened when portland decriminalized fentanyl | rolling stone
• iron lung (2026) w/ ev

• abandon shame
• prioritize my mental health and be gentle to myself
• treat sleep like a religion
• make my room 10x more cozy
• do not be afraid to ask for help
• say yes when i want to say no
• ✓ pass my exam and get my full driver's license
• ✓ email law school admissions & dept head
• more ear piercings
• quit short form content & twitch (?)
• ✓ donate a bunch of my clothes
• start working out / rock climbing
• practicum or research project
• ✓ update my voicemail
• graduate (with honours? if it doesn't interfere with my touching grass)
• go to more local punk / rock shows (w/ evie?)
• set more boundaries

• nettles · ethel cain ⠀ ✧
• acolyte · slaughter beach, dog ⠀ ✧
• black milk · massive attack ⠀ ✧
• archers · brand new ⠀ ✧
• around the fur · deftones ⠀ ✧
• make me bad · korn ⠀ ✧
• sans soleil · alexisonfire ⠀ ✧
• grindhouse · machine girl ⠀ ✧
• obedient · bladee, ecco2k ⠀✧
• all i need · radiohead ⠀ ✧
• sunspots · nine inch nails ⠀ ✧
• angry · bôa ⠀ ✧