< when I try to find my inner peace >

• cold mornings
• tea
• baths
• warm my hands in hot drinks
• good old movies
• spend the night awake
• wake up really early
• breakfasts
• cats
• walks in the woods
• empty beaches
• meditating in a garden
• halloween
• rabbits
• friendly people
• silent fireworks
• when people say they remembered me for any (good) reason
• sweet and fresh smells
• cinnamon rolls

• daily meditation
• eat at least one fruit per day
• taste at least two new (healthy) foods per month
• make a self-care routine at night
• exercises for at least half hour 3 days per week
• read for at least 30 minutes at least 5 days in a week
• practice a new lenguage at least 5 times a week
• journaling about daily feelings
• list one to three things in your day that made you happy
• spend less than 2 hours on the phone per day (exceptions to phone calls and chating)

• rain in dry earth
• vanilla
• Lush products
• daisies
• lavender
• chai
• ginger
• sweet smells
• cinnamon
• mornings
• sea
• fresh smells

• Fire cracking
• Cat purr
• Rain
• Wind in trees
• Steps
• Sea
• Water running
• Thunderstorms

• rainy days listen music while sitting in my table drinking tea reading a book
• sunbathing
• feeling nostalgic
• planning my future
• feeling loved
• feeling productive
• feeling calm while hanging with my friends
• feeling adventurous
• staying home watching movies
• kissing
• waiting in the airport to go home
• traveling

• dye my hair
• search for new artists
• visit museums
• go for a walk
• play with animals
• drink tea
• watch candles burn
• observe nature
• study biology
• read on my armchair
• listen old vinyls
• dance, sing and act
• tarot

Juno, 4 de agosto de 2001

• pronomes femininos
• bissexual (mas prefiro meninas)
• ovolactovegetariana since 2015
• bruxa aprendiz
• olhos castanhos/amendoados, agressivamente branca, cabelo castanho
• futura bióloga
• canhota
• eu me assusto fácil
• já tive dois dinossauros. foi daora.

Juno, 19 ♀ <not my real name>

hazel eyes, pale, black hair, 165cm

• paintings, literature, poetry, botany, zoology, nature, art, sci-fi, ocean, laboratory, cabin in the woods, city lights, cinematography, witchcraft, paganism, hippie, theatre, instability

books

• Lolita (Vladmir Nabokov)
• Clockwork orange (Anthony Burgess)
• Psycho (Robert Bloch)
• Matilda (Roald Dahl)
• The melancholy death of oyster boy and other stories (Tim Burton)
• Alice in Wonderland (Lewis Carroll)

movies

• Kill Bill (1 and 2)
• Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
• Rumor has it...
• 10 things I hate about you
• Stealing beauty
• Empire Records
• Basic Instinct
• Suspiria

< reasons to don't commit suicide and what to do instead >

• don't jump in front of a train, a lot of people will get late if you do it. Get into the train, go home and take a cold shower
• don't cut your wrists, do you want the last scene you will see in your life is you all bloody? Besides, someone will have to clean the mess, so go for a walk in your own house (but stay away from the kitchen)
• don't take a lot of pills, you will probably trow up and it will be gross and unhealthy. Eat or drink water instead.
• don't jump from the top of a building, you can fall in someone's head. Lay on floor and breathe.

stay alive

• alone with everybody, Charles Bukowski
• enivrez-vous, Charles Baudeleire
• todas as cartas de amor são ridículas, Álvaro de Campos (Fernando Pessoa)
• vida, Augusto Branco
• vozes-mulheres, Conceição Evaristo
• minha boca também..., Ana Cristina César
• pronominais, Oswald de Andrade
• prelúdios-intensos para os desmemoriados do amor, Hilda Hilst
• bluebird, Charles Bukowski
• for the hearts that worry instead of beat, Xoe Arabella
• explaining my depression to my mother: a conversation, Sabrina Benaim
• hi, i'm a slut, Savannah Brown
• fantastic breasts and where to find them, Brenna Twohy
• anxiety: a ghost story, Brenna Twohy
• the person i ought to be, Xoe Arabella
• talking shit to sadness, Sara Brickman

• Van Gogh
• Magritte
• Tara McPherson
• Mark Ryden
• Audrey Kawasaki
• Nicoletta Ceccoli
• Margaret Keane
• Gaudí
• Glenn Barr
• Tim Walker
• Alexander McQueen
• Chuck Grant

< to do every day >

• compliment at least three people
• eat at least two fruits
• always accept knowledge
• look myself in the mirror
• remember to forgive
• have unusual days
• sing in the shower
• focus on my goals
• save money
• look in the eyes
• try to make someone smile
• say "i love you"
• believe in love
• write or draw my feelings when necessary
• learn a new word
• not be afraid to do what i want
• be thankful for the small things

• professional
  • graduate as a biologist
  • learn a third lenguage (fluently)
  • get a master's degree
• personal
  • get my driver's license
  • live alone
  • live outside my home country
  • have my own small farm (make it sustainable)
  • buy my own house
  • publish a poetry book
• travel
  • London
  • New York
  • Italy
  • South Africa
  • Toronto

< take my hand, take my whole life too >

• go to an amusement park
• make you a dinner at my place
• eat ice cream at ben&jerry's
• surprise you with your favourite flower
• take (a lot) of pictures
• play guitar for you
• stare at the stars
• watch old rom-coms
• kiss you at new year
• travel every-fucking-where
• dance to old records
• play snooker at a grunge bar

fall :

• see the rain ending summer
• see the trees without leaves
• read good books with more disposition
• enjoy the first cold breezes after summer

winter :

• hot drinks
• spent a time in the bathtub
• hug people (fuck you covid)
• wear boots
• go out without getting tan
• wear pretty coats

spring :

• take pretty photos of flowers that are starting to blossom
• eat berries
• lay in the ground without freezing
• do morning workouts with more disposition...