Been dating Jason for a year as of 8 days ago. An entire year of my life intertwined with his. An accomplishment on it's own if you ask me. Things we're going to do once he gets in town to celebrate:

• See Toy Story 3
• Eat at Olive Garden (yeah. I want breadsticks.)
• Swim
• Get drunk
• Make love

Things I want to do with him this summer:

• Go hiking
• Go camping
• Party
• See movies
• Go to:

What I love about this place:

• Jason.

So I have been working out close to everyday now, but in the middle of a conversation with someone I realized that i really don't have an end goal. It was more just a really vauge "I want to get in shape" well of course that's what I want. But to be more specific:

• Tone up midsection
  • Love Handles (gross)
  • Stomach
• Tighter butt
• Toned arms

MAIN GOAL:

• Rock a 2 piece by summer
• Size 6 or 8 (I'm already in an 8 in certain brands)

Also think it would be BA to run a marathon by summer, or even a half marathon.

So it's only 38 degrees outside and I already find it unbearable but enjoyable at the same time. So here are the things I enjoy most about the cold:

• My green scarf
• My white gloves (though I need new ones, they aren't nearly warm enough)
• My black hat with the little ball on top
• Long socks with enjoyable designs on them
• Walking around all bundled up
• Snuggling
• Fires
• Rosie cheeks
• Black dogs playing in white snow
• Reading in my p.j's under a bunch of blankets
• Frosted trees

Here are the things I don't enjoy so much:

• Do I really have a boyfriend?
• I can't see him
• I can't feel him
• I doubt myself
• I doubt my feelings
• I doubt his feelings
• 3000 miles
• Lingers in the back of my mind
• CAN'T.FOCUS.
• All I do is talk about him, NOBODY wants to listen anymore
• I become bi-polar
• I become CLINGY
• I become jealous
• I become a person that I sometimes don't like
• We fight about the littlest things
• We never fight when we're finally together
• We fight because we're frustrated
• We fight because I let us.
• After our fights we make up and I know th...

Needing a sort of therapy right now... Happy thoughts for the upcoming week:

• Working a ton (making a ton of money!)
• Seeing all my favorite kiddos at work!
• Opening 2 days at working. (Getting off early afternoon!)
• Moving out of my aunt and uncles house!
• Moving into the apartment with Jason
• SEEING JASON
• Wednesday/Thursday=SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE.
• Last week of having to drive 40 min to get to work :]
• 5 days until Jason gets here
• 13 days until I see Sarah
• 41 days until the Cabin
• 62 days until I go home
• 67 days until I leave for new york
• 69 days until I see lila
• 79 days until the first day of NYU classes

One of the best trips of my life. I've done so much in the past 9 days I can't even begin to express the smile on my face :] Jason is back in class already which kinda sucks, but we've really made this trip everything a more than either of us expected Day by day here is what we did: Monday Dec 28:

• Got to KCI at 8:40
• Flights delayed until 12:45
• Get to Seattle by 2:45 (WEST COAST TIME!)
• Visit Amy at the winery
• Fooled around in the car ;]
• Relaxed and traded gifts
• Went out to dinner at the silver spoon with the family and saw CARRIE!
• Played Cribbage
• Fell asleep on the couch
• Went to bed ;]

Tuesday Dec 29th:

• I haven't seen my friends in 5 months .
• I live in New York City now. They live in Shawnee, Kansas
• What if we have nothing in common?
• What if I'm AWKWARD ?
• What if I don't care about what they've done?
• What if they don't care about what I've done?
• (SILENCE)
• What if Kansas isn't home anymore?
• Who are my friends worth seeing?
  • Shoes
  • D.J
  • Court
  • Jessica
  • Amy
  • Sarbear
  • El Bee

Jason and I have been dating a little over 6 months now. We're doing the long distance thing, and so far that isn't giong to end in the near future. Which yes, makes me sad...but I know that he is the only man I want to be with. He's the only person that can really make me smile, turn my mood around in a heartbeat and cause me to fall deeper in love with him every single moment of every single day. I'm going to Seattle in 8 days and I'm beginning to get fidgety and antsy. I want to see him, be in his arms, kiss his lips, hear his laugh, smell him and gaze lovingly into his adorable green eyes. He knows everything about me and he accepts me for all of it. My highs and my lows, he loves me. I love everything about him. From his lecturing to his loving nicknames, everything that Jason does either makes me giggle, makes me think, makes me happy, motivated and ready to attack life with him by m...

Get ready for an awesome semester!

• Daniel visits Feb 9th through the 12th (My Birthday!)
• I got to Seattle Feb 13th through the 20th
• Amy visits March 6th through the 13th
• Sarah visits sometime during the week of the 17th
• Spring break starts the 12th
• Jason visits sometime during the 20th
• Aunt mara visits in april

It kind of sucks to have all these plans that require money in which I do not possess. Good thing I'm working a ton over break and I'm hoping to find a job for next semester (come on palladium!) Things I want in order of importance:

• Plane ticket to Seattle in Feb. (looks like its going to be around $300 which i'll have part of if jason doesn't accept the $170)
• Another plane ticket to Seattle for end of June? (Won't know the dates until I know my job situation. Lets hope only $250)
• ASL at JCCC for next summer (around $250)

Those are three major things in the upcoming months. On a more selfish level:

• Three pairs of dark wash skinny jeans from Forever 21 ($20 each)
• Cardigans GALORE! (Zara, forever 21, gap,...

So it's the final stretch of "my first semester of college" (and I say that in a mocking voice of my mother) Two weeks left! To do list of hell week numero uno:

Monday

• Tennis at 7am
• Class at 12:30
  • Read the Aeneid (meh.)
• Do spanish hw (because I procrastinated)
• Class at 3:30
• Work on spanish group oral presentation at 5:00
• Writing group project at 6:30
• TRY to go lift weights (probably won't have time)
• READ ST. AUGUSTINE