• program spreadsheet here
• dec 2024: my goal is to qualify for raw nats by feb 2025 (last state meet before nationals). 380kg total needed (837lbs) at 65kg or 392.5 (865lbs) at 70. aim for 870lbs D:
• most feasible
  • 310lb squat
  • 210lb bench
  • 350lb deadlift

2025

• the poppy war series propelled me back into reading in 2025 | ★★★★★
• katabasis

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• strawberry picking!
• playing god of war + borderlands 3 + red dead redemption + animal crossing
• dress shopping :0
• menchies and bubble tea
• mini graduation party :))
• graduating in general!
• creating + finishing an art portfolio
• CONCERTS!!!!!! BTS !!

things that are true:

• i do not want to go back to school immediately because im so burnt out
• as much as i want a job, the idea of interviewing and being consistently challenged or bored at work? also not good...
• i feel that i wasted a lot of time not doing things i wanted to do or trying things i wanted to try... powerlifting is a reflection of that, my first time doing smth for my own happiness and no other reason in forever...
• i love games and stories, and art, as short as my attention span has become
• i also have found that happiness in coffee and tea since i was little

i remember the warm, sweet, oddly familiar + comforting smell of my mom's coffee, in a warm mug topped with french vanilla creamer. i never thought i'd get to taste it. but i looked for that scent in candl...

• keep waking up early ♥ (8 am = sleeping in)
• sell more on depop to declutter and make extra money 2 buy cute thingz :))))) ♥
• focus on art + language studies. senior project will help with art!! stay focused in ur language classes, consider opening ur japanese + korean books ! also look for valuable arabic resources ♥
• have more fun friendship timez ♥ brb i'm making a list. we're going strawberry picking or i will cry
• surround urself ONLY by people u make u happy :)

• dec 11: evaluating everything, life didnt go as i thought it would in 2019 lol, cute husband, covid, no job, living in chicago !!, still finding direction, love coffee, maybe cs, fat tuxedo cat

• zeyna, 22, a person who likes to dream ♥
• infj-t, cancer, neutral good ❀
• loves of video games, coffee and tea, art, flowers, music, language-learning, cake, kirby, & the moon
• studying ux design
• wants to live in a studio ghibli movie & dreams of owning a teahouse ( ˘▽˘)っ♨ (this hasn't changed)

• visit the ghibli museum in Japan
• open a tea cafe
• learn languages :)
• live abroad at some point <3333
• publish a book
• see Joe Hisaishi's orchestra live
• arabic-learning app!

• ribs - lorde
• the little prince (2016): book/movie!
• strong girl bong-soon (2018)
• one punch man (2016?? bruh idk time is.. a concept)
• memories of the alhambra (2018/19)
• saving up for and buying my own laptop! the satisfaction! u may not be EVERYTHING i wanted but u r cute i love u) [2019]
• horizon zero dawn (2019)
• buying a bunch ps4 games with the intention of actually playing them. gamers rise up [2019]
• learning to stop buying things i don't need and trying to live a (SEMI) waste-free life :-) u are not perfect but the process is fun! less trash, less clutter [2019]