• my college preference
• my location
• my ability to dress the way I want to
• my career choices
• my outlook on life
• my haircut
• life
• my desire to actually make these lists
  • because now I prefer just using physical sticky notes for practical lists, and then documenting everything else in my journal.

that's all.

• Write three college essays
  • learn to talk myself up without sounding full of myself
• Study for my second round of the SATs
  • in particular, math. Geometry is brutal
• Get my permit
• Finish Anna Karenina
• Finish American Pastoral
• Start (and hopefully finish) Brothers Karamazov
• Write journals for all of these books
• Write journals for myself
• Go to kickboxing
• Do yoga in the morning
• Stop drinking energy drinks!
• Write my second world lit paper (Antigone, ew)
• Find a play to direct for Theater next year

• Move to Boston, and continue to write love letters to the city.
• Attend Emerson College, otherwise known as your Dream School, for something artistic.
• Dress the part.
• Get a fun, low paying job.
• Wear hats frequently, because you look damn good in them.
• Buy heels, and learn to walk in them.
• Get a beautiful haircut.
• Spend sunny days in parks, with friends.
• Go out dancing.
• Constantly have a book to be read, but read slowly, to savor the smell.
• Drip with jewelry. of the plastic variation.
• Learn how to save your money!!
• Stop expecting the worst in people.
• Get a pedicure, just once, to know how i...

• Victoria's Secret Acai Berry and Magnolia Hydrating Body Lotion
• Him
• Anna Karenina
• Orange Chicken
• Sunshine
• Videos I took in Boston
• Ben Folds- Rockin' the Suburbs
• cherry trees blooming
• playing Beauty and the Beast on the piano at home alone
• massages from my equally stressed out but still kind friends
• secretive and dirty obsessions (*cough* The Hills *cough)
• cotillion dress wishing
• Griffin, my neighbor's retarded but absolutely adorable artois hound dog (he's a cutie, and i love him)
• chapstick!
• JULIA NUNES! mmmhmm

People who've been into my bathroom know I have a bit too many kinds of perfume for a 16 year old girl...

• Deseo by Jennifer Lopez
• Burberry London
• Dreaming by Tommy Hilfiger
• Clinique Happy
• Cool by Ralph Lauren
• Notorious by Ralph Lauren
• Calvin Klein IN2U
• Escada Sunset Heat

Sunday

• Fanueil Hall
  • street acts
  • urban outfitters
  • candy shop
• Isabella Gardner Museum
• Harvard Square
  • L.A. Burdicks
  • Bertuccis
• Boston University

• Stella, Ida Maria
• Modern Mystery, Someone Still Loves You, Boris Yeltsin
• The Band, Mando Diao
• Five Years Time, Noah and the Whale
• I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked, Ida Maria
• A Change is Gonna Come, Sam Cookes
• Into the Sunshine, Julia Nunes
• All Y'all, Gringo Star
• Question, Rhett Miller
• Let's Dance to Joy Division, The Wombats
• Pirates- The Filthy Youth

Just a tad bipolar...

• Couldn't go to a great New Years party because I lied to my mom about there being parents at the party; had to stay home with my mom and her friend.
• Fell madly in love with Kurt Vonnegut through a 10 page paper I had to write on him (which I never finished). Decided I would devote my life to making a shrine for him, then decided that was creepy.
• First Kiss: age 15, with one of my best friends during a game of spin the bottle. Then left and hyperventilated the entire car ride home.
• Trip to Mexico with oldest friend and family. Decided I hated Northern California and never wanted to go back.
• Finally told my crush of a year and a half that I liked him, and started going out with him
• Trip to London with my mom, wanted to go home immediately, although loved it.

• Everyone Loves Mutton (don't ask)
• Somewhere Under the Rainbow (an original)
• The Music Man
• Cyrano De Bergerac
• West Side Story
• Aria de Capo
• Henry IV
• Henry V part 1&2
• Fugue
• King Lear

• Ikea
• Barnes and Noble's
• Dottie May's Closet
• H&M
• The Arcata Co-op
• Atomica
• Northtown Books
• The Linen Closet
• Forever 21
• The Metro
• David & Goliath

1st Crush:

• Nickleback- This is how you remind me
• Eminem- The Real Slim Shady
• Nelly- Ride wit Me (yeah, you can tell the kind of taste in music both of us had)
• Jackson Browne- Doctor My Eyes
• The Dresden Dolls- The Jeep Song

2nd Crush:

• Hellogoodbye- Here (in your arms)
• Get Set Go- Wait
• Cake- Friend is a Four Letter Word
• The Weepies- World Spins Madly On
• Akon- Don't Matter
• A Fine Frenzy- Almost Lover
• MoZella- Amnesia
• Ben Harper- Walk Away

3rd Crush:

• Snow Patrol- You Could Be Happy
• Sia- Rewrite

• Turkey
• Iran
• Greece
• Chile
• Canada
• New Zealand
• Japan

(these countries are just the ones I am prioritizing.)

• Be a working actress/playwright/director
• Have an income of more than 50,000 per year
• Have a kid
• wear high heels because it's necessary
• Live independently from others
• Take the subway often
• Publish something (a book? a poem? an article?)
• have a wall
• dance frequently
• maintain my bitch factor, in a nice way
• love myself
• continue to dream about what I will be when I grow up
• own pearls
• work two jobs (is that weird?)
• be colorful
• swear colorfully
• appreciate the present
• look back on it all and laugh

• a puppy
• ✔ an A in Math Studies
• a new haircut
• a job
• a license
• a good boyfriend
• a trip to Russia
• a new perspective on life
• independence
• moving to Boston
• ✔ a party dress (preferably red. don't ask me why, i don't know)
• a bunny
• an unlimited supply of diet pepsi
• the knowledge of how to make the perfect bubble bath
• a vision
• fewer Internal Assessments
• more sunny days
• new music
• a rockstar (the real thing or the energy ...

• Diet Coke
• Pokemon
• Powerpuff Girls
• Barbies
• Tetris
• Rotisserie Chicken from Costco
• Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream
• Shirley Temples
• High Heels
• Japanese Dramas
• Zombie Movies
• Amp (AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!)
• Frosting
• Watching popcorn pop in a microwave
• Not doing homework
• Romance Novels (I know, I know)
• Gummi Worms
• Buffy the Vampire Slayer
• Milka Chocolate

• Successfully wear red lipstick
• Pierce something unexpected
• Go to Japan
• Write a song
• Master French
• Get a fake ID
• ✔ Get a job
• Celebrate may day inappropriately
• ✔ Go on a road trip with friends
• Sing in public
• Get my license
• Find somewhere in the U.S. to buy Milka chocolate and Vegemite
• Get a puppy!!
• Have an affair
• Get better at Mario Kart
• Make a music video with Jessica
• Build a fort
• Fall in love

• The parking lot behind the Masonic Lodge
• Bon Boniere
• Clam Beach
• My bed
• Sunny Brae
• Airports
• out of town Cd stores
• the Bottoms
• huddled in the back of the bus (any bus)
• sprawled out on the plaza (only on sunny days)
• Gist Theater, Humboldt State University
• hiding...in my greenhouse
• sitting outside of Murphy's Market
• Healthsport
• My backyard

• New York City, New York
• Boston, Massachusetts
• Brisbane, Australia
• Bobo Dioulasso, Burkina Faso
• Rennes, France
• Portland, Oregon
• Austin, Texas
• Okinawa, Japan
• Moscow, Russia
• Ashland, Oregon
• Flint, Michigan
• Athens, Greece
• Stockholm, Sweden
• Reykjavik, Iceland
• Chisinau, Moldova
• Rome, Italy
• Brasilia, Brazil
• San Diego, California
• Rouen, France
• Sydney, Australia
• Amsterdam, Netherlands

• kickboxing on Tuesdays and Thursdays
• Never turn in a late history assignment
• Finish Biology labs
• Read Anna Karenina
• Find the right college
• Get into right college
• Get a part time job
• Succeed in the IB!!
• Hip hop classes on the weekends
• Stop eating truffles in the middle of the night
• Stop being a closet anime nerd
• Get my license
• Get both Kings of Leon cds
• Practical Play Project
• ✔ Read The House of the Spirits
• Focus on the future
• Study for the SATS
• Take the SATS
• not FAIL the SATS
• Be happy with myself

• Emerson College (Boston, Massachusetts)
• Syracuse University (Syracuse, New York)
• Ithaca University (Ithaca, New York)
• Bucknell University (Lewisburg, Pennsylvania)
• Boston University (Boston, Massachusetts)
• Southern Oregon University (Ashland, Oregon)
• University of California: Santa Cruz (Santa Cruz, California)
• Evergreen State College (Olympia, Washington)

• doc marten boots
• knitted scarves
• stockings
• hair pins
• turquoise rings
• WWF sweatshirt
• Shirt dress
• headbands
• motorcycle boots
• knit hat
• summer dress
• long sleeve shirts
• oversized cardigan
• tweed flats

• MATH STUDIES
  • Make flashcards for math formulas
  • Take and correct both paper 1 and 2
  • Meet with Rick at 7:30 w/ MS seniors
  • Figure out how to find the 1st and 2nd derivatives (?!)
  • Highlight the chapters (particularly chapter 13)
  • Study with Bri
  • Teach myself logarithms
  • Fight hysteria
    • NOT stress eat
    • maybe take up meditation?
    • or Valium
  • Relearn Standard Deviation/Sigma Notation
• FRENCH
  • Use verb flashcards

• That there was a giant dinosaur standing outside my bedroom window staring at me
• That I was doing a treasure hunt in a haunted house filled with dead things
• That a tsunami hit my house
• That my parents got turned into zombies
• That my parents got turned into aliens
• That my parents got divorced and didn't love me anymore
• That my teeth were slowly receding back up into my gums
• That I had a stalker trying to kill everyone I knew and no one believed me
• That I was getting the mail and a school bus was going down my street and it was going to run me over but I couldn't move or scream
• That my friend got shot and died
• That my other friend got shot and died
• That I was Trinity in the Matrix but I had no Neo, and was trapped in the Matrix

• Welcome to the Monkey House- Kurt Vonnegut
• LAMB- Christopher Moore
• Anna Karenina- Leo Tolstoy
• In a Sunburned Country- Bill Bryson
• A Tree Grows in Brooklyn- Betty Smith
• Twilight- Stephenie Meyers
• Thirteen Reasons Why- Jay Asher
• The Virgin Suicides- Jeffrey Eugenides

• facebook.com
• thescribblesheet.blogspot.com
• galadarling.com
• thefrisky.com
• listography.com
• mangafox.com
• youtube.com
• pbfcomics.com
• cookingcute.com
• twitter.com
  • (i don't actually have an account, but the whole process fascinates me, so i spend a lot of time on other people's accounts)
• urbandictionary.com
• wordreference.com
• fmylife.com
• pandora.com
• hm.com
• freetetris.org

• Mistaken for an actual French person while ordering crepes in Paris, France
• Eating Kabobs in Rennes, France with my best friends
• Fitting 7 people into a 4 person car in Zihuatanejo, Mexico
• Impromptu drum lessons on a roof in Bobo Dioulasso, Burkina Faso
• Watching the sun come up on another roof in Accra, Ghana
• Walking around Oxford, England with my mom in the sunshine
• Running around Camden, England with my mom in the rain
• Walking on Homer's Spit in Alaska on the Summer Solstice, at 2am, watching Bald eagles
• Eating cheesecake in the Metro Station in New York City
• Being hit on at my hotel by a much older man in Hawaii, in front of my parents

• Kurt Vonnegut Jr.
• Garry Bardin
• Travis McCoy
• Julia Nunes
• Dont Hertzfeldt
• James Franco
• Zooey Deschanel
• Barack Obama
• Jimmy Fallon
• Jermaine Clement
• Chris Leavins
• Jay Asher
• Leo Tolstoy
• Lee (mysterious, attractive Korean man I met in France, never to be seen again)
• Robert Pattinson
• Jenny Lewis

Because everyday has a new playlist:

• Grow Up and Blow Away, Metric
• Golden Slumbers, The Beatles
• The Queen of White Lies, The Orion Experience
• Cookie Jar, Gym Class Heroes
• Baby Carni Bird, Camille
• Pavlov's Bell, Aimee Mann
• Cigarettes & Chocolate Milk, Rufus Wainwright
• I Think I'm In Love, Beck
• Lights Out, Santogold
• Chairlift, Evident Utensil
• Miracle?, Kristoff Krane
• Wanna Be In L.A., Eagles of Death Metal
• She's A Rainbow, The Rolling Stones
• Alone, Unicorn Dream Attack