• Staedtler MarsGraphic 3000 Duo


  • Prismacolor Color Markers


  • Micron 0.05
  • Staedtler 0.05 / 0.3 / 0.1 / 0.05
feb 23 2012 ∞
feb 23 2012 +

THE GOOD SHIT (to kern text to at 3AM)

  • hope - who am i to say (retra's remix)
  • anything by yo la tengo
  • crazy love (van morrison OR m. buble)
  • paper route - the music (cello)
  • 500 days of summer scores
  • coeur de pirate
  • any and all paper route
nov 21 2011 ∞
nov 21 2011 +

nobody ever sets out with the intention of average. no one plans to amount to insignificance, nobody dreams of being stuck in shitty commutes to work and having a shitty job - or arguably worse, an average job - to look forward to.

the reality is, most everyone finds themselves there at some point. meaningless work life and unsatisfying personal lives aside, one of the most heartbreaking facets of these sad lives is knowing, remembering - that as a young child, you never dreamed you'd be working as a faceless business slave, a public transit worker, a sales associate at your local hardware store/supermarket/etc.

but even in the rarest scenarios - where you work hard, you find love, you have a beautiful life, and all goes well.. even worse than all of the cases of people condemned to insignificance and people who are going to be condemned to shitty, empty...

aug 21 2011 ∞
aug 21 2011 +
  • aerie 5 for $25s
  • matt & nat tote/shoulder/crossbody
  • keds - to paint
  • helix
jun 11 2011 ∞
jun 22 2011 +

thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou c:

just as a 'btdubs starter', i think i am quickly picking up a dangerous habit. listography was originally supposed to serve as an organizational life device for me to get my shit together and be organized and manage things well (which i might well start doing, actually) - but all of said accomplishing things has been momentarily pushed aside in favor of you. which is both perfectly fine by me and REALLY BAD at the same time, seeing as it is now 12:51 AM, and i am WAY behind on almost everything.

i'm just incredibly glad i saw you yesterday. and it has merited yet another nonlist list note on this page; and i am kind of shaking my head (mentally) at myself and also trying to be efficient and basically finish so i can get ready for bed like a good cyber student and wake up and be...

may 16 2011 ∞
may 16 2011 +

this is a letter. truth be told, i would be writing this on microsoft word; except for some reason unknown to me, i have psychologically duped myself into thinking that writing it over the internet will make me sound slightly less retarded. though really, i'm not sure it'll make any difference, because a) the internet is probably much less safe thanks to google technology, b) i've basically thought about writing all of these thoughts down so many times that it's nearly scripted, and c) the only logical time for me to be giving you anything of this sort is really the start of summer.. so i'm a good several months early.

at this very moment, i am completely neglecting my art history essay, which i promised to work on all today (and yesterday), but that clearly didn't happen. i did that thing where i attempt to schedule myself, except it failed miserably and i end...

apr 30 2011 ∞
apr 30 2011 +
  • Corn Pops
  • Frosted Flakes
  • Froot Loops
  • On Track - Strawberry
  • On Track - Almonds & Honey
  • Special K
  • Harvest Crunch Granola
  • Cinnamon Toast Crunch
  • Apple Jacks
  • Corn Flakes
  • Lucky Charms
dec 23 2009 ∞
dec 23 2009 +
  • Vanilla
  • Chinese Bakeries
  • Paint
  • Mini pizzas [and full-size pizzas]
  • Britney Spears' Fantasy
  • Calgon Hawaiian Ginger Body Spray
  • Secret Scent Expressions Vanilla Chai
  • Artificial cherries
  • Fabric Softener tissues
  • Herbal Essences Hairspray
  • Banana bread
  • Pasta
  • Other Italian foods
  • Orange Creamsicles
  • Cake
  • Soap [clean people]
  • Clean boys!
  • Candy
  • Cute, clean boys
  • Strawberry shampoo
  • Apple shampoo
dec 13 2009 ∞
dec 13 2009 +
  • Aeropostale V-Neck Drape Cardigan
  • Aeropostale Solid V-Neck Sweater
  • American Eagle Cable-Knit V-Neck Sweater
  • American Eagle Rugby Stripe Cardigan
  • American Eagle Women's Puffer Coat
  • American Apparel Polka Dot Flex Fleece Zip Hoodie
  • GAP Always Skinny Destructed Jeans
  • Betsey Johnson Heart Ruffle Dress
  • Betsey Johnson Purple Sequin-Tiered Dress
  • Punkrose Women's Funk Zebra Stud Sneaker
  • Forever 21 Houndstooth DB Jacket
  • Alex and Ani Initial Ring - J
  • Urban Outfitters Assorted Initial Pendant - J
  • Urban Outfitters Silver Initial Necklace - J
  • Laurentian Chief Fur Trim Lined Ankle Boot
  • Coal Women's Coco Beanie
dec 12 2009 ∞
dec 12 2009 +
  • Chinese Dim Sum Fritters
  • Potato Salad
  • Facebook [in secret]
  • AE Warm Boots
  • One Tree Hill's Peyton Sawyer
  • My life, in general
  • People, in general
  • Granola
  • Zucchinis [sauted with Montreal steak seasoning]
  • Text messaging
  • Comforting, homey country music
  • Nina Dobrev
  • U2
  • Restaurant City
  • Short Hair
  • Naps
  • Sufficient sleep
  • Exercise
  • Running
  • My hair
dec 12 2009 ∞
dec 12 2009 +
  • bic runga - sway
  • third eye blind - semi-charmed life
  • third eye blind - slow motion (instrumental)
  • third eye blind - how's it going to be
  • joseph arthur - honey and the moon
  • matt nathanson - laid
  • LFO - girl on TV
  • LFO - summer girl
  • guns n roses - paradise city
  • hanson - i will come to you
  • bachelor number one - i am the summertime
  • sugar ray - every morning
  • nsync - god must have spent (a little more time on you)
  • BSB
  • savage garden - truly madly deeply
  • savage garden - i knew i loved you
  • sky - love song
  • s club 7 - s club party
may 23 2012 ∞
may 23 2012 +


  • smith's rosebud salve - strawberry
  • smith's rosebud salve - mocha rose
  • tokidoki punk lash mascara: green/purple
  • tokidoki vinyl - DOLCE (unicorno)
  • eOS lip sphere


  • helix piercing
  • TNA hockey toque - black/pink
  • prismacolors - markers [skin shades/grays]
  • converse to paint? (or just time to repaint mine*)
  • portfolio w/ strap
  • murad refills
nov 27 2011 ∞
dec 18 2011 +

let's just be totally frank and honest, right now. i am probably the last person in the world who should, and would be writing this letter. in fact, i have absolutely no reason (rationally, of course) to be thinking these things, and not going to sleep, and feeling uncertain.

but sometimes.. i just wonder. truth be told, you are as close to perfect as i could have imagined. you make me happy in light and dark; we can spend afternoons talking or laughing or sleeping and regardless; my heart always feels lighter afterwards. i want to share as much as i can with you; and i want to give you everything i possibly can. i secretly think it would be fucking awesome if we could share some kind of space in the future (far, far off in the future) somewhere close to lots of yummy places where we can eat when we're not messing around in the kitchen. i kind of want to share fights with you (bu...

nov 7 2011 ∞
nov 7 2011 +

o hai you,

so IF you listened (which i am trusting that you did! c:) to me, this letter should find you on your plane to africa. or, rather, germany, because i remember you mentioning a stopover there, but besides the point.

to start - i really, honestly do hope you know how wonderfully lovely the past several months have been, and just how much you've been a part of that. there are truly an innnumerable number of memories i could write into this letter; but for several reasons (that will be touched upon later), i'll refrain.

tonight, for example, the VERY night i am writing this, was no exception. at some point, everyone in my life has come to realize that i've always been a rather panicky and fairly melodramatic person who worries about many things, and can often fall into a ramble of psychobabble.

jun 27 2011 ∞
jun 28 2011 +
  • ** = THINK ABOUT
  • = maybe/if time permits

total: 83 (necessity)83 + 12 = 95 (+ for fun)

  • faces (26)
  • 24 class
  • 2 staff

priority (5/6)

  • archival
  • finished
  • WIP
  • high priority
  • emergency/ISU?

folders/storage (3)

  • portfolio (3 colors)

browsers (5)

  • ie
jun 1 2011 ∞
jun 4 2011 +

and that being said, every morning, waking up and just living my day has been made so much more special ever since you happened - which, as much as i am getting used to (and absolutely loving), still honestly does blow my mind when i really sit and think about it. before friday afternoons snuggling on my couch reading the book of questions, and holding hands in the art studio, and before our 40,000+ word inbox message.. before vimeo shorts were exchanged, and charrettes and E.T.-esque finger touches, and granola bar balcony conversations. before texting in world history/bio period and late nights sitting at our respective keyboards, before getting intentionally lost together and exploring ravines at trinity bellwoods. before HARRY POTTER and the first night we did something. sometime after info night-open house.

thinking about that now, it's amazing how...

apr 30 2011 ∞
may 1 2011 +
  • OMFG (pronoun, Om-fug) - Oh My Fucking God. Can be used to express surprised, ie 'Omfug, did you see that girl's skirt? Soo cute!' but tends to be used in a negative context, in the manner of 'Omfug I can't believe Justine is almost caught up to you on Country Story'
  • T3H (Tee-three-aytche) - The, can also be pronounced "teh" and used in its regular context, i.e. "did you see teh movie?" "I did it was great!"
  • LOLS (Lah-ls) - Laugh Out Loud. Replaces the laugh in a conversation, in response to something funny, i.e. "and then he said, GAY VAMPIRE!" "Oh LOL LOL LOL!"
  • ROTFLOLS (roh-tiff-lah-ls) - An even funnier version of LOLS.
  • YSL (Yis-sle, rhymes with Missle) - the late, great Yves Saint Laurent
  • GTFO (verb, Git-fo) - Get the Fuck Out. A variation on OMFG that can be used in a ...
dec 30 2009 ∞
jan 10 2010 +
  • Apricot-Stuffed Toast [via George Street Diner]
  • Crepes with whipped cream and fresh fruit
  • Fresh mini pizzas
  • Corn Pops
  • Frosted Flakes
  • Waffles & Bananas/Syrup
  • Waffles & Assorted fruit/Yogurt
  • Breakfast Smoothies
  • Froot Loops
  • Leftover birthday cake
  • Bagels with margarine
  • Blueberry-Banana pancakes
  • Sausage & Scrambled Eggs
  • Chinese Sausage Buns [via Gloucester Bakery]
  • Chinese Custard Buns [via Gloucester Bakery]
  • Ham & Egg Sandwiches [via Leslie Cafe]
  • Yogurt & Granola
dec 13 2009 ∞
dec 13 2009 +
  • Cereal
  • Water
  • Art
  • Music [emphasis on the 90s]
  • Goals
  • Resourcefulness
  • Friends/Family
  • Crying
  • Shampoo
  • Knowledge
  • Success
  • Pasta
  • Self-knowledge
  • My senses
  • Hair elastics
  • Lip balm
  • My blanket
  • My Therapy jacket
  • Persimmons
  • Bananas
  • Microwaves
dec 13 2009 ∞
dec 13 2009 +
  • Without fail, it always provokes some kind of emotional reaction
  • Peyton Sawyer = Ultimate Style Inspiration
  • Witty conversation that will, unfortunately, never happen in real life
  • Meaningful quotes, thanks to Lucas Scott & the writers
  • Killer casting
  • Killer plotlines
  • Killer musical direction
  • Ending montages, complete with narration
  • It never fails to make me laugh when I'm feeling sucky
  • It never fails to catch my interest
  • It was my religion, all summer long, from 4PM to 5PM
  • It makes me wish that boys like half of the freaking cast existed
  • It's none of that shitty 'The Secret Life of the American Teenager' crap.
dec 12 2009 ∞
dec 12 2009 +

that night [ 12.16.11 - 12.17.11 ]

  • beachwood sparks - by your side
  • coeur de pirate - intermission
  • birdy - 1901 (phoenix cover)
  • gayngs - last prom on earth
  • fisher - i will love you
  • coldplay - fix you
  • adam young - enchanted
  • michael buble - all i want for christmas
  • coldplay - sparks
dec 20 2011 ∞
dec 27 2011 +

it has occurred to me recently that my life feels empty. not that i'm not always doing something. not that i am. i busy myself with working and projects and yet i find myself trapped in this 1m x 1m deskspace and i'm not even confined to stay; i just DO IT. i don't think i feel the need to go out and go partying and do crazy shit with bunches of people. i'm not that. but i don't feel like i'm achieving anything and there is so much out there that i want to be ACHIEVING. why?

i have no clue. if i did.. i wouldn't be spending every day looking at clothes and graphic design and illustration and dribbble and logopond and doing homework eating yogurt and cereal in sweats and not being skinny and basically mildewing psychologically. shit, what the fuck am i going to do to feel awesome? i feel like i have no purpose in doing anything anymore.


nov 18 2011 ∞
nov 18 2011 +

shiiiittttt son.

yeah, i felt like i needed to start over. i don't know, i'll paraphrase from both of these boxes, it's cool. but basically, i'd hit a standstill on the purple letter, and then turned on a totoro song remix, and suddenly i basically decided i needed to do this.

i am incredibly excited for you going on this trip. i'm so glad you'll have the chance to see family, and travel, and experience an entirely new aspect of the world. you'll be playing a game you love, and documenting a breathtaking place - and meeting all of these people who are honestly going to find a lot of happiness and blessing from your being there.

now, if this isn't the case anymore, i apologize for the additional paragraph - but i want you know not to worry about this, at all. i remember you talking to me about the cultural gaps; the differences in...

jun 28 2011 ∞
jun 28 2011 +

a list of any, all, and everything we could do - though i know i'm going to love august anyways. c:

  • lying around anywhere air-conditioned
  • lying around eating unwashed berries directly from the plastic box
  • lying around at the conservatory
  • watching several ghibli and/or potter films and then falling into a really hardcore stupor
  • making tasty desserts
  • getting intentionally lost
  • trinity bellwoods (chinese church optional)
  • parps
  • the beach
  • trio reunions
  • meeting at least 5 strange new people
  • finding childhood places
  • secret beach?
jun 4 2011 ∞
jul 11 2011 +

ok, confession time now. this part has kind of been 'in progress' for a while; over the time i think about or spend time with you, some of these thoughts just come to me and i think you should have the opportunity to know (at some point. i'm sure i'll wake up on a non-sleep-deprived morning and reread this and feel like a huge tool) what you actually are, to me.

you're absolutely right in saying that you make me happy. just knowing i get to see you, or being around you, or thinking about it all is enough to put a massive anesthetic smile on my face, and honestly you have no idea (but you probably do c:) how lovely it is. you are my immediate thought upon hearing enchanted (by taylor swift OR adam young, though i prefer the adam version because it paces well when i mentally montage open house to it); which is great when i need to go to bed at night or wake up on lazy mornings.

may 1 2011 ∞
may 1 2011 +



  • cushy large fairisle sweater
  • tights (patterned, solid, colorful)


  • journeys: bullboxer tactical boots
  • garage: skinny jeans
  • zara: woollen cloth coat
  • futureshop: seagate 500GB BLUE external hard drive
  • aerie goddess eyeshadow palette
  • aerie red lip gloss
dec 19 2010 ∞
dec 24 2010 +
  • Sketchbook [if not in my hands]
  • LG Neon
  • JVC Blue Headphones
  • Agenda
  • Binders for school
  • Wallet [with money]
  • Bus Tickets
  • Bus Transfers
  • Pens
  • Vanilla Lip Balm [Step 1]
  • NYC Color Gloss [Step 2]
  • VitaGloss O2 Gloss [Step 3]
  • Trident White Cool Colada Gum
  • Keys
  • Empty gum packages
  • 16GB USB Key
  • Textbooks
  • Calculator
  • Mechanical Pencils [usually lacking lead]
  • Pentel AIN Erasers
dec 14 2009 ∞
dec 14 2009 +
  • Lip Gloss, from the girls
  • Eye makeup, from the girls
  • Red TNA Hoodie, from Hillary
  • Bergdorf Blondes, from P
  • Debutante Divorcee, from P
  • Erasers
  • Pencils
  • Pokemon Crystal, from Aubrey
  • A Game Boy Color, from Aubrey
  • Homework
  • Test answers [does that count?]
  • Phones, when I forget mine
  • Socks, from P
  • V-Necks, from P
  • Gym shorts, from P
  • Hair elastics
  • Fineliners and felt-tips
  • Lined Paper
  • Inspiration
  • Ideas
  • Quotes
dec 13 2009 ∞
dec 13 2009 +
  • Lights
  • Sherwood
  • The Cure
  • Sugar Ray
  • Death Cab For Cutie
  • Neon Neon
  • John Mayer
  • Teddy Geiger
  • The All-American Rejects
  • Nada Surf
  • Voxtrot
  • Forever The Sickest Kids
  • Cobra Starship
  • Gym Class Heroes
  • S Club 7
  • N*Sync
  • Atomic Kitten
  • Christina Aguilera; the late-1990s teen version
  • Jack's Mannequin
  • Jag Star
dec 12 2009 ∞
dec 12 2009 +