unordered and incomplete

• ethel cain
• my substacks
• round bird
• making elaborate ass lunches
• understanding myself more
• the fact that i dont really like my ma friends as much as i thought i did with a few exceptions. this seems like a bad thing but is a very good thing for me bcs they make me a worse person. i do not need to rely on them and i can drift between them as i please. i am not tied to any one of them and i fundamentally live for myself
• creative writing at the plate

• aria / solas
• she/her
• poc (s asian) & sikh
• autistic & ocd
• anarcho socialist
• infp / lawful good
• enneatype 9 / sx/so 479/459
• EII-INFj
• melancholic / sanguine
• rluai
• fevl/lv
• i bookmark whoever ! if i like ur layout / any one of ur lists ur in there

https://kevan.org/johari?name=caoine

i can only see myself through a painfully narrow and ever shifting lens so i amass a list of made up guys to try to understand who i am. i fundamentally am not these characters but i will get so mad if your interpretation of them is different from mine and at odds with my sense of self (this is just for fun #wacky)

me

• anne shirley-cuthbert (awae)
• jinora (lok)
• asami (lok)
• jane eyre
• mega audino (pkmn)
• matthew cuthbert (anne of green gables)

otherkin

• bean sidhe
• leanan sidhe
• mourning dove

high

ib x

• actor: steven yeun i guess?? i love minari and i think hes cute but i dont really have favorite real guys
• album: jubilee - japanese breakfast
• animal: rabbit or dove
• animated show: avatar the last airbender
• author: kazuo ishiguro
• band: sylvan esso or penny & sparrow
• book: klara and the sun
• breakfast: omelette w mushrooms
• candle scent: driftwood and chamomile
• coffee order: latte w lavender and vanilla
• color: light green
• drink: earl grey tea
• fictional character: anne shirley or katara
• flower: lily of the valley or iris
• fruit: asian pear
• holiday: christmas

• ☼ scorpio
• ☾ taurus
• ☆ sagittarius
• ☿ sagittarius
• ♀ capricorn
• ♂ taurus
• ♃ scorpio
• ♄ leo
• ♅ pisces
• ♆ aquarius
• ♇ sagittarius
• ☽☾ leo
• ☊ aries

• if my mother nd i weren't so alike i think i'd be convinced im a changeling
• i am the worlds most law abiding citizen and tht is okay! except that one time whn i stole a candle. ive been told that i give the vibe that i tip 20 percent on my taxes which is RUTHLESS but true. it is fine to be the way i am
• hey! its ok to like some of the same things as shitty people! theres like a 99 percent chance that theres a literal fascist who shares an interest with you its gonna be fine that you both like uh. Reading? and the same One book? literally one of the most common activities and also like a specific aesthetic .. still. i do it better
• continuing that shes also maybe not a shitty person! she seems kinda cool in some ways and u like a lot of the same things shes just got an intereting personality. ...

• delox - tiziana terenzi (❦ ◌ ♛ ❀)
• velvet - commodity (❦ ➻ ♛ ❀)
• book - commodity (◌ ➻ ♛ ❀)
  • new recipe (◌ ➻ ◌ ❀)
  • old recipe (◌ ➻ ♛ ❀)
• milk - commodity (❦ ✾ ♛ ❀)
• notting hill - english laundry (❦ ✾ ♛ ❀)
• vanille abricot - comptoir sud pacifique (❦ ✾ ♛ ❀)
• oxford blue - english laundry (◌ ✾ ♛ ◌)
• indigo - nest (❦ ✾ ♛ ❀)
• dahlia & vines - nest (❦ ✾ ♛ ❀)
• by the fireplace - maison margiela (❦ ◌ ◌ ❀)
• coffee break - maison margiela (◌ ✾ ◌ ◌)
• whispers in the library - maison margiela...

• noughts and crosses (malorie blackman)
• lets explore diabetes with owls (david sedaris)
• never let me go (kazuo ishiguro)
• klara and the sun (kazuo ishiguro)
• crying in h mart (michelle zauner)
• birds of america (lorrie moore)
• no land to light on (yara zgheib)
• red rising (pierce brown)
• ferryman (claire mcfall)
• the goldfinch (donna tartt)
• brooklyn (colm toibin)

absolutely

• the remains of the day (kazuo ishiguro)
• freshwater (akwaeke emezi)
• pandora (susan stokes-chapman)
• the wind up bird chronicle (murakami)
• peach blossom spring
• kindred (octavia e butler)
• you too can have a body like mine
• my year of rest and relaxation

would read

• the lowland (jhumpa lahiri)
• white all around (wilfrid lupano)
• the kyoshi comic series
• the tea dragon books (kay o'neill)
• murakami t (haruki murakami)
• the children act (ian mcewan)
• valley of the dolls
• my brilliant friend
• play it as it lays
• before you suffocate your own fool self

• catalog of unabashed gratitude - ross ga...
• brothers - lucille clifton
• husky boys dickies - jill mcdonough
• people's faces - kae tempest
• persimmons - li-young lee
• september tomatoes - karina borowicz
• the given note - seamus heaney
• the one - patrick kavanagh
• autobiographica literaria - frank o'hara

set

• the remains of the day (ishiguro)
• norwegian wood (murakami)
• pandora (susan stokes-chapman)
• the wind up bird chronicle (murakami)
• ace attorney
• etsy jewelry
• redbubble stickers

to look for

• spring/summer clothes
• fitted long sleeve tops (white, fishnet, star mesh)
• mesh t-shirt
• simple bralettes
• white slip dress
• cropped knit tops
• sweetheart neckline tops