⠀ girlhood is a spectrum

• i hate myself so much ⇄ i can transform
• yaypilled ⇄ •︵•
• everything is so magical ⇄ there's no meaning in being
• i ♡ hobbies · i ♡ creating ⇄ brain decay
• i will not accept a life i do not deserve ⇄ there's no hope for me at all
• god im begging you please help me ⇄ religion is manipulation
• you deserve it ⇄ guilt
• i hate pretentious people ⇄ i will pretend online
• i deserve this ⇄ what did i do wrong?
• i love being alone ⇄ desperation
• i forgot <3 ⇄ i forgot </3

𝔦. — true detective season one

• "if the only thing keeping a person decent is the expectation of divine reward then, brother, that person is a piece of shit" — rustin cohle
• "this is what i mean when i'm talking about time, and death, and futility. there are broader ideas at work. mainly, what is owed between us, as a society, for our mutual illusions. fourteen straight hours of staring at dbs, these are the things you think of. you ever done that? you look in their eyes, even in a picture. doesn't matter if they're dead or alive, you can still read them. and you know what you see? they welcomed it. hm. not at first, but right there in the last instant, it's an unmistakable relief. see, cause they were afraid and now they saw for the very first time how easy it was to just let go. and they saw... in that last nanosecon...

𝔦. — i like

• india stoker ⭑ stoker
• lady hideko ⭑ the handmaiden
• sherlock holmes
• irene adler
• l lawliet ⭑ デスノート
• osamu dazai ⭑ 文豪ストレイドッグス
• satoru gojo ⭑ 呪術廻戦
• yuichi katagiri ⭑ トモダチゲーム

𝔦𝔦. — i empathize

• rustin cohle ⭑ true detective S1
• pearl ⭑ pearl
• daffy duck ⭑ looney tunes
• jem starling ⭑ the starling girl
• anthony j. crowley ⭑ good omens

𝔦. — songs i like

• sick of the sun ⭑ poppy
• going under ⭑ evanescence
• blue madonna ⭑ børns
• petals ⭑ hole
• cherry waves ⭑ deftones
• be quiet and drive (far away) ⭑ deftones
• i disagree ⭑ poppy
• thoroughfare ⭑ ethel cain
• brand new city ⭑ mitski
• them changes ⭑ thundercat
• strangers ⭑ ethel cain

𝔦𝔦. — comfort songs

• 7 words ⭑ deftones
• bad boy ⭑ red velvet
• susie save your love ⭑ allie x, mitski

key: ↺ repeat

✶ — reading: 𝔦. 𝔦𝔦. 𝔦𝔦𝔦.

• dear door - 디어 도어 · pluto
• happy halloween! — fear · roald dahl
• the seven husbands of evelyn hugo · taylor jenkins reid
• shutline · kyou

✶ — watching: 𝔦. 𝔦𝔦. 𝔦𝔦𝔦.

• dark ➝ 2x01
• hunter x hunter ➝ 5/148 · swoeq

✶ — completed ‎ ‎ ‎ +

key : ☆ enjoyed · ↺ repeat · ☒ dropped

𝔵𝔦𝔦. —⠀ d e c e m b e r

• syndrome · pache, kimpa ➝ 18 ☒
• yangtal · pas kim ➝ 12 ×
• ☆ the black mirror · muhwa, sugeun ➝ 39-62 ×
• release your persona · yeaze ➝ 9 ×
• ☆ legroom · dakto ➝ 18 ×
• obey me · rujuena, milknono ➝ 42 ×
• confessions of the night · jiha ➝ 4 ×
• ☆ hygieia · cajung ➝ 5 ×
• ☆ moritat · lee sunee, seokyeong ➝ 53 ×

d e c e m b e r ㅤ f a v o r i t e s

⠀𝔦. — books ⭑

⠀𝔦𝔦. — mangas ⭑

⠀𝔦𝔦𝔦. — films ⭑

⠀𝔦𝔳. — tv ⭑

⠀𝔳. — anime ⭑

⠀𝔳𝔦. — characters ⭑ cha jihun · 창 없는 방

⠀𝔳𝔦𝔦. — uncategorized ⭑ binge reading bl manhwas while listening to the nosleep podcast

⠀ i suddenly feel very alone

• i don't know...
• english is not my first language and my verbal skills kinda downgraded over the years so grammatical errors are inevitable and everything is incoherent. sorry. and because of that i convey my feelings and emotions through borrowed pictures #imagehoarder. and i google (word) synonyms all the time
• maybe i copied your aesthetic — forgive me if i find you so cool i'd want to integrate a part of you in myself — i dont have a personality, i only pretend, im not cool, im basic, my life is so boring, my developmental years were wasted on church activities and working at an early age
• i daydream a LOT. i talk to myself a lot
• your secrets are safe with me because (1) i was in my head most of the time and (2) i don't remember what you just said and...