coming up next

• gut health; the sil 1/6
• the croaks; crystal ballroom; 1/11
• frog mallet, bonginator; middle east 2/2
• rickshaw billy's burger patrol; deep cuts, 2/7
• lekha and friends; cantab lounge 2/9

_2025[0]

2024 [65]_

• metroid metal--magfest- january
• sonnyjim clifford, conor hennessy, jim healey-- model cafe, allston- february
• dance or don't #4--rabbit hole- feb
• cum rave-- o'briens, allston- feb
• vantablack--o'briens, allston - feb
• winter EDM warehouse wonderland-- allston- feb
• leap day band, magnificent danger-- aeronaut somerville - feb
• king bastard, eight foot manchild-- o'bri...

• apocathary diaries
• black butler
• trigun 98
• frieren
• dress up darling
• kill la kill
• spy x family

who he is (generally speaking, of course)

• jay, legally jack
• he/him
• ides of march baby
• 29 tender years of age
• artsy fartsy motherfucker

most heavily identify with

• music that makes my brain go brrrr
• passion & excitement
• enthusiasm
• dancing, moving, being free
• bright colors & loud noises
• honesty & love

identifiers (if that's your jam)

• INFP-T
• pisces
• self-proclaimed fuckboy
• chaotic hot

oh man i had a lot of goals and aspirations up until Depression

• most.majorly i wanted to learn all of yr usual 'band instruments', and go to Berklee to become a band teacher
  • i learned 3 pretty well and can flub my way thru atleast 5 other instruments
• i always wanted to write a book
• for my elementary school year book i listed my future career as 'hippy'
• the jeep
• i dreamed about top surgery alot, in very roundabout ways
• changing my hair easily and on a whim
• i dreamed of losing my hair, getting something new
• fantasized about losing my allergy, eating the foods i'd drooled over

• be kind to public transit workers
  • and be kind to any retail/service worker
• only give genuine compliments
  • and if you can't give a compliment, stay quiet or keep it a constructive criticism
• honesty works
• celebrate every victory, no matter how small
• match energy
• give compliments, they're free!

i haven't edited this list since 2020. let me reset real quick: july 24,2025:

• doom wap-rickkshaw billie's burger patrol

aug 8, 2024:

• war.- whores

jan 28, 2024:

• trust in the lifeforce of the deep mystery - the comet is coming
• nightmare vacation - rico nasty
• rated R - queens of the stone age
• disco4:: part ii- HEALTH
• apostrophe(') - frank zappa
• mood valiant - hiatus kaiyote
• why love now - pissed jeans
• viscerals - pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs

hall of fame off the list but still in my heart

as of 2020:

i'm really blessed to have super supportive people in my life who slap me in the face with understanding these are some of the things that have slapped me good

• "you spend so much time worrying about the needs of everyone else, you've never taken a second to ask yourself; what do you want?"
• "i only do the best things for myself, i treat myself like i deserve the world"
• "gender is a performance, and i plan on being booed off the stage"
• "my free time is not my availability"
• WHY NOT NOW?
• 'you don't need to deserve things, it is not a matter of deserving, who decides that? you get what you want, because you want it.'
• self talk is real talk
• if you're not embarrassed by last year you're not making progress
• to fuck around is human, to find out is d...

i've become deeply introspective these days and have been thinking a lot about what kind of person i consider myself to be (also an exercise in being kind to myself)

• enthusiastic
• inventive
• omniscient
• crafty
• more determined than i'm inclined to believe
• an extrovert, somehow
• entertaining
• quick to catastrophize
• unfuckwittable
• stronger
• outgoing
• fragile
• sunshine
• empathetic