the rabbit holes that i have been dug into

• silver watches, silver vintage watches, silver bracelet watches
• gothic makeup, dark victorian makeup
• gothic fashion
• whimsigoth fashion
• archival stamp pads
• typewriters
• fountain pens
• oval eyeglasses, square eyeglasses
• bowling shoulder bags
• baguette bags
• medium skin asian makeup girls
• blinding silver eyeshadows

• uni-ball One
• uni-ball Spectrum
• pilot friXion erasable colorsticks

• garden quartz/lodolite
  • Growth | Manifestation | Amplifier | Alchemization
  • AFFIRMATION : I find joy and peace within myself.
    • ♡ Brings compassion, grounding, joy & amplifies energy
    • ♡ Enhances insight, meditation & shamanic journey
    • ♡ Promotes courage, universal love & heals trauma
    • ♡ Transforms negative energy & thoughts into positive
    • ♡ Supports the immune system
• flower agate
  • Blossoming | Love | Positivity | Passion | Joy
  • AFFIRMATION : My life is blossoming into its most beautiful version.

• Hafiz
• Czeslaw Milosz
• Rumi
• William Carlos Williams
• Walt Whitman

• Backpack
• Fish
• Toast
• Bear
• Beef
• Pizza

• the pitt <3
• the leopard <3
• temptation island

• Raija
• Teresia
• Lyra
• Riordan
• himari
• summer
• keira

• Citadel
  • Amazon Prime's new Original series starring Priyanka Chopra and Stanley Tucci. So many time cuts and strange cinematographic framing. What an action mess. This is a waste of our Amazon Prime membership money, Bezos!!! Invest in better writers, not just brand name celebs. All your Prime shows are turning out to be absolute flops!
• Superman and Lois
  • Season 1: Interesting cast. Lois' actress has a lazy eye that I can't un-notice. Like the idea of a Superman family with one of his children acquiring powers.
  • Season 2: What a writing mess. The plot is incoherent, and we delve into a lot of exposition and characters backstories that I hardly care about. Kyle Cushing, Lana...

• The Notebook
  • A rewatch. Now I have a different perspective of Ally and Noah's romance.
• SHAZAM: Fury of the Gods
  • A pretty good sequel. Wish they actually had Superman in this movie instead of the cliffhanger cameo we had in the original. Rachel Zegler is a standout. She was wonderful in West Side Story. Glad to see her star a role here, and now as Lucy Gray Baird in the upcoming Hunger Games: The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes!
• SHAZAM
  • How could I have not watched this superhero movie before? MC felt so childish, but again realistically he's only 14 years old. Who can think clearly about superhero abilities at that age?!

• Persuasion -Netflix
• Our Souls at Night
  • LOVED this
• Turning Red
• In Secret
• The Accidental Husband
• Oblivion
• Jungle Cruise
  • Really enjoyed this. How can you not love Dwayne Johnson and Emily Blunt?
• Free Guy
  • So wholesome. Reminds me of Wreck-It-Ralph! in the way I was pleasantly surprised at how much I enjoyed this!! Disney also didn't market this as well.
• Mulan
  • The 2020 Live Action movie. No Mushu. Mul...

as noted, things i will do before i kick the bucket

• write a children's/YA fiction novel
• travel to -paris-, -rome-, -italy-, -germany-, thailand, japan, korea, norway, sweden
• live in another country for awhile
• take pictures of an entire summer
• go camping with some friends
• skydiving

• aesthias
• seaofeels
• flowerbitten
• annathera
• priaere
• rosewoolfe
• rosewolffe

• I like good guys. DEFINED: someone who is a genuine, kind person who cares about me, wants me to be happy, and whose words coincide with his actions.
• I am emotionally damaged. I find it hard to open up and talk about my feelings with someone who can potentially hurt me.
• I need affection and attention. I want someone who will hold my hand, hug me, ask about my day, laugh at my jokes, and enjoy my company.
• I find it hard to communicate my needs. When I need something, I close myself off and try to figure it out myself. When something upsets me, I can't talk about it.
• I need to do a variety of activities with my partner.
• I am truly, truly grateful that I was able to date Ian. We work so well in comparison to my past relationships. He doesn't react emotionally. He's not prone to emot...

For Information

• Forbes
• Inc.com
• TheMuse.com
• Absolutely Abby

For Job Search

• LinkedIn.com
• Indeed.com
• Internmatch.com
• TheMuse.com

• Knowing what someone will say next, esp., higher ups (profs, supervisors)
• Listening to music bands and comprehending who's more confident in their singing

• "Sometimes doing things we used to do reminds us of who we used to be, and not always in good ways.”
  • From: Brandon Sanderson. “Steelheart"
• “The truth is not a downer,” Abraham said in his lightly accented voice. “The lies that you pretend to accept are the true downer.”
  • *From: Brandon Sanderson. “Steelheart"

• Huntington Park, CA
• Downey, CA
• Paramount, CA
• Glendale, CA
• Long Island, NY
• Brooklyn, NY
• Kindsbach, Germany

• Ideas
  • The History of the Guardian Angel. Guardian angels, people redeeming themselves instead of being stuck in purgatory are assigned a human to help for the extent of that human's life. Guardian angels are the opposite gender of their humans, and most fall in love with their humans except they cannot show themselves in front of them.
  • The outcome when two teenager achieve world domination and rule the world. Would it really be a good idea afterall? Maybe some blending of Greek mythology.
  • An interpretation of Irish mythology. It would be fun. Need to read up on Irish legends though. The internet will help me though :D

• reality = fake
• Myths, Legends, Fairytales
  • Greek Myths
    • Cupid + Psyche
    • Venus
    • Demi-gods?!
  • Irish Legends
    • faery, The Good People
    • Morganne
    • Fergus

• golden healer quartz
  • Abundance | Golden Light | Confidence | Happiness | Empathy
  • AFFIRMATION : I am constantly attracting positivity and abundance into my life.
    • spiritual healing
      • Harmonizes your yin and yang energies.
      • Helps raise your vibrations.
      • Connects and awakens you to the healing universal golden light.
      • Works on clearing energetic blockages and restoring your body back into balance.
      • Connects you to your higher self and personal power.
    • emotional healing
      • Brings feelings of joy, empathy, compassion, happiness, and love.

• mini garden quartz tower - it has shades of pink, red, and green!
• scolecite worry stone - relatively plain
• cracked quartz - very small for what it's worth, but hopefully shiny
• crackle quartz - very cracked, girthier
• smol blue flower agate - v. smol with white flower + sunset
• scolecite palm stone - about 3 fingers length
• garden quartz/phantom quartz tower - there's a whole arboretum inside!

hoping to add a very green druzy moss agate to this mix!

Books Bought

Sept 8, 2025

• Love and Misadventures by Lang Leav
• The Cat Who Saved Books by Sosuke Natsukawa
• The Cat Who Saved the Library by Sosuke Natsukawa
• What You Are Looking For Is in the Library by Michiko Aoyama

this will be in no particular order

• omniscient reader (amazing. overpowered MC/ML)
• Death Delayed for a Short Time Because of the Will (Shounen BL, so amusing!)
• I Stole the Number One Ranker's Soul (Overpowered MC/FL, Completed!!)
• To Be An Actor (AMAZING MC/ML, and it's about acting as a craft!! Family values!!)
• On the Way to Meet Mom (FAMILY VALUES! CUTE KID! ORIGINAL! A+++, COMPLETE)

• Maybe You Should Talk to Someone by Lori Gottlieb
• Katabasis by R.F. Huang

• Indian butter tofu
• Vegan chili (except added shredded mexican cheese)
• Garlic Soy Sauce Green Beans + Tofu (added cayenne pepper for a little heat)

• Junior
• Baby
• Annie
• Henry

• Accept. accept yourself. your feelings. your current mental situation. physical situation. spiritual situation. financial situation. work situation. Improve on it. Make a plan. Move forward.
• Take lots of photos. Don't try to plan the frame beforehand. Don't try to see beforehand. You already see the world in a unique way, individual from others. You take notice of different things from others. So get out and shoot. Blend into the background. No one cares you have a camera so take pictures.
• Shoot videos . Little snippets of Germany. Edit them together. Remember your time here. Cherish your time here. Be creative. Get busy.

• Not being able to eat meat because it once was alive.

• Tell them stories of heroes, especially female heroes
• Drinking tea whenever something tragic or unsettling happens

• Light is like Water - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Science Fiction/Fantasy (my most beloved genre of literature)

• The Divergent Series by Veronica Roth
  • Divergent
  • Insurgent
  • Allegiant
• The Legend Series by Marie Lu
  • Legend
  • Prodigy
  • Champion
• The Selection series by Kiera Cass
  • The Selection
  • The Elite
• The Vampire Academy Series
  • Vampire Academy
  • Frostbite
  • Shadow Kiss
  • Blood Promise

Girls

• Aurelia
• Athena
• Camilla
• Kara
• Lucilla
• Miriam

Edited

• Aurelia Blanche
• Leigh Lora

Lyrics that Resonate in My Soul

Musings about Life

Undercover Martyn , Two Door Cinema Club

• She spoke words that would melt in your hands/She spoke words of wisdom

You're a God , Vertical Horizon

• I'm still learning things I ought to know by now

Don't Dream It's Over , Sixpence None the Richer

• There is freedom within, there is freedom without

Awkward Orchid Orchard , The Boat People

• If you don't have the word for it, what do you say? And if you never heard the word, how can you feel that way?

Against the Current , Mree

• So they say/There are other fishes in the...

• title: what needs to be done
• study for photography midterm
• stop feeling sad
• stop not studying and learn, learn
• learn to reject the bad
• give it one big cry
• look at all the delightful things
• and refuse to lie
• in bed and doubt and mope
• about all the sad life brings
• rely on God, give in to hope
• when i'm swinging on thin rope
• it may seem what lies before me is reality
• but i'm hanging on to my sanity
• God sees what lies before me
• and He is good, my God who restores me.

• Clare
• Lucy
• Clare Marie
• Lucy Mae

• Friday
  • Don't remember.
• Saturday
  • Yvette and family pick me up at 11am
  • 5 hour drive to Sonora
  • Sonora=mountain village=little to no asians=VERY cold
  • Arielle's 17th birthday
    • Party. Dance, dance. Video games. Watch boxing. Cousin bonding.
    • Sleep on living room floor while watching Vampires Assistant.
• Sunday
  • Founding of TKA (pronounced tickaa). TKA ATK (attack)! not fruzin.
  • Photo shoot.

• Girls
  • Vivien
  • Olive
  • Caroline
  • Adela
  • Athena
  • Julienne
  • Scarlett
  • Yale
  • Aerwin
  • Catherine
  • Claire
  • Brigitte
  • Rosemarie
  • Vienna
  • Esmé
  • Lyra
  • Feya
• Boys

• Old Movies
• Spend time with Nicole,. Morgan, Michelle, Lili outside of school
  • Beach Day
  • Disneyland Day
• Re-decorate my bedroom
• Renew my contact prescriptions
• Short Term
  • ESSAY!
  • Chapter 26 Pt. 2 - APUSH
  • Phylum Anthrpoda

• create a monthly zine
• write poetry for the zine
• take pictures for the ig dearstarstudio
• read books
• take more pics with the digi cam

• very close by saitemiss - casetify
• make perfect by saitemiss - casetify
• galen leather toolcomb wooden pen and br...

• garden quartz/lodolite
• flower agate
• smoky quartz
• citrine
• green banded onyx
• scolecite
• hypersthene
• crackle quartz
• lepidolite

not sure if any of these count as hobbies but in no particular order

• typing (very asmr)

right now i'm trying to add more switches to my arsenal, but so far i like the following keychron K2 Pro, Q1 Pro, and the Q6 Pro. The Q Pro models have a very heavy metal body, which I think in the past I moved to the K Pro body because it feels lighter. But I should probably go back to typing on keyboards again so I can work on typing in general.

• reading

whether it be novels, manga, or manhua. It is my ultimate hobby of choice. I love a good story.

• remit

verb, to cancel or refrain from exacting or inflicting (a debt or punishment) verb, to send (money) in payment or as a gift

• begin each item with an asterisk

in no particular order

• anora (mikey madison!!) <3
• small things like these (cillian murphy)
• the gorge (miles teller, anya taylor-joy)
• anyone but you (sydney sweeney, glen powell)
• call me by your name
• top gun:maverick
• talk to me
• sinners
• a nice indian boy (so cute and sweet!)
• the brutalist (yeah, that was an amazing film)
• the phoenician scheme (so long omg)

not new, but beloved

• pride and prejudice
• two weeks notice

not new, but alright

• Lillian
• Cara / Kara
• Claire
• Selina/Selene
• Lucy/Luz
• Lena
• Lana
• Charlotte
• Viola
• Clementine

Strikethroughs are no longer names I like

FANTASY/SCI-FI

• Anything new from Laini Taylor
• The Mistborn series by Brandon Sanderson
• A Memory called Empire by Arkady Martine
• The Golden Enclaves: The Scholomance Book 3 by Naomi Novik
• Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro
• The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Sharon

ROMANCE

• Book Lovers by Emily Henry

BODY

• Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker

CREATIVITY

• The Creative Act: A Way of Being by Rick Rubin

PSYCHOLOGY

• Rhode Island
• Connecticut

• The Witcher: Blood Origin
  • I like this series much better than The Witcher. I love the characters more. Fjall Stoneheart of the Dog Clan and Éile the Lark of the Raven Clan. Apparently lovers of the books and games hate what Netflix has released on the Witcher saga.
• Alice in Borderland Season 2
  • I love the plot so much. Yes, it's very gory and Battle Royale-esque. Yet it's also about the meaning of life and connections, and humanity's perseverance to survive.
• Half Bad: The Bastard Son & The Devil Himself
  • Surprisingly great. Squeak-worthy.
• Romantic Killer

• Samuel
• Clementine
  • nickname: lemon, valentine
• Lillian
• Sequoia

• a husband
• a marriage
• a house
• a family
• two cars

Even with all these things, happiness is still fleeting and the grass is always greener on the other side.

as noted, things i will do before i kick the bucket

• write a children's/YA fiction novel
• travel to
  • ✔ paris
  • ✔ rome
  • ✔ italy
  • ✔ germany
  • thailand
  • japan
  • ✔ korea
  • norway
  • sweden
• ✔ live in another country for awhile
• take pictures of an entire summer
• go camping with some friends
• skydiving

• orion
• clementine
• wolfgang
• ciel
• starling
• aster
• clover
• selene
• star

• Vlog a whole day
• DIY a home decor item
• Bake a cake
• Make ice cream (Doesn't matter what flavor)
• 365 photo project (not of selfies)

• Three Dark Crowns
• A Court of Thrones and Roses
• A Court of Mist and Fury
• Anna Dressed in Blood
• Throne of Glass
• Crown of Midnight
• Heir of Fire
• Queen of Shadows
• Empire of Storms
• Lirael
• Heir
• Kiss of Deception
• The Heart of Betrayal
• The Beauty of Darkness
• The Winner's Curse
• The Winner's Crime
• The Winner's Kiss

• caribou
• keepsake
• gossamer
• aestival
• aesthetic
• penchant

Happys

• Waking up way early + feeling fully rested
• Running in the morning + it feels warms enough to go in a t-shirt
• Finding new artists + their art to love
• Ruminating on a stimulating thought
• The silence at dawn when everyone's asleep
• The hot sun on the beach
• How relaxed my body gets when I fall to sleep
• Getting lost in a good book
• Feeling warm under a blanket
• Gazing at the moon + stars
• The library
• Shopping / Being in the mall
• Bookstores
• Church
• A good conversation
• Dancing

• delicate petal feelings
• I felt like I just walked into a downpour.

Watched Movies of 2013

• Frozen
• The Hunger Games: Catching Fire
• The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug
• The Conjuring
• Insidious 2
• The Painted Veil
• Vicky Cristina Barcelona
• A Princess for Christmas
• One for the Money
• You've Got Mail
• Sabrina
• Funny Face
• Princess: A Modern Tale

Added to My Favorite Movies

• The Painted Veil
• Stardust

Thoughts

• I want to travel to these places. I don't want to just stare at these photos of art work. I want to go there. I want to experience them.
• I want to improve myself as a photographer.
• I cannot get a hold of anybody.
• I need to eat healthier.
• I need to be punctual.
• I want more time in the studio. Why don't I make time? What am I doing most of the time? Why am I not making that my major?
• What photographic style do I have?
• I need sleep.
• where are my friends?

GOD, You heard the groans of Your people in the desert. Lord, You hear my cries for help. Please, fill my soul with peace and love. The things around me are bringin...

Wow, I spelled "load" as "lode". And I've been having spelling lapses like that for quite some time. And I accredit that to my lack of reading. I know I should read a ton because not only will I seem knowledgeable and comsopolitan, it will also help me improve my writing and I won't feel like such a dork when I don't score 9s all the time (but I did score a 9) in AP Lit.

• Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Marquez
• Girl in the Flammable Skirt by Amy Bender
• You, Me, and Everyone Else We Know by Miranda July
• Things by
  • William Faulkner
  • Ralph Waldo Emerson

• I should never again drown my mom's phone in the pool.
• I should never again wear a hat while playing tennis.
• I should never again procrastinate on a research essay.
• I should never again eat more than 80% full.
• I should never again leave my wet towel around.
• I should never again not do something while knowing I'm going to be yelled for it later.

• Go to this site

Will learn the tutorials. And peruse the fonts and grunge backgrounds. :D

• vintage grunge