• in bed
• in a nice restaurant because i haven't eaten all day
• in New York at Red Bamboo
• at home and my mummy was cooking me tea
• at my real home making dinner with lou
• at my 18th birthday party because it was so, so fun
• with my nan and granddad getting fed loads of food
• in a nice cuddle with thomas
• seeing ej in leeds
• on holiday

• 7 of my best friends in the whole world live here
• the downstairs kitchen where me and lou cook is well nice
• broccoli soup!!
• house party friiidayyy
• work is accross the street
• so is the whole of leicester
• good film nights with expensive crisps
• everyone is up for doing good stuff all the time
• my massive window
• cot death
• dancing with thomas at bedtime
• running down the stairs then jumping down the last three
• NEVER GETTING DRESSED

• charity work
• making cakes
• writing out whats in my head
• washing shoes that i'd given up on
• selling stuff on ebay
• actually do my hair rather than get up and do nothing to it, i have

reached a new low

• go running (i am probably doing the london marathon now so this WILL happen)
• tell dick heads that they are dick heads, i like almost everyone, but i have a real problem tolerating mean people and bitchy girls

• there is room for two lovely rats in my bedroom
• 2 kitchens which will be clean
• i get to decorate my room
• i have a double bed
• lou lives underneath me
• we have an intercom on every floor
• when i'm a bit sad and want a cuddle and a giggle there are 7 people living with me who i can go and visit
• it's right near work/the station/sarah/shopping
• it's my first house like a grown up

• holidays
• jelly shoes (got two pairs!!)
• a bit of money
• a mouse and/or rat
• a clean house next year
• some really nice slippers
• long hair
• nice dinners forever
• an awesome summer

• grey days
• being so tired that i become dysfunctional
• junk food
• liars
• generic indie music
• bitchiness
• people that can't chill
• sticky floors
• falseness
• dirtiness/untidiness urghgghhhhh

• bed (all of them except my one at sawtry home because it's small and smells of potato)
• my room in leicester
• thomas' house
• drapers arms
• punjab
• beaumont hall block 5
• my car
• on some grass in sunshine

• we have a giant skull
• we have ballooons
• we have banners
• we have pumpkins
• we have a basement
• we have lots and lots of people coming
• we have a nice house
• we have a beslami..oh wait..

• ben kweller
• black flag
• mastodon
• babyshambles october single
• NFG
• Patti Smith
• albert hammond album (with sean lennon and ben kweller arghgh)
• kyuss
• moby and debbie harry new single (gay disco crazy mental)

music editorial weird

• new friends that i met doing charity work
• shorts
• thom (yorke and sadler)
• all my lovely books
• the new spotty writing book i got in paperchase
• the money i finally got paid this month and being able to buy stuff
• my friends, i love our phonecalls
• knowing that NY is only just over a month away and i'm going to have loads of money to take so i can buy lots of crap
• my dad, he never fail to be completely fantastic
• the lingering warmth from the children i spent last week with and knowing that i made a big difference in somepeoples lives
• hearing my sister coming in from dance school singing her heart out

• the prospect of my beautiful rats
• new found glory
• the sunshine
• i am obliged to do absolutely nothing
• the 2:1 i got yesterday
• emma-jane and louise and our day of cakes
• being home in a house with my pretty cats and a fridge full of good food
• that i woke up early and helped my sister do her hair and actually felt like a good big sister
• i am just thinking ftw over and over inside my head
• i had an amazing dream about icing cakes with my nan
• even the complete loss of any colour scheme on this thing isn't bothering me

• i am going to barcelona in two hours
• i get to see matt and chris and aaron lots before we go away for summer
• i can finish my book and start another
• i can just sit down and chill for a whole 20 hours on the coach-i don't sit down enough
• i am listening to the ramones and it's fucking brilliant
• just put on my new jelly shoes and they are pretty
• i get to go to the beeeeeach tomorrow
• just found out we get breakfast in our hotel in barcelona (less money)
• i can buy people cool barcelona presents, i love buying presents

• things being clean and tidy
• being with my favourite people
• fresh food
• animals
• trips to new places with good people
• holidays
• bed
• green tea/fruit tea
• being excited about the future
• walking places
• cuddles

• avocados
• grapes
• oranges
• ice cream
• mushrooms
• salad
• brie
• cream cakes
• profiteroles

• brian jonestown massacre
• ben kweller
• cat power
• new found glory X2 and an interview
• rancid
• music editor free gigs

• new york
• house
• new york
• house
• new york
• house
• new york
• house
• new york
• house

arghghghghghghgh

• get out of bed (thom went to work an hour ago and i'm still lying here, i am bad news)
• put a film on? possibly? get washed/dressed/pruned
• go meet jack and lou and emmajane if they are also about
• buy some amazing books (on my overdraft)
• come back here and see o'malley after work?
• realise that my day has the structural integrity of a jellyfish and go back to sleep?

• in the end, you are on your own
• i've spent a little too much time on my own
• people have a preoccupation with themselves and getting what they can regardless of anyone else
• there are a lot of people that need things that i can't give
• i just want to lay down and listen to music in a world that wants me to want wealth and success
• i haven't had enough cuddles
• i try to give 100% to people i care about, they don't always try as hard
• i miss those i've lost along the way
• i'm hungry/ haven't had enough sleep

well that was a depressing bit of self-analising

• Devendra Banhart
• Architecture in helsinki
• The Decemberists
• Pavement
• Floorpunch
• Led Zeppelin
• Nas

• california (homme)
• rome
• china
• tunisia
• sweden
• south africa
• cuba
• south of france
• japan