• old fashioned glass milk bottles
• people having crappy cars (Sookie in true blood, Camille in sharp objects.)
• mental hospitals being old fashioned
• women putting on hand lotion before bed all the time in so many things
• couples saying I thought we said no gifts
• people looking at framed photos when someone else comes in the room
• people barely talking
• couples reaching for the other one in bed and they aren’t there
• people burning breakfast and then burning their hand on the skillet
• people putting out cigarettes way before they’re finished
• swallowing pills dry
• leaving lights on when parents put their kids to bed, like actual lamps
• ”witty” voicemail messages

• scary movies
  • halloween✅
  • scream (all)✅
  • trick r treat
  • you're next✅
  • coraline✅
  • phantom of the megaplex
  • tower of terror✅
  • are you afraid of the dark?
  • goosebumps✅
  • practical magic✅
• get spooky phone case
• decorate room✅
• paint/decorate pumpkins✅
• spooky room stuff✅
• get new horror movie poster✅
• go to fall/halloween festival(s)
• spook around town on halloween night
• figure out costume

• Ratter~~~
• The Purge Anarchy
• memento
• absentia (again)
• mark of the vampire
• the strangers (again)
• descent (again)
• sinister
• insidious(s)(again)

• bates motel
• the affair
• real housewives bh, oc, nyc, dallas
• southern charm
• house of cards
• blood line
• scream
• scream queens
• AHS (murder house, coven, apocalypse)
• Big Little Lies
• Girls
• Vanderpump Rules
• Riverdale
• 13 reasons why
• The sinner
• sharp objects
• the bachelor
• rupauls drag race
• servant
• the haunting of hill house
• the flight attendant

• Dolly Parton
• Lana del rey
• diane von furstenberg
• marilyn
• christina hendricks
• erika girardi
• lisa vanderpump
• Alice (in wonderland)
• Bette Davis
• Brie Larson
• Cleopatra
• Jessica Lange and her characters
• emma roberts and her characters
• sarah paulson
• Jamie Lee Curtis
• Cher
• Nigella Lawson
• Liv Tyler
• vera farmiga

• small cracks on my phone screen (I think they're cute.)
• bloody ambulances found in scary movies
• history/mythology about mistletoe etc.
• the mystique of pirates
• weird notes written in steam
• heart shaped funeral wreaths
• costume jewelry
• people’s bedrooms when they aren’t home/when they’re dead.
• player pianos
• wax seals
• sin cake eaters
• teddy bear picnic song
• anagrams
• staircases (different types/styles, victorian history etc.)
• gentian violet ink skin markers
• old train cars/railway sleeping cars
• anytown usa
• idea of sea fever

• psychology
• makeup/beauty
• animals
• horror movies/pop culture
• spirituality/after life/etc.
• where I want to live/travel
• decor
• reality television
• matrix
• conspiracies
• secrets
• gossip

• hair care
  • clarifying/strengthening/shine shampoos
  • shine/strength conditioner
  • teasing combs
  • scrunchies
• skin care
  • milky cleansers and deep cleaning/clarifying when I need it
  • face masks/sheet masks
    • purifying clay masks
    • hydrating masks
    • brightening and tightening masks
  • glowy serums
  • creamy moisturizers, light but rich
  • facial mists
  • skin oil for dry skin or overnight use
  • exfoliating skin brushes/konjac sponges
• makeup

Purse

• cute key chains
• cute strap attached

Car

• mirror frame
• stearing wheel cover
• seat covers (soft and simple)

Bed

• varied types of pillows (not all decorative cushions) body pillow, regular pillows with varied pillow cases, large white cushions, some pillows with shams
• cute/quality/antique stuffed animals (not tacky/cheap)
• pretty, soft, or simple sheets
• a luxe comforter (down, white, or delicate, pink)
• throw blankets of different types, one with fringe, knitted, plush, printed (cute,...

• generally working out, not eating excessively
• drinking lots of water, taking medicine first thing
• keep reading
• get my license back
• therapy
• make own money (some)
• have own car
• have own place
• eventually wealthy and successful, aka more than comfortable with money and fulfilled, able to live luxuriously*
• married with 4-5 children <3

• detox for tomorrow
• laundry
• magnesium
• no cymbalta
• zicam and decongestant every 3 + 4 hours
• yoga
• lemon water - 4 glasses
• detox tea
• do some reading tonight for art history
• fold laundry in room while mom is gone and watch dr. phil on computer

• divinity
• pure
• pedigree
• lineage
• dynasty
• sordid
• lurid
• alluring
• tawdry
• gaudy
• darling
• sacharine
• macabre
• tragic (tragique)
• femme
• transcend/transcendent
• oppulent
• depravity
• wicked
• horror
• sin

Beauty

• glossier milky cleanser ✅ moisturizer ✅
• hot tools curling iron (big) ⭐ ⭐ ⭐✅
• new beauty blender ✅
• sleek highlighting palette✅
• Louise young super foundation brush✅
• juicy shakers✅
• dr. jart water replenishing sheet mask
• ouai wave spray + texture spray✅
• boar bristle round brush ✅
• grandiose wide fan mascara✅
• crest professional white strips✅
• nars radiant creamy concealer✅
• Guerlain L'Or radiance primer
• mac fix plus✅
• clinique chubby stick curvy contour✅
• new beauty blender✅
• hoola bronzer✅
• charlotte tilbury lip pencil (iconic nude...

• AHS season 6 ep. 1✅
• Nocturnal Animals (Dec. 6)✅
• how the grinch stole Christmas (animated)
• little girl blue✅
• women he's undressed
• who took johnnie
• get out (feb 24 2017)✅
• The Smiling Man (short film)
• Them (french)
• lake mungo✅
• the affair season 3! (nov. 20)✅
• natural born killers
• american pastoral
• big little lies (hbo) feb 19✅
• the Belko experiment
• xx (feb 17)✅
• personal shopper (march 10 2017)✅
• fued (Bette and Joan) march 5 2017✅
• the beguiled (summer 2017)
• before I fall (march 3 2017)✅

• everything is okay
• nothing is under control
• "Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final."

• Bali
• Morocco
• Burano Island, Venice
• Lido Seashore, Venice, Italy
• Ljubljana, Slovenia
• The Enchanted Forest, Oberursel, Germany
• The Enchanted River in Surigao, Philippines
• doolin/Lisdoonvarna, Ireland

• a beautiful shade of pink
• effortlessly sexy clothes
• a good horror movie
• a good drama (family, love, personal drama, scandal, affairs, death)
• reality television
• the sun, laying out, getting a tan
• myself
• feeling confident
• receiving packages
• dressing up (halloween, just for fun etc.)
• home decor - maximalism
• clean people, clean areas
• self help - quotes, advice, techniques
• graphic design - the feeling of inspiration and then working and refining until it's done and it's just a gem of perfection
• self awareness, good social behavior, niceties

• monument valley
• moon app
• pocket camp
• this

Primer

• amazing cosmetics Anti-Aging Face Primer, baby skin primer, becca backlight priming filter, smashbox primer water, tarte poreless primer

Foundation

• estee lauder double wear, revlon colorstay, loreal stay matte, mac pro longwear, soap and glory kick ass foundation, milani conceal and perfect, covergirl outlast all day

Concealer

• maybelline age rewind, maybelline fit me, sonia kashuk hidden agenda palette, nars radiant creamy concealer, tarte shape tape, Jeffree Star Magic concealer

Powders

• Coty airspun powder, rimmel stay matte, l...

• Pomeranian
• fluffy corgi
• munchkin cat
• yorkie
• ducklings
• bunny

• thinking from the inside out
• asking : am I being kind? Am I respecting others? am I living in this moment only?
• being myself
• being honest with myself
• taking the high road, being childlike, letting things roll off me
• having fun
• letting go
• loving myself
• whatever I want/do/feel is perfect and exactly how it should be

• dirty dancing soundtrack
• noble oak
• patsy cline
• princess Chelsea
• kwamie liv
• Otis Redding
• song - uoeno
• music from all good things/American beauty/eternal sunshine of the spotless mind - jon brion
• the shins
• 4 non blondes what's going on
• gene austin - tonight you belong to me
• drake (lust for life/houstalantsvegas/club paradise/over my dead body/doing it wrong/outro/winters song)
• as tall as lions
• the war on drugs
• Siouxsie and the banshees
• lana
• billie holiday

• succession
• American horror story
• house of cards
• big little lies
• true blood
• sharp objects
• the undoing

• "It's Halloween, everyone's entitled to one good scare." (halloween)
• "It's just strange. One day someone's walking around, going to work, alive, and then...Nothing. People just disappear, the earth just... opens up and swallows them." "Eerie. Really eerie." (American psycho)
• "The soul of sweet delight can never be defiled."(William Blake)
• "I'm not angry, I'm just furious."(Anne Bancroft/Lyn Lesley - don't bother to knock)
• "I don't like jokes, I don't think they're funny." (Bill freaks and geeks)
• "I belong to everybody that I walk by like hi, hi" (Lana)
• "When you don't know what to do, sit still."
• "Sometimes even a blind pig finds a truffle."

• roses
  • rosa the fairy
  • souvenir de la malmaison
  • madame Alfred Carriere
  • blush noisette
• bleeding hearts
• canterbury Bells
• snap dragons
• peonies
• babys breath
• hydrangea
• night blooming flowers
  • moonflower
  • evening primrose
  • mock orange
• lily of the valley
• wisteria
• violets
• hollyhock

Do

• shower
• use eye drops
• do purifying mask✅, hydrating mask, and sheet mask✅
• finish sheets and make bed
• clean up room
• LAUNDRY ALL DAY UNTIL ITS ALL DONE
• wash rug
• wash towels
• Clean vanity
• call Chatlos
• READ
• read more
• be alone
• work out
• clean bathroom
• take nail polish off and make nails nice/paint them
• stay clearheaded

Buy

• scream -scene before/after grocery store with red right hand, that chanty/choir type light woman voice
• all good things -at health food store and NYC apartment and very beginning
• great gatsby - on balcony and tea scene with daisy and gatsby, and shirt throwing
• funny games - whenever Michael Pitt smiles at Naomi watts
• mysterious skin - jason Gordon levvit at the playground and in motel room laying on bed and when he has his head at an angle and when he smiles
• american beauty - kevin spacey and mena in living room with annie lennox, end with shooting, anytime kevin spacey is alone (especially shirtless) being daddy like
• Alice in wonderland - flowers singing all in a golden afternoon, walrus and carpenter, in a world of my own with Dinah
• big fish - spector poem by steve buscemi,...

pink, white, black, neutrals and some red that looks warm

• chandelier for room
• candles
• crystal candle holders
• drapes for around bed - pinks/whites/creams
• new curtains
• new rug
• fancy antiquey stool for makeup table
• new garbage can
• even newer garbage can
• new jersey sheets
• new pretty sheets
• BIG mirror
• quality wall decor (romantic Renaissance art/romantic art/other starlets or old Hollywood in general/old horror)
• table cloth for tables/doilies and cloths for surfaces
• new pink Christmas lights for around wind...

• true romance
• wild at heart
• valley of the dolls✅
• dracula (both)
• nosferatu
• ruby
• running scared
• salvage
• what ever happened to baby jane
• the captive
• red headed woman
• baby face
• female
• the vanishing✅
• original wicker man
• the man who smiles
• dinner at eight
• the public enemy
• leave her to heaven
• The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari
• chinatown

• towns that shouldn't exist in the southwest
• bible belt
• New Orleans
• Nashville, Memphis, Tennessee (Graceland)
• Charleston, South Carolina (The Palmer Home)
• Savannah, Georgia
• Puerto Vallarta
• beverly hills hotel
• chateau marmont
• tokyo, bunny island, internet/gaming places, cute cafes, downtown, neon areas, clubs
• marilyns house
• plaza hotel
• catacombs
• pyraminds

• go to Edwards school, mt. Misery, trails, etc
• water park
• beach✅
• shell ✅
• camping
• movies ✅
• broadway
• cruise
• antiquing ✅

• focus on what you DO want ALWAYS
• fill your mind with beauty
• BOOKS :
  • dying to be me by anita moorjani
  • the awakening heart by betty j eadie
• VIDEOS :
  • It's just a ride