10.12.26 | i asked on a forum about a mod for a video game (can't remember which) and someone dm'd me a link to it. i stupidly clicked it and thought "wow, people can be so kind and helpful!" and then subsequently watched in pain as a virus/hacker took over my computer and wiped everything. i kept trying to go to a restore point but "they" kept blocking my access by deleting things and moving things around. stressfully thought about how many passwords i was going to have to change lol.

9.30.26 | (( surprisingly my first nightmare involving gun violence, but not my first with sharp things in my mouth/throat )) i was in a one-level school, and someone rushed up to the windows from outside holding a large gun. they opened fire, and i laid down on the floor for cover. i just remember feeling like my neck and throat were hurting so bad, like the worst sore throat x100. feeling my neck, it also felt incredibly enlarged - not swollen ...

[ songs that have been stuck in my head for several days at a time ♪ ]

• all fires
• storm ii
• hyrule field theme (oot)
• everything in it's right place
• mr. jambo
• lemon glow
• jurassic park theme
• like a prayer
• wildest dreams
• starburster
• youth
• which witch
• hymn to virgil
• kara remembers

✧—— 　 rated 5★ since 2022

• 2025 | the buffalo hunter hunter - stephen graham jones
  • possibly the most well structured book i've ever read. had to reread the first ~70 pages twice which is a big ask, but it was so rewarding. the parallels in the story. the building dread and slow revelation, centered on a real atrocity that happened to the blackfeet nation. stunning and horrifying.
• 2025 | i'm thinking of ending things - iain reid
  • another single day read bc i could not stop, i had to know why everything was so weirdly connected. creepy and then just so very, very sad.
• 2025 | fugitive telemetry - martha wells
  • technically murderbot book 6 but i read it 5th. fun standalone murder mystery in s...

✧—— 　 f i l m

• alien franchise
  • alien ↺
  • aliens ↺
  • alien 3 ↺
  • resurrection ↺
  • prometheus
  • covenant
  • romulus
• backrooms
  • ▨ kane pixels yt series first ↺
• ▨ the irish trio
  • ▨ caveat
  • ▨ oddity
  • ▨ hokum
• ▨ we bury the dead
• obsession
• ghost watch (ia)

✧—— 　 b o o k s

• we used to live here - marcus kliewer
• the patient - jasper dewitt
• the ritual - adam nevill
• the last days of jack sparks - jason arnopp
• i'm thinking of ending things - iain reid
• bone white - ronald malfi

✧—— 　 n o s l e e p

• There's something inhuman south of Seattle if you want to go looking for it
• Dionaea House / x / x / x / x
• My sugar daddy asks me for weird favors
• Lumpy
• Candle Cove
• Anansi's Goatman
• Search and Rescue
• If your doorbell camera shows you coming home, don’t let yourself in
• correspondence

[ last updated 09/07/2026 ]

• account birthday: august 30, 2015
• favorite areas of gameplay:
  • open world exploration
  • fashion
  • jumping puzzles
  • dabbling in wvw (rank 634)
• main
  • Neyrilla, Sylvari Reaper, all story (vigil) + wvw
    • 5 sets of mixed ascended/legendary gear exclusively
      • ow power reaper
      • wvw (cele scourge)
      • ow condi scourge
      • heal scourge
      • quick harb