• way less tears without you
jul 21 2022 ∞
jul 21 2022 +
  • buy a house
  • yoga certified
  • sub 28in waist
  • run sub 6hr marathon
  • graduate college
  • stay E6 for a long while
  • be a good cat mom
  • visit new places
  • be a good friend
oct 5 2021 ∞
may 30 2022 +
  • cast iron skillet(maybe)
  • clean blender
  • clean roomba
  • shower mat
  • diffuser
  • new towels (2)
  • meal prep containers
  • cabinet and fridge mats
  • projector(maybe)
  • hooks
  • blow dryer
  • stool for plant
  • cover for plant dirt
  • covers for bottom of bed legs(maybe)
  • grocery cart
  • luggage
  • string lights
  • drill
  • large fridge whiteboard
  • rug(maybe)
  • large block cutting board
feb 20 2022 ∞
jul 21 2022 +
  • what do I want to be when I grow up?
  • I wanna help people and the environment
  • park ranger/environmental jobs maybe
  • write a book
  • UPDATE: enrolled in college starting January 2022 for environmental management!
  • who do I want to spend my life with?
  • close friends and someone I love
  • UPDATE: just going to try new things and cherish the friends that I have
  • do I want kids?
  • yes and no
  • what do I want out of life?
  • see cool things, have fun, give people/the environment love
  • Where do I want to settle down?
  • oregon, colorado, somewhere with nice wea...
jun 24 2021 ∞
jul 21 2022 +
  • try vegetarian/vegan 5x week
  • yoga/running/longboarding
  • focusing on myself
  • more hikes
  • organization/declutter
  • save money
  • cook at home more
  • drink more water
  • read more
feb 15 2021 ∞
feb 15 2021 +
  • I hope we can bake muffins together
  • and hold hands for an entire day
jan 19 2021 ∞
jan 19 2021 +
  • What is Your Name? audrey & renee
  • How old are you? 25 & 30
  • What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? n/a
  • Do you like it rough or sensual? rough / sensual
  • Opposite sex or the same sex? or both? both but both if its the right person
  • How often do you like to have sex? once a month / 2-3 times a week
  • Is sex a top priority for you? no /
  • How do you feel about one night stands? I don't have em / not worth it
  • How many one night stands have you had? 1 / 1
  • Favorite position? doggy and reverse cowgirl / spooning
  • Favorite place to have sex? over desk or counter / baseball field and desk
  • Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?
  • Ever watched porn while having sex? no / ...
oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 25 2020 +

Undertow // Warpaint

For Emma // Bon Iver

Beauty // The Shivers

Honey // Best Coast

Wind In Her Hair // Motorama

Blood Bank // Bon Iver

Hazeltons // Justin Vernon

Love Song // Adele

Hounds // The Antlers

I Can’t Make You Love Me; A Nick Of Time // Bon Iver cover

Alps // Motorama

Billie Holiday // Warpaint

Caravan // Husky Rescue

Electric Feel // Fleet Foxes (MGMT Cover)

Cielo Rojo // Hello Seahorse

If You Run // The Boxer Rebellion

Heartbeats // Jose Gonzalez

Knife // Grizzly Bear

Lights // Interpol

See You Soon // Coldplay

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +

acid house kings - are we lovers or are we friends?

breakbot - baby i’m yours

the beatles - michelle

belle & sebastian - get me away from here, i’m dying

cults - you know what i mean

the dodos - red and purple

fun - the gambler

the kooks - naive

arctic monkeys - baby i'm yours

local natives - cubism dream

m. ward - never had nobody like you

the morning benders - promises

say hi to your mom - sweet sweet heartkiller

slow club - when i go

stornoway - i saw you blink

sufjan stevens - to be alone with you

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +

6669 // Neon Indian

After The Moment // Craft Spells

I Want To // Best Coast

Our Deal // Best Coast

Best Friend // The Drums

Beta Frontiers // Hondo ft. Becky Ninkovic

No Friend Of Mine // BLEACHED

Razorblade // The Strokes

Boyfriend // Best Coast

Bruises // Chairlift

Celestica //Crystal Castles

Color On The Walls // Foster The People

Colorado // We Are Trees

Sunrise Sunset // We Are Trees

Party Talk // Craft Spells

Your Tomb // Craft Spells

Days // The Drums

Down By The Water // The Drums

Electric Feel // MGMT

French Exit // The Antlers

From The Morning Heat // Craft Spells

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • bed on first floor
  • good sized kitchen
  • solar set up
  • outdoor shower
  • skylight
sep 19 2020 ∞
sep 19 2020 +
  • morning routine
  • walk
  • work meeting
  • lunch with ackerman
  • clean kitchen
  • cook
  • drink water
  • workout
  • massage sore muscles
  • night routine
aug 19 2020 ∞
aug 25 2020 +

I repeat "I'm going to be okay" between quick breathes and tears

aug 2 2020 ∞
aug 2 2020 +
  • 2019 was about balance
  • acceptance and love
  • 2020 is about confidence
  • and progress
  • even just a little bit
apr 20 2020 ∞
apr 20 2020 +

is turning out to be the best year yet

feb 11 2020 ∞
feb 11 2020 +
  • have more fun
  • go to college
dec 13 2019 ∞
dec 13 2019 +
  • class
  • hang out with dad
  • clean
  • tables/chairs
  • cook ham
  • chill with young
  • paper plates/silverware
nov 27 2019 ∞
nov 29 2019 +
  • clean house
  • finish preparations for thanksgiving
  • study chinese
  • slam poetry night
  • beach
  • oil change
nov 21 2019 ∞
dec 4 2019 +

apparently whispering korean under your breathe in my ear turns me on, who knew?

bc: 11

nov 18 2019 ∞
nov 18 2019 +

yesterday was like... a dream?

I want to write these silly feelings down because I want to remember this. my whole body responded to his slightest touch on my neck and stroking my hair to help me nap on the beach.

on the other hand, he was a triumphant gentleman.. he was playful and so respectful (???) I swear I've been watching too many chinese dramas..

nov 12 2019 ∞
nov 12 2019 +
  • last Christmas
  • I gave you my heart
  • and you gave me
  • pearl earrings
  • this year
  • my heart was torn apart
  • and I lost one of the earrings
  • last night
oct 30 2019 ∞
oct 30 2019 +
  • comatose - skillet
  • blank white page - mumford and sons
  • must have done something right - relient k
  • first date - blink-182
  • a whole new world - aladdin
  • landslide - oh wonder
  • everything - michael buble
  • you can't hurry love - phil collins
oct 23 2019 ∞
nov 21 2019 +

I can't believe that happened...

oct 28 2019 ∞
oct 28 2019 +
  • being sad doesn’t mean that you are weak
  • it is best to just keep quiet sometimes
  • learn from your own mistakes as well as others
  • if someone can unexpectedly and willingly walk out of your life, expect it to happen again (even with someone else)
  • what may feel right in your heart is not always the right decision
  • the love you felt yesterday is merely just a taste of what you’re bound to feel in the future
  • to love is important, but it is not what life is all about
  • if you are not happy, change something
  • a body is simply just a body
  • don’t get so caught up in looks, to an extent it’s very shallow
  • to be so hard on yourself does not get you anywhere but into more of a slump
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • 25 jumping jacks
  • 10 plank to push-ups
  • 20 mountain climbers
  • 30 leg raises
  • 40 russian twists
  • 50 bicycle crunches
  • 10 burpees
  • 50 bicycle crunches
  • 40 russian twists
  • 30 leg raises
  • 20 mountain climbers
  • 10 plank to push-ups
  • 25 jumping jacks
jan 21 2013 ∞
jan 21 2013 +
  • homework
  • clean house
  • workout
  • play w nugget
oct 15 2019 ∞
oct 15 2019 +
  • korean spa
  • beach day w floatie
  • play w nugget
  • getting pedicure
  • candles
  • yoga
  • face masks
  • reading
  • window shopping
  • college
  • exercise
  • etc
may 6 2019 ∞
may 6 2019 +
  • grill + gas tank
  • plant pots + dirt
  • carp flag
  • rice cooker -
  • korean bbq cooker -
  • kettle -
  • coffee maker -
  • toaster -
  • blender -
  • cups (glasses, mason jars, mugs, tea) -
  • water bottles x 4 -
  • magnets -
  • bowels x 4 -
  • lunchbox + bento -
  • tubberware bowels + lids -
  • crockpot -
  • cupcake tin -
  • baking sheet -
  • cutting board x 3 -
  • popcorn maker -
  • cooking tools -
feb 21 2019 ∞
mar 24 2019 +
  • banana bread
  • cuddles last night
  • 4 hr shift
  • clean room
  • baby kittens
dec 18 2018 ∞
dec 18 2018 +
  • stayed in bed until noon
  • saw black panther and it was good!
  • first time in my life seeing a movie with a majority black cast
  • recognizing the importance of that
  • popcorn and popcicle
  • studied
  • cute manatee stickers
  • godfather II
  • relaxing nice day
feb 20 2018 ∞
feb 20 2018 +
  • wake up, breakfast smoothie, go to work
  • work, snack, stay active if possible
  • lunch, watch tv, do errands
  • afternoon run
  • spend time with honey, get dinner
  • weight workout/yoga
  • homework
  • shower
  • bed/tv
nov 17 2017 ∞
feb 20 2018 +
  • meditating
  • yoga/stretching
  • appreciating sunny days and rainy days alike
  • cloud watching
dec 17 2016 ∞
dec 21 2016 +
  • eat healthy
  • study chinese
  • exercise
  • cut toenails
  • work on pottery
  • organize room
    • mail hennig some stuff
    • mail hennig care package
  • think of birthday present for hennig
may 1 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • eat healthy
  • workout
  • cancel internet
  • outprocessing
  • work order for fridge
  • buy big plastic bags
  • packing
  • salsa
  • hang out with wren
  • paint ceiling tile
  • get married
  • korean face/hair mask
  • get eyebrows done
  • buy cute bra
  • hennig bday present
  • call mom
  • get bueltmann tattoo money
  • think of more things to do
jun 16 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • I PASSED
  • HOLY FUCK I PASSED
  • cri
  • farmer's market
  • dean's list
  • plenty of sleep
  • craig got post class
  • security clearance
  • lots n lots of other things
mar 8 2017 ∞
mar 8 2017 +

in the next few weeks I will test myself on the last two years of work I've done. This is it. I need to focus and I need to stay calm.

feb 13 2017 ∞
feb 13 2017 +
  • study chinese
  • clean room
  • laundry
  • chill with dawson
  • dishes
  • budget
  • take pictures with broome
  • develop pictures
  • cuddles
  • think of more things to do
jan 21 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • slept in super late
  • lunch w/ the crew
  • chinese food
  • lazy rainy sunday
  • wisdom teeth feel a little better everyday
  • met cool coffee shop girl who speaks chinese!
  • good roommate talks
  • took another step of taking back my heart
jan 8 2017 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • DLI AA
  • clean room
  • out-processing
  • watch chinese news everyday
  • read chinese/pleco
  • monday
    • 0800 tech turn-in
    • 1000 meeting
    • 1400 627 mdr meeting
  • tuesday
    • 1000 grad rehearsal
  • wednesday
    • parents get here
  • thursday
    • graduation
  • friday/saturday
mar 3 2017 ∞
mar 24 2017 +
  • study
  • clean room
  • run
  • shower
  • eat stuff that's in the fridge
  • turn in transportation slip
  • pack
  • play pokemon
  • read
dec 21 2016 ∞
dec 29 2016 +
  • yesterday was so amazing, best day in awhile
  • getting lost
  • christmas music
  • olive garden
  • christmas tree lights
  • permission to aboard/coffin
  • karaoke
  • young & annalissa are awesome!!!
  • kisses
  • cheap drinks
  • found pic of me and gannon on gray bus
  • shaved my legs
  • watched scary movie with pennie
  • craig and me are besties with no doubt
  • there are so many more things to write down that make life wonderful, the little things that I want to remember so badly but it's so hectic all the time!! but hectic in a good way!
dec 3 2016 ∞
dec 3 2016 +
  • immersion
  • last fort ord immersion ever!!!!
  • got to hang out with craig all day!
  • chinese food
  • chinese food yesterday too
  • kisses
  • played the role of a senior citizen
  • got accused of leaking internal information (in the game... not in real life)
dec 6 2016 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • study chinese
  • clean room super good/organize
  • grocery shopping w/ potter
  • thanksgiving dinner with dad on thursday
  • friendsgiving on saturday
  • hang out w/ paola on sunday
  • run
  • fix car
  • christmas shopping
  • think of more things for the list
nov 21 2016 ∞
nov 27 2016 +
  • friends with andrews again
  • eating healthier/working out more
  • productive sunday
  • clean sheets
  • dr. strange w the bros
  • cuddles
  • dancing/drinks w friends
  • volunteering
  • bonfire
nov 6 2016 ∞
nov 6 2016 +
  • cozy rainy sunday
  • gym w gannon
  • nelson made it to texas safe
oct 30 2016 ∞
nov 2 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • clean room
  • go to the gym
  • go to target
aug 28 2016 ∞
oct 30 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • wash car (wed)
  • car insurance/property insurance
  • verizon bill/overage
  • put sticker on car (wed)
  • eat healthy
  • get doctor appointment (wed)
  • sign back in to CQ
  • clean bathroom very well
  • clean room very well
  • get stain out of sheets/bathing suit
  • do laundry
  • do dishes
  • get stuff from wooton
  • give presents to craig/andrews
  • get stripes sewn onto uniforms
  • sign up for spartan race
  • register car on base (wed)
  • run a lot
  • go to the beach
  • go for a hike
jun 21 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • barkley marathon
  • save ocean animals
  • add more things to lifelong goals list
jun 11 2016 ∞
jun 11 2016 +
  • look at life like a learning experience
  • spend as much time outdoors as possible
feb 14 2016 ∞
feb 15 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • run
  • movie with wetmore
  • verison bill/military discount
  • bathing suit shopping
  • GoT with andrews
  • pick up dry cleaning
  • lunch with wootton
  • laundry
  • relax
jan 30 2016 ∞
jan 31 2016 +
  • clean room
  • take a shower
  • do homework
  • after mtt w nejes
  • go biking
jan 24 2016 ∞
jan 24 2016 +
  • I feel overwhelmingly positive about the upcoming year and I hope this feeling lasts
jan 2 2016 ∞
jan 2 2016 +
  • chinese
  • spending time w friends/family
  • staying fit/eating healthy
  • saving money
  • think of more things for this list
dec 21 2015 ∞
dec 21 2015 +
  • new phone
  • new tattoo
  • calendar
  • film
  • magic 8 ball
  • downtown abbey
nov 28 2015 ∞
may 16 2016 +
  • tummy aches
  • my stupid phone charger
  • I can' go a day w/o putting myself down... It's really awful because I feel content with life right now and I honestly do love myself but for some reason every time I open my mouth all my insecurities pour out. I think it's because I'm around people all the time and I don't have momo or my mom. That's silly because I'm a full grown adult and I am capable of being more level headed about these sort of things. If you always put yourself second then other people will always put you second, or not think of you at all. I don't expect people to put me first but sometimes it's nice when they surprise you like that. Honestly I just need to be more chill. That's it.

When it comes to boys and relationships and crap like that I have two lines of tho...

dec 13 2015 ∞
dec 13 2015 +
  • french toast
  • listening class was pretty good today
  • pizza
  • the other day the cute guy noticed me on the walk home
  • slept in comfy jacket that smelled good
  • not too much homework tonight
dec 10 2015 ∞
dec 10 2015 +
  • very hardworking
  • yellow
  • they love flowers
  • make yummy honey
  • create the coolest geometric patterns
  • sisters that protect each other
  • if they sting you it hurts them too so they have to be very selective about when to sting
  • fuzzy
  • fun to watch
  • help us grow lots of fruits
  • independent and strong
nov 24 2015 ∞
nov 24 2015 +
  • nice breakfast by myself
  • hunger games with wootton
  • digimon with the bros
  • went out drinking w friends
  • andrews walked me home since he's nice
nov 24 2015 ∞
nov 24 2015 +
  • get presents for family/friends
  • drink wine
  • don't let people make you feel like shit
  • become a teal rope
  • get some ink
  • knit the shit outta something
  • rollar skate
nov 9 2015 ∞
dec 6 2015 +
  • english week of class
  • laptop case/checks for penfed came in the mail
  • pt with rock/nejes
  • didn't eat ice cream all day
  • studied chinese
  • awkwardly talked to andrews
oct 27 2015 ∞
oct 27 2015 +
  • lift heavy things at the gym
  • grow hair
  • get eyebrows done
  • farmers market - smoothies
  • ATP
  • eat healthy
  • one cuppa daily
  • order penfed card
  • friday night open mic
  • friday night movie
  • wash hair every other day
  • run AT LEAST 10 miles a week (one 5 mile a week)
  • ukulele practice
  • drink LOTS of water
  • budget
  • airmenship paper
oct 18 2015 ∞
may 16 2016 +
  • breakfast w/ wootton
  • lots of candy and yummy food
  • card games w/ friends
  • didn't spend a lot of money
  • NO POST ON SUNDAYS
oct 12 2015 ∞
oct 12 2015 +
  • gw: 130
  • finish bmt
  • tech school
  • STUDY STUDY STUDY
  • save 20k
  • cook more
  • add more goals to the list
jun 6 2015 ∞
aug 24 2016 +
  • air force
    • eat healthy
    • excersize
    • language enhancing
  • work
  • gymnastics
  • luke
  • other things
apr 5 2014 ∞
apr 5 2014 +
  • finish air force paperwork
  • oil change
  • job counsel
  • job hunting
  • workout
  • call usaa
  • go to bank
  • rcc resumes
feb 7 2014 ∞
feb 7 2014 +

when/if I ever get married and we have some kind of reception/food time for everyone (it'll be small) I decided that all the food shall be comfort food. Maybe we'll have a projector outside on a warm summer evening and watch a movie and all eat together and so that brings me to the list of comfort foods:

  • bbq (for people who like cow stuff)
  • fried chicken
  • chinese food
  • pizza
  • ice cream
  • japanese stuff
  • desserts
  • pancakes
  • strawberries
  • smores
  • smoothies
  • chocolate milk
  • sparkling juice
jan 29 2014 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • apply to more jobs
  • get a new job
  • do well in school
  • eat healthy/exercise
  • sell more stuff on craigslist
  • cutest couples contest
  • meeting with af recruiter
  • set up usaa account
  • valentine's day w/ luke
  • visit ari
  • return dress to ross
  • eyebrows
  • sell textbooks
  • eventually get my own netflix account
jan 29 2014 ∞
apr 5 2014 +
  • wake up
  • shower
  • clean car out
  • church
  • walmart snacks
  • gas
  • drive to portland
  • shop
  • eat
  • sleep at aunt laura's house
sep 7 2013 ∞
sep 10 2013 +
  • college
  • job
  • french
  • 3 puzzles
  • sell old crap
  • postcard collection
  • car updated
  • read fifty books
  • be happy
aug 31 2013 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • wake up
  • get ready
  • go to class (9-10AM)
  • go to talk to dad during his lunch
  • borrow ipod
  • run
  • bring back ipod
  • go home
  • homework
  • homework
  • homework
  • call work at 4
  • depending on work
    • work
    • more homework
  • read/puzzle/relax
  • sleep
aug 20 2013 ∞
aug 31 2013 +
  • pick a stranger flowers
  • clean my room
  • homework
    • math
    • writing
    • psychology
  • exercise
  • pick up paycheck
  • start puzzle
  • be productive
  • go to work
  • clean car
  • clean nails
  • estimate money
  • shower
  • put laundry away
jul 20 2013 ∞
jul 20 2013 +

Friday

  • make pb sandwiches
  • pack bag for coast
  • go to the coast w/ friends
  • stop by dq on the way back
  • come home
  • spend time with family/do homework

Saturday

  • wake up early and go hiking
  • get dropped off in medford
  • mom picks me up in medford
  • go to appointment with mom
  • go home
  • study/spend time with family

Sunday

  • church
  • check in at jobs
  • spend time with family/do homework:
apr 26 2013 ∞
may 7 2013 +
  • Hiking Tablerock
  • JD/friends
  • subway
  • strawberry smoothie
  • mormon church/Daniel/Faith/Paul/JD
  • baci's/David
  • Mitchell
  • shower
apr 15 2013 ∞
apr 15 2013 +
  • clean room/car
  • appreciate the sunshine
  • take a shower
  • hiking
  • mini golf
  • run
apr 13 2013 ∞
apr 14 2013 +
  • hitchhiker
  • handwriting analysis
  • beautiful day
  • JD
  • A on writing paper!
  • Hailey's bday party!!!!!
  • breadsticks
  • Gibsons/Frankie
apr 10 2013 ∞
apr 10 2013 +
  • blue hair!!!
  • pitch perfect
  • ice cream
  • really good prayer time
  • cute puppies
apr 8 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • 100 jumping jacks
  • 90 crunches
  • 80 squats
  • 70 leg lifts
  • 60 jumping jacks
  • 50 crunches
  • 40 squats
  • 30 leg lifts
  • 20 jumping jacks
  • 10 minutes of running
mar 13 2013 ∞
mar 13 2013 +
  • adorable dog the size of a small bear
  • school
  • softball dugout laugh
  • didn't reply to him
  • haven't talked about him to anyone and keeping my mind pure
apr 2 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • slept in
  • baci's
  • frankie/josh
  • movies/candy/popcorn
  • found out the truth about dane/cheating
feb 23 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • coffee
  • Ari bday party
  • went to CA
  • good talk with Ryan
  • so busy that I had to write the note the day after!!!!!!!!!
  • had REAL fun in spite of recent events
  • Sam agreed to talk to me about the truth
feb 24 2013 ∞
feb 24 2013 +
  • dane broke up with me
  • safe haven
  • just dance 4
  • pancakes/doodle at shari's
  • run
feb 16 2013 ∞
feb 17 2013 +
  • run
  • baci's with hannah and frankie
  • pink lemonade slushi
  • nap
  • night time festivities
feb 15 2013 ∞
feb 16 2013 +
  • pb cookies
  • got up before mama
  • had nice lunch/outing with mama
  • awesome home group
  • PIZZA & CUPCAKES
jan 31 2013 ∞
feb 1 2013 +
  • shower
  • strawberry ice cream bar
  • nap
  • banana bread
  • family time
feb 9 2013 ∞
feb 9 2013 +
  • read casual vacancy
  • tin-tin's
  • les miserables
  • pizza
  • happy mommy
feb 6 2013 ∞
feb 7 2013 +
  • starbucks
  • silver lining playbook
  • exercise at the y (4.7 miles/4.8)
  • basketball game
  • oregon stars
feb 6 2013 ∞
feb 6 2013 +
  • today was productive
  • yummy fruit smoothie
  • drove to GP!
  • developed pictures
  • full tank of gas
jan 30 2013 ∞
jan 30 2013 +
  • good talks with rachel/becky
  • me and mom get along
  • smoothie
  • deleted facebook/twitter for good
  • anne hathaway + ice cream
jan 23 2013 ∞
jan 24 2013 +
  • smoothie for breakfast
  • starbucks gift card
  • car dealership call: $9500
  • home alone time
  • forgot about until mentioned month-aversary with dane
jan 25 2013 ∞
jan 31 2013 +
  • two new followers on tumblr~
  • go to the airport with dane
  • bones and hot chocolate
  • SLEEP
  • positive outlook on MY future
jan 21 2013 ∞
jan 21 2013 +
  • think positively
  • control impulses to tell someone how I feel
  • follow through with giving up when it’s necessary
  • go to work with a positive attitude and outlook
  • accept what I can’t change
  • don’t let the future scare me
  • do what I have to do to get by
  • don’t care what other people may think
  • fix what I can change
  • filter out all of the sad things from the past
  • put it all behind me
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • 20 squats
  • 30 lunges
  • 40 calf raises
  • 50 second wall sit
  • 100 jumping jacks
  • 50 second wall sit
  • 40 sumo squats
  • 30 leg raises
  • 20 squats
jan 21 2013 ∞
jan 21 2013 +
  • don't
  • care
  • about me
  • you
  • don't
  • think
  • about me
  • you
  • are constantly
  • on
  • my
  • mind
  • why
  • don't I
  • deserve
  • love?
  • I don't
  • expect
  • a
  • diamond ring
  • I don't
jan 22 2013 ∞
jan 23 2013 +
  • found good christ centered websites
  • had a good dream
  • being mature - giving dane the space he needs
  • super clean shower
  • dane time!
jan 19 2013 ∞
jan 20 2013 +

ingredients:

  • 8 large strawberries
  • 1 1/2 banana
  • 1 cup of strawberry banana fruit juice
  • 1/2 strawberry ice cream

directions:

  • blend the banana/strawberries with the fruit juice until fruits are well blended
  • next add the ice cream and blend for 30 seconds on high
jan 18 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • BIO231 4
  • BIO200 2
  • BIO233 4
  • BIO232 4
  • CHE101 3
  • CHE104 1
  • MATH111 4
  • MIT103 3
  • MATH112 4
  • WRI121 3
  • WRI122 3
  • Humanities elective 3 (9)
  • Social Science elective 3 (12)
  • PSY 3
  • SPE111 3
  • Math prerequisite 3
jan 19 2013 ∞
jan 19 2013 +
  • to kill a mockingbird
  • the catcher in the rye
  • the great gatsby
  • walden
  • the fountainhead
  • this side of paradise
  • a separate peace
  • peter pan
  • hamlet
  • on the road
  • naked lunch
  • the mayor of castro street
  • 100 selected poems: e.e. cummings
  • l'etranger/la peste
  • ballad of the whiskey robber
  • behind the beautiful forevers
  • sula
  • downtown abbey
  • mansfield park
  • persuasion
  • fault in our stars
jan 18 2013 ∞
sep 6 2013 +
  • baci's
  • rogue river pharmacy
  • walmart pharmacy
  • ray's
  • olive garden
  • fred meyer
  • fred meyer pharmacy
  • shari's
  • dutch bros
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • lilo & stitch
  • legally blonde
  • the muppets
  • the great muppet caper
  • looper
  • harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban
  • real steel
  • anastasia
  • the help
  • emma
  • pride & prejudice
  • the hobbit
  • whisper of the heart
  • bridget jones diary
  • like crazy
  • sherlock holmes
  • tangled
  • the tourist
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • too lazy
  • money is a problem, always
  • I don't have a job
  • I don't know what to do with my life
  • people make me too sad
  • I make myself too sad
  • reality is not pleasing
  • I am always worried
  • today is a very bad day
  • everyday is a today is a very bad day, day..
  • my parents stress me out
  • I'm a burden
  • I talk too much
  • there's too many days until summer
  • when I'm sad I want to do things I'll regret in a few weeks
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • emma watson
  • mila kunis
  • anne hathaway
  • zooey deschanel
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • chinese food
  • chinese food
  • chinese food
  • mint chocolate chip klondike bar
  • snugglin' time
  • cuddly cats
  • french toast
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • health
    • diet
    • jiujitsu
    • running
    • stretching
    • nail health
    • skin
    • hair
  • cat mom
    • no more spraying
    • no more scratching
    • no more breaking glass
  • college
    • at least 2 semesters per year
    • goal is 3 semesters
  • plant mom
    • keep plants alive
feb 27 2022 ∞
feb 27 2022 +
  • its not a matter of
  • forgiving you
  • or not
  • because I'm capable
  • of endless understanding
  • because its easy to
  • forgive
  • when I don't believe I deserve better
  • deep in my bones
  • but
  • you
  • on the other hand
  • don't think you did anything wrong
  • fucking me
  • when I didn't want you to
  • rape
  • isn't
  • decided
  • by
  • intentions
  • motherfucker
oct 16 2021 ∞
may 30 2022 +
  • I think my ideal home would have these things:
  • spiral staircase
  • backyard with hammock
  • cozy
  • lots of books
  • maybe a garden someday/fruit trees
  • natural light
  • space for family and friends
  • home gym stuff
  • indoor plants
  • nice view
  • window seating nook
  • open kitchen
  • outdoor eating area
oct 4 2021 ∞
oct 4 2021 +
  • with crazy and amazing support from friends and family, I, for the first time in my life, ended things with someone that treated me shitty.. I believe in forgiveness and I don't want to hold grudges or keep anger in my heart.. I think fighting is a natural thing to happen and I'm not perfect, but physically threatening/intimidating me is not okay. I don't deserve it. standing up for myself, setting boundaries, trying to be understanding and respectful...
  • figuring things out in new shop
  • working on reenlistment/IPCOT
  • BUYING A HOUSE
  • beach w lexi
  • family brunch
  • SAW 2 WK OLD PUPPIES
  • celebrating klein's ALS graduation
  • weather has been nice lately
  • alksndf;asldnkf lots of things
apr 11 2021 ∞
may 30 2022 +

who tf do you think you are coming in here making me feel things

jan 28 2021 ∞
jan 28 2021 +
  • 0500 wake up
  • 0505 bathroom, brush teeth, wash face, feed nugget
  • 0600 search yoga youtube video, yoga
  • 0645 get ready for work, leave house
  • 1430 get off work, drive home
  • 1530 get home, relax, play with nugget
  • 1545 get dressed, workout
  • 1645 get home, shower
  • 1730 relax
  • 1830 cook/eat dinner, feed nugget
  • 1930 clean up, chores, random
  • 2030 read
  • 2100 get ready for bed, sleep
dec 21 2020 ∞
dec 21 2020 +

mystery jets - serotonin

darwin deez - deep sea diver

voxtrot - the start of something

fitz & the tantrums - don’t gotta work it out

surfer blood - i’m not ready

girls - lust for life

animal collective - summertime clothes

cults - go outside

kanye west - power

craft spells - scandinavian crush

washed out - feel it all around

childish gambino - freaks and geeks

grimes - oblivion

tame impala - lucidity

schoolboy q - hands on the wheel

the morning benders - crosseyed

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • think positively
  • control impulses to tell someone how I feel
  • follow through with giving up when it’s necessary
  • go to work with a positive attitude and outlook
  • accept what I can’t change
  • don’t let the future scare me
  • do what I have to do to get by
  • don’t care what other people may think
  • fix what I can change
  • filter out all of the sad things from the past
  • put it all behind me
oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +

Breakfast Options

16 oz water

1 cup cereal w/ skim milk

1 apple w/ peanut butter

1 toast & 2 slices bacon & 1 egg

Lunch Options

16 oz water

turkey sandwich w/ fruit

chicken breast w/ fruit

salad w/ fruit

Dinner Options

16 oz water

1 slice pizza w/ 1 cup veggies

4 oz meat w/ 1 cup veggies

1 quesadilla w/ 1 cup veggies

Dessert Options

16 oz water

1 cup ice cream

1 candy bar

1 piece of cake/brownie/cookie/cupcake

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • being sad doesn’t mean that you are weak.
  • it is best to just keep quiet sometimes.
  • learn from your own mistakes as well as others.
  • if someone can unexpectedly and willingly walk out of your life, expect it to happen again (even with someone else).
  • what may feel right in your heart is not always the right decision.
  • the love you felt yesterday is merely just a taste of what you’re bound to feel in the future.
  • to love is important, but it is not what life is all about.
  • if you are not happy, change something.
  • a body is simply just a body.
  • don’t get so caught up in looks, to an extent it’s very shallow.
  • to be so hard on yourself does not get you anywhere but into more of a slump.
oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • get soil & seeds
  • clean floors
  • eat clean
  • candle for bathroom
  • use living room more
  • play animal crossing
  • puzzles
  • read
  • care package
  • drink lots of water
  • figure out how to make miso
  • use backyard
  • clean guest room
  • clean car
  • take shit to goodwill
aug 25 2020 ∞
sep 10 2020 +

I am going to be going to the honolulu police department to ID the man who raped me at a party last year. I'm just going to list all the things running through my mind cause why not???

  • my victim advocate sucks ass
  • my squadron command team has reached out and is being really kind
  • but the shirt is gone
  • the commander is on leave
  • but he offered to give me a ride which was really nice
  • so far I've cried
  • talked to garce on the phone and got mad at him for no reason
  • done a small comedy act with a bunch of rape jokes alone in my house
  • texted my dad and he said "it won't be fun, but you'll be fine"
  • almost threw up
  • calmed down a bit to finish the list
aug 4 2020 ∞
aug 4 2020 +

You know what I'm really fucking tired of? Living with trauma... Having the abuse I went through years ago affect my future relationships, victim blaming, friends not believing my abuse/rape, being outcasted, rapists getting away with what they've done, seeing my rapist's face via social media, feeling like I shouldn't have a voice because "It happened a long time ago, get over it", people that think the rapist's identity should be kept private to protect their reputation, and many, many more things.

The first time I was raped was in 2012, shortly after I graduated high school by a boy I was dating at the time. I endured physical, sexual, and verbal abuse. It really fucking sucked. Even though its been years since it happened it still affects my life.

I've grown a lot from those experiences and helped people since by volunteering fo...

apr 30 2020 ∞
apr 30 2020 +
  • he says he loves me
  • he wants to get married
  • and have kids
  • and travel the world
  • and have lots of sex
mar 19 2020 ∞
apr 20 2020 +
  • so it's been a hot minute but I've been super busy and there are so many insanely good things recently that I think "I really need to write this down!!!" but then I keep being busy oops
  • got my first 3 on DLPT!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • japan vacation was so perfect in every way imaginable
  • literally so many memories and good times and so much nostalgia I could explode
  • walking/running around oki exploring
  • seeing craig
  • ember
  • garce
  • karaoke x 100
  • ramen
  • family market where my parents used to take us
  • japanese chapstick that smells like honey
  • apron!!!!!!
feb 11 2020 ∞
feb 11 2020 +
  • send each other dank memes
  • lots of sex
  • surprise picnic
  • don't need labels
dec 13 2019 ∞
dec 15 2019 +

I wanted to be yours forever and I have never felt like that about someone before and maybe I'll never feel like that again

but that's life

nov 22 2019 ∞
nov 22 2019 +
  • ALMOST 30 DAY VACATION IN JAPAN WITH MY BEST FRIEND
  • CHRISTMASSSSS
  • HANG OUT WITH MY DAD FOR THANKSGIVING
  • HANG OUT WITH MY MOM AFTER DLPT
  • WORKING HARD FOR DLPT!!!
  • losing weight heh
  • under 8 min mile
  • oppa
  • young the giant in january
  • talking to old friends again (andrews)
  • starting to get back to myself
  • got $70+ back on electric bill
  • found reliable roommate for next year
  • didn't have to write my own/anyone else's eval
  • had korean bbq !!!
  • manchester orchestra was amazing live
  • met chill dude at the concert
nov 19 2019 ∞
nov 21 2019 +
  • pillows
  • blankets
  • candles
  • tree
  • tree decorations
  • mistletoe
  • kitchen towels
  • bathroom mats
  • lawn chairs
  • rent table
  • coffee table (from annalissa)
  • frame for poster
  • frame for paintings
  • guest room furniture?
  • chalk board DIY
nov 15 2019 ∞
nov 29 2019 +

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that you have to deal with the mess that is me. I swear to god I'm trying my best. my brain is raging that its not good enough and my heart is screaming that now is not the time nor place for all this ruckus going on inside of it; but the thing is -- it will never be the time nor place. I will never be the girl. I wanted your love. I thought I could manage this time around -- finally ascertain control over my daydreams

my daydreams get the best of me every time

I know I love you more. do you think I say this to be endearing?

I say it with terror in mind

I say it knowing I will get hurt again

I guess I believe the willingness to be hurt for love is courage

jul 10 2018 ∞
jul 10 2018 +
  • glasses
  • legos
  • holiday decorations?
  • couch pillows
  • tv stand (for living room)
  • clean/fix car
  • christmas presents this year:
    • annalissa/young
    • craig
    • nugget
  • find cat-sitter
  • leave paperwork
  • fix CAC
nov 5 2019 ∞
aug 9 2020 +

I make the choice... the choice of what I do with my life... starting with my attitude, perceptions, thoughts, what I put in my body, how I treat my body, who I let near my body... all of that is, for the most part, in my control

oct 28 2019 ∞
oct 28 2019 +

there are ups and downs

but today has been an up so far

so I need to harness this peace of mind

oct 22 2019 ∞
oct 22 2019 +
  • I feel like I'm going to throw up
  • I didn't sleep at all last night
  • I can't wait for this to be over with
oct 24 2019 ∞
oct 24 2019 +

✧ What Ever Happened by The Strokes

✧ All You Ever Wanted by The Black Keys

✧ Blue Jeans by Lana Del Rey

✧ Vices by BADBADNOTGOOD

✧ Only by Coma Cinema

✧ Chum by Earl Sweatshirt

✧ No Buses by Arctic Monkeys

✧ Lies by Marina & the Diamonds

✧ Between Friends ft. Earl Sweatshirt by Captain Murphy

✧ Loft Music by The Weeknd

✧ White by Frank Ocean

✧ Hell by Coma Cinema

✧ Exit Music (For a Film) by Radiohead

jan 27 2013 ∞
jan 27 2013 +

the more I want to just live in a small house, but big enough to accommodate friends and family so that I can have dinner parties and fill my little home with the genuine love that comes along with full stomachs and talking over a mutually adored novel. I want to be the best babysitter for friend's children. I want to live more with less. I want to be an example someday, like how my mother has been for me.

I want to never get tired of looking outside my window, marveling at everything this world has to offer, even though I know its not always easy to look on the bright side of things when gray skies are above.. so I just have to remind myself that rain and storms make the grass greener.

mostly I just want to be happy and make others happy too.

jan 22 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • I’m out here in the dark
  • All alone and wide awake
  • Come and find me
  • I’m empty and I’m cold
  • And my heart’s about to break
  • Come and find me
  • I need you to come here and find me
  • ‘Cause without you I’m totally lose
  • I’ve hung a wish on every star
  • It hasn’t done much good so far
  • I can only dream of you
  • Wherever you are
  • I’ll hear your laugh
  • I’ll see your smile
  • I’ll be with you
  • Just for a while
  • But when the morning comes
oct 16 2019 ∞
oct 16 2019 +

warm-up x 3

  • 15 jump squats
  • 10 jump lunge
  • 25 bicycles
  • 15 crab walk
  • 15 push-ups
  • 10 burpees
  • 15 calf raises
  • 1 min plank

run day - 20 mins sprint intervals 15 incline at 2.5< 10 mins

leg day/back/shoulders/bi/tri

cool down abs lunges crab squats

feb 21 2019 ∞
feb 21 2019 +
  • two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
  • and sorry I could not travel both
  • and be one traveler, long I stood
  • and looked down one as far as I could
  • to where it bent in the undergrowth;
  • then took the other, as just as fair,
  • and having perhaps the better claim,
  • because it was grassy and wanted wear;
  • though as for that the passing there
  • had worn them really about the same,
  • and both that morning equally lay
  • in leaves no step had trodden black.
  • oh, I kept the first for another day!
  • yet knowing how way leads on to way,
  • I doubted if I should ever come back.
  • I shall be telling this with a sign
  • somewhere ages and ages hence;
  • two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
sep 12 2019 ∞
sep 12 2019 +
  • clean bedroom
  • clean bathroom
  • clean kitchen
  • clean living room/etc
  • laundry
  • meal prep
  • eat healthy
  • relax
  • beach time
  • read books
  • organize finances
  • exercise
  • take things to goodwill
  • think of fun things to do with honey
jan 2 2019 ∞
jan 2 2019 +
  • stop weird bathroom stuff
  • lose weight (as always)
  • explore/travel more
  • read more
  • volunteer more
  • start attending college again
  • drink more water
  • save money
  • have more fun
  • try food-prep
  • learn to surf
  • think of more things to do
dec 27 2017 ∞
oct 17 2018 +
  • learn chinese super good
  • drink more water
  • become skinny
mar 21 2016 ∞
mar 21 2016 +

but why can't I help always starting my questions with I know this will be a stupid question but... it starts with me believing that any question I could possibly ask is stupid because I am the one asking and it ends with the person I'm asking and my twisted mind trying to apologize before I've even finished the question because I respect them and pity them for having to be the one I ask it to because that is how little I think of myself and when people hear that they say "oh no you're great, you're funny, you're pretty" they say "don't be so hard on yourself" they say "you shouldn't put yourself down" but no matter what I do I always come back to hating myself and I don't think I'll ever stop no matter what I do so I know this will be a stupid question but please help me stop hating myself

jun 22 2017 ∞
jun 22 2017 +
  • desk
    • books
    • star wars figure
    • movies/dvds
    • magic 8 ball
    • teal mug
    • yosemite mug
    • office supplies
    • ds
    • harry potter audiobook
    • wires/thingys
    • rice cooker
    • hygiene products
    • origami paper
  • nightstand
    • tea
    • paperwork
    • basket
  • bed
mar 8 2017 ∞
oct 16 2019 +
  • study chinese
  • get film developed
  • clean room
  • take out trash
  • shower
  • vaccuum
  • clean bathroom
  • study for clep
  • pack belongings
  • cri
mar 20 2017 ∞
mar 24 2017 +

so these last two months have been... interesting. I'm going to start off with the australian. holy smokes. the accent. let me repeat: holy fucking smokes. moving on there have been several weird first dates -- but that's okay, it's all apart of growing up, right? A lot of the guys I've met recently are really cool and funny and smart, but I just haven't felt that spark with someone yet. I'm not really looking for anything serious at this point but I just want someone that vibes with me.. the submarine guy was cool, more aloof, super tall and strong.. but I just needed more than that. I'm glad I was chill and said something sooner rather than later since I don't want to waste his time. other than that I think I'll just keep doing what I'm doing -- so much to do but that's the best way to be because being busy means I have no time to worry about stupid things that don't really matter. I've ...

apr 9 2018 ∞
oct 16 2019 +
  • laptop case
  • swimsuit
  • running shoes
  • suitcase
  • pillows
  • bicycle
  • longboard
  • surfboard
  • sleeping bag
  • rug for bathroom
  • extra plug thingy
  • adidas joggers
  • peterpan collar shirt
  • hip hop hippy hop art
jun 11 2017 ∞
oct 17 2018 +
  • study chinese
  • clean room
  • laundry
  • shower
  • taxes
  • online training
  • get car checked
  • dishes
  • organize belongings
  • get moving boxes
  • get film developed
feb 19 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • trying to look on the bright side
  • taxi driving on base going insane
  • going kayaking and seeing otters!!!!
  • dark souls 2 raging
  • hennig x glavin
  • cri
  • ate my weight in food at ocean sushi deli
  • luke is going to basic in 2 weeks!
  • so many more things but I'm an idiot and never make lists accordingly!!!
feb 4 2017 ∞
feb 4 2017 +
  • study chinese
  • gym
  • buy exterior hard drive
  • laundry
  • la la land
  • call mom
  • help lowery move
  • boss meeting
  • bake banana bread
  • think of more things to do
jan 12 2017 ∞
jan 16 2017 +
  • battlestar galactica
  • made a smoothie in my blender
  • goodwill
  • picked up calhoun from the airport and met his wife!
  • new years in san fran with friends!
  • fireworks!!!!
dec 31 2016 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • leon bridges - coming home
  • tegan & sara - how come you don't want me
  • oh wonder - without you
  • kodaline - all I want
  • arcade fire - song on the beach
  • nick hakim - I don't know
  • the lumineers - nobody knows
  • M.I.L.K - following the sun
  • coconut records - it's not you it's me
  • velvet underground - pale blue eyes
  • sara barellies - bluebird
  • sara barellies - she used to be mine (broke the no repeats rule but I really love this song)
oct 30 2016 ∞
nov 2 2016 +
  • become a good runner
  • ukulele
  • minimalist lifestyle
  • knit a sweater
dec 21 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • study chinese
  • clean room especially well
  • reorganize following on tumblr
  • budget
  • clean teapot
  • run/bike/hiking
  • make origami
  • do cute things
  • sleep
apr 19 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • rest
  • study
  • shower
  • clean room
  • play pokemon
dec 29 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • study chinese
  • go to the gym
  • movie with sharky
  • fix car with sharky
  • spca w/ craig
  • download chinese coarse for dix
  • christmas shopping
  • clean room
dec 3 2016 ∞
dec 20 2016 +

Saying first names is weird but I'm getting used to it a little more everyday.. just like I'm getting used to not seeing Andrews.. not talking to him.. not thinking of him. Everything is happening so fast. One month ago I was sitting in this very spot crying, devastated. Today I woke up in a strange place with a different person. I have the urge to write about all these things.

I don't want to believe Andrews broke my heart. I don't want to be brokenhearted again, I don't want to admit that I let him occupy a big enough space in my heart to do that kind of damage. He's a coward for not saying goodbye. Don't get me wrong, I'm well aware that I have my own shortcomings.. I constantly started arguments and I talked to much. But he sucks. He just plain sucks. Ugh I want to write more but I can't right now.. Still hungover and still mad.

nov 27 2016 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • pokemon sun is super fun
  • moana w/ dad
  • dad came to visit
  • new gilmore girls
  • new super cute anime schoolgirl skirt
  • cold finally went away
  • kisses even when it's awkward
nov 25 2016 ∞
nov 25 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • hydrate
  • clean room
  • beach
  • laundry
  • eyebrows
  • get snacks prepared for next weekend
nov 11 2016 ∞
dec 21 2016 +
  • stopped raining just in time for school
  • bernardi was friendly on the bus
  • halloween candy
  • craig/farmer's market/parking space
  • farmer's market old man vodka
  • teal rope meeting
  • only two more days this week
  • break up song by bo burnham is so relevant
nov 2 2016 ∞
nov 2 2016 +
  • denim short overalls
  • knee highs
  • peter pan collar shirt
  • good skirts
  • good short boots
  • etc
dec 10 2015 ∞
dec 21 2016 +
  • watch spirited away
  • supernatural marathon
  • ice skating
dec 6 2016 ∞
oct 30 2019 +
  • shower
  • study chinese
  • watch GoT
  • clean room
  • laundry
  • do taxes
mar 27 2016 ∞
apr 10 2016 +
  • homework
  • laundry
  • airmenship paper
  • dynasty for lunch (if I finish hw)
  • shower
  • mtt
  • bike ride/run
  • GoT
feb 15 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • watch adventure time
  • watch GoT
  • eat chinese food
  • study chinese/finish homework
  • work on airmenship homework
  • get a new folder
  • look at bank account
  • 29B for next weekend
  • mtt
  • superbowl party w/ wootton
  • chill w/ Andrews
feb 6 2016 ∞
feb 12 2016 +
  • cake!!!!!
  • sour cream and onion lays
  • rearranged room w fresh vibes
  • boyfriend heheheh
  • got a new phone
  • adventures on my bike
  • drinking w craig/wuench
  • steven universe
  • game of thrones/band of brothers
jan 24 2016 ∞
jan 24 2016 +
  • focus on work/school
  • become more of a hermit
  • stay away from cute boys
  • see the grand canyon
  • save money
  • think of more resolutions
dec 26 2015 ∞
aug 7 2016 +
  • all I really want for christmas is to pet a corgi
  • I become biggest cheesiest person in the whole world when it's the cheery holiday time
  • actually the real secret is that I'm always the cheesiest
  • that is all for now
dec 8 2015 ∞
dec 8 2015 +
  • SO many good things!!!!
  • really good japanese food w friends
  • calpis
  • helped w teal rope pledge/signatures
  • free chapstick
  • breaky w wootton
  • french toast
  • twin pinata
  • going home!!!!!!!!!
  • mom!!
  • said bye to craig/andrews
  • chick-fila!
  • hotel sleeping nice
  • STAR WARS!
  • see luke n he brought me flowers and dressed cute
  • coldstones!
  • resisted urge to kiss him
  • happy to be home!!!!!!!!!
  • so many other good lil things but I can't think of all of them at once!
dec 19 2015 ∞
dec 19 2015 +
  • so obviously I'm going to leave out an elephant size amount of good things that have happened in previous months and that is the whole point of this. lists of good things are not generally not lists of vast achievements, although they can include them don't get me wrong, but they are lists of the little things in life that make everyday worth living and appreciating. so lemme think...
  • graduated tech school
  • got all my outprocessing paperwork done early and leaving base before anyone else!
  • drove to texas and surprised hennig (he had no idea!)
  • slept on cot in airport because I'm the most stubborn person ever
  • had a nice hotel in texas and had free snacks
  • met hennig's mom and family, free place t...
nov 15 2017 ∞
nov 16 2017 +
  • no formation this morning
  • finished all my hw before class dismissed
  • talked to ssgt
  • feel more calm about boys n silly things
  • game of thrones
jan 7 2016 ∞
jan 7 2016 +
  • andrews talk in car/cop/kiss
  • aquarium was amazing!!! otters and penguins and octopus
  • lots of food from my dad
  • spend time w friends/bubba gump shrimp
  • showed dad chinese books
  • car rides are nice
  • ice cream
  • purple pants are so comfy and warm
  • groceries/sushi
  • drinking w pals
  • ran into watson/wetmore at walgreens/their a cute couple
  • lots of good things today/I have a very good life
nov 28 2015 ∞
dec 6 2015 +
  • passed mid-unit test!!!
  • cold stones
  • pizza w friends
  • beach n talk w andrews
  • jumped the fence
nov 24 2015 ∞
nov 24 2015 +
  • cute
  • nice butt
  • smart
  • cool russian accent
  • opinionated
  • caring
  • funny
  • strong
  • boy scout
  • drives a cool car w/ a sunroof
  • belt buckles
  • etc etc etc
jun 15 2016 ∞
aug 7 2016 +
  • grand canyon
  • santa cruz
  • big sur
  • comic-con san diego 2016
  • LA
  • alcatraz
  • half dome
nov 11 2015 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • french toast
  • no pt
  • finished unit 1 test (I hope I passed)
  • almost friday
  • watched friends/study time
dec 3 2015 ∞
dec 3 2015 +
  • crimson peak w/ andrews
  • moved to bldg 649
  • roommate with wootton
  • awesome sushi w/ lowery/broome
  • lots n lots more things but there's too much to mention!!!
nov 2 2015 ∞
nov 2 2015 +
  • FRENCH TOAST YAAAAS
  • started class today!!!!!!!!!!
  • watched SAO 2 with skrabak
  • frank sinatra pandora radio is excellent
  • ate healthy (for the most part) and went to the gym (weight room!)
oct 22 2015 ∞
oct 22 2015 +
  • slept in until 11
  • got my tailored uniform
  • my friends waited for me at the bus stop
  • didn't spend any money
  • four day weekend
oct 13 2015 ∞
oct 13 2015 +
  • study
  • get uniform from cleaners
  • clean blues
  • order amazon stuff
  • figure out what to do for lunches
  • frame picture
  • hang up pictures
  • buy more songs
  • get bike equipment
  • save money
  • organize money
  • pt 4-5 days a week
    • run min of 12 miles a week
    • don't be afraid of the weight room
    • press handstand
    • middle split
    • 1030 1.5 mi
  • gw: 130 lbs
  • DD volunteering
  • ATP
oct 10 2015 ∞
may 16 2016 +
  • my plants
  • origami birds
  • framing puzzles when finished
  • film photography
  • harry potter
  • reading
  • list making
  • art/doodles
  • bike riding/running/sports
  • grocery shopping
  • learning the ukulele
  • gymnastics
  • blogging
apr 5 2014 ∞
apr 5 2014 +
  • clean luke's room
  • go to gymnastics place
  • laundry
  • shawn's party?
  • ymca application
  • dollar tree application
  • walmart application
  • homework
  • go for a run
  • eyebrows

resumes:

  • pita pit
  • quiznos
feb 15 2014 ∞
apr 5 2014 +
  • slept good
  • relaxing
  • nice day/fresh air/sunshine
  • luke
  • the walking dead
jan 31 2014 ∞
jan 31 2014 +
  • wake up/shower
  • finish paperwork if not done tonight
  • get goodwill stuff together
  • check in at ray's/baci's
  • possibly hang out with April
  • print out grades/resumes
  • job hunting
  • call-in at four
    • go to work
      • go home
      • doctor who
    • go home
      • borrow ipod/run
      • doctor who
sep 6 2013 ∞
sep 7 2013 +
  • math/mitchell/david
  • pizza/gas/ice cream
  • harry potter
  • carly
  • psychology project done!
aug 22 2013 ∞
aug 22 2013 +
  • PAY DAY
  • math/david
  • pizza/ice cream
  • josh potts
  • swinter
aug 20 2013 ∞
aug 21 2013 +
  • sphere chapstick ($2)
  • The Perks of Being a Wallflower ($10)
  • TOMS ($50)
  • pay back the people that I owe:
    • Lindsey: $10
    • Dawson: $7
    • Katie: $5
    • Alecs: $20
    • Chelsea: $2
    • Jason: $5
may 7 2013 ∞
sep 6 2013 +
  • get outta bed
  • taxes
  • become somewhat presentable
  • COFFEE
  • school
  • DQ/theater
  • Jon Nelson
  • clean room
  • go to bed early
  • read suggested book
apr 15 2013 ∞
apr 16 2013 +
  • pie at shari's
  • sleepover
  • good night sleep
  • coffee/antiques with faith
  • shower
  • relaxing evening
  • new new girl/new bones/new castle
  • cupcakes
  • SO BUSY yesterday that I had to write yesterday's list today!!!!!!
feb 19 2013 ∞
feb 20 2013 +
  • sold my first ever thing on craigslist!!! (tripod)
  • productive phone calls
  • pizza/ice cream
  • adventure time on netflix
  • the walking dead w/ luke & cuddles
jan 29 2014 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • house key
  • dutch bros
  • lunch with mom/Josh
  • sunshine
  • disney movies
  • ice cream
  • blanket fort
apr 13 2013 ∞
apr 13 2013 +
  • school
  • not in anticipation/afraid
  • cashed check at walmart
  • cleaned room/kitchen
  • watched movies/family time
apr 8 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • hung out with Frankie
  • pizza
  • purchased hair dying stuff
  • church/amanda
  • free dutch bros
apr 7 2013 ∞
apr 7 2013 +
  • study study study
  • GET A JOB
  • exercise
  • be a bro
  • keep myself organized
  • maintain a positive outlook
apr 7 2013 ∞
apr 7 2013 +
  • CARLY COOK
  • chinese buffet
  • kitty
  • cookies/smoothie
  • family time
feb 12 2013 ∞
feb 12 2013 +
  • li laoshi said my pronunciation is getting better!!!!!
  • 104 on my lesson 3 vocab test
  • not a lot of homework
  • movies in chinese!!
  • got more than 7 hours sleep
nov 17 2015 ∞
nov 17 2015 +
  • good nights sleep
  • set up fire
  • run
  • clean room
  • sermon at parkway
  • read bible
  • hang out at baci's
feb 20 2013 ∞
feb 21 2013 +

gw: 120

  • sweets once every other day
  • exercise EVERY DAY
  • only fruit/cereal for breakfast
  • chicken every other day
  • portion sizes
  • no soda NO EXCEPTIONS
  • morning/night routine beyond regular exercise

why?

  • AWESOME
jan 24 2013 ∞
jan 27 2013 +
  • HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
  • text from dane
  • pretty day out
  • movie with mom
  • bowling with friends
  • cheap dutch bros
  • strawberries from dane
  • shari's with friends
feb 14 2013 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • go pro
  • quick camera (soon)
  • develop other camera (soon)
  • cats
  • cats dress (leggings/sweater)
  • gladiator shoes
  • eyebrows (soon)
  • mascara (soon)
  • eyeliner (soon)
  • brush (soon)
  • shampoo/conditioner (soon)
  • frames
  • school textbooks
  • phone plan (soon)
  • credit card
  • tires
  • glasses
  • laptop
  • puzzles
  • fall shoes
sep 10 2013 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • dutch bros
  • church
  • hope/apology
  • sushi buffet
  • fickes home group
  • grammys
feb 10 2013 ∞
feb 11 2013 +
  • 100% on 5.4 math quiz online
  • funny biology class
  • ice cream/carl's jr w/ Lindsey
  • harry potter hangman/jokes
  • Ari + Lawrence
  • church
  • nice dutch bros girl
  • clean laundry
apr 11 2013 ∞
apr 11 2013 +
  • took decent shower
  • baci's
  • dutch bros
  • dry erase board
  • beautiful day
mar 13 2013 ∞
mar 13 2013 +
  • good sleep
  • ari hangout
  • panko/chicken/ice cream
  • family time
  • gas
feb 11 2013 ∞
feb 11 2013 +
  • car shopping in medford
  • dq for lunch
  • new cards/envelopes
  • new light decoration
  • did laundry
jan 26 2013 ∞
jan 28 2013 +
  • clean room/laundry
  • starbucks
  • jon nelson
  • cookies/pizza
  • excited for tomorrow
feb 4 2013 ∞
feb 4 2013 +
  • free starbucks
  • church
  • free lunch with tom & eva
  • super bowl
  • free breadsticks
  • the blind side/salami/winky
feb 3 2013 ∞
feb 3 2013 +
  • heartbroken but still smiling
  • not giving up
  • asked good question on yahoo answers
  • cute baby deer
  • wrote letter
jan 28 2013 ∞
jan 31 2013 +
  • excellent job council profile
  • cute dog at car window place
  • good time with mom
  • funny car dealership people/chevy aveo
  • lemon cake!
jan 24 2013 ∞
jan 24 2013 +
  • resisted urge to talk to dane
  • church
  • lunch with eva/tom
  • home group
  • clean room
  • run
  • clean house
feb 17 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • really wonderful church service! glory to God!
  • tin-tin's for lunch
  • cute pictures
  • didn't feel jealous
  • watched the matrix
jan 20 2013 ∞
jan 31 2013 +
  • how to tell
  • you
  • that i'm
  • not
  • alright...
  • i miss you
  • and
  • i can't sleep
  • and
  • my heart hurts
  • it's empty
  • please
  • please
  • love me
  • i'm
  • begging
  • you
jan 22 2013 ∞
jan 23 2013 +
  • bike riding
  • reading
  • new recipes
  • origami
  • plants
  • photography
  • job shadow
  • room decoration
  • art/doodling
  • working out
  • yoga
jan 20 2013 ∞
jan 31 2013 +
  • yummy cupcake
  • tidy room
  • spent time with mom
  • SOUR CREAM & ONION LAYS
  • spent time with dad
jan 18 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • my name is melissa
  • I like harry potter
  • and cats
  • have a nice day ☺
jan 18 2013 ∞
jan 31 2013 +
  • the great gatsby
  • the perks of being a wallflower
  • the hobbit: the desolation of smaug
  • iron man 3
  • les miserables
  • life of pi (after I read the book)
  • the hunger games: catching fire
  • thor: the dark world
  • lincoln
  • the lorax
  • the wolverine
  • despicable me 2
  • django
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 29 2014 +
  • you live far away
  • you lie a lot
  • you're really controlling
  • you make me feel not good enough
  • you care too much about what other people think of you
  • you want other girls and me
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +

movies:

  • chamber of secrets
  • sorcerer's stone
  • half blood prince
  • prisoner of azkaban
  • deathly hallows part one
  • deathly hallows part two
  • goblet of fire
  • order of the phoenix

books:

  • sorcerer's stone
  • half blood prince
  • order of the phoenix
  • deathly hallows
  • prisoner of azkaban
  • chamber of secrets
  • goblet of fire
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • crookshanks
  • jiji
  • oliver
  • luna
  • artemis
  • diana
  • figaro
  • apricot
  • periwinkle
  • rufus
  • mittens
  • stanley
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • slutbutts
  • egyptian mice
  • egpytian rats
  • sewer cats
  • the holy fucks
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • buy a car
  • get a job
  • register for summer term/spring term
  • visit dane
  • start school april 1 - end school june 14 OR
  • start school july 8 - end school august 29 (2013)

(if I take spring term take summer off and if I take summer term focus on job development during the spring)

  • register for fall term
  • start school sept 30 - end school dec 13 (2013)
  • take winter term off (dane)
  • register for spring term
  • start school march 31 - end school june 13 (2014)
  • take summer term off
  • register for fall term
jan 17 2013 ∞
sep 6 2013 +
  • "trimming" my bangs (but really just fucking them up)
  • saying too much
  • not having a filter
  • having the wrong words come out of my mouth
  • allowing myself to get in a bad mood (in other words, I end up 'feeling sorry' for myself)
  • not doing what I should/need/want
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • make me so tired
  • sad
  • happy
  • frustrated
  • annoyed
  • overwhelmed
  • anxious
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +

I love nugget but if I come back from this trip and didn't miss him that much imma get rid of him.. sorry bud

jul 21 2022 ∞
jul 21 2022 +

coping?

oct 16 2021 ∞
oct 16 2021 +
  • bag
  • clothes (including wearing day of travel):

- 3 shirts - 3 bottoms - 3 socks - 4 underwear - 1 coat - bathing suit (depends)

  • bathroom items:

- shampoo - toothbrush - deodorant - hairbrush - perfume (depends)

  • purse:

- book - switch - waterbottle - headphones - phone - charger - wallet - hairbands - planner/pens

oct 4 2021 ∞
oct 4 2021 +

feeling in my gut

jun 2 2021 ∞
jun 3 2021 +
  • being awkward
  • baking banana bread
  • being on time
  • being a good travel buddy
  • trying to look on the bright side of things
  • organizing clutter
  • being open-minded
  • caring about others
  • using chopsticks
  • chilling
  • chinese
jan 28 2021 ∞
may 30 2022 +
  • I just want to be something good in other people's lives
  • and I want to take care of myself as well
dec 31 2020 ∞
dec 31 2020 +

1: what’s your favorite thing about winter?

2: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

3: do you prefer coffee or tea? how do you take it?

4: are you self-conscious of your smile?

5: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

6: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

7: what’s your morning/night routine?

8: what’s your favorite planet?

9: what’s tv show would you use to describe your life?

10: would you rather live in a castle or a spaceship?

11: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

12: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +

let’s go surfing - the drums

40 day dream - edward sharpe & the magnetic zeros

go outside - cults

i remember - yeasayer

don’t gotta work it out - fitz & the tantrums

feel it all around - washed out

another sunny day - belle & sebastian

young love - mystery jets

walk in the park - beach house

sun hands - local natives

marathon - tennis

weekend - smith westerns

still sound - toro y moi

summertime clothes - animal collective

wavves - king of the beach

best coast - our deal

tennis - marathon

beach fossils - youth

belle & sebastian - another sunny day

childish gambino - bonfire

oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • last beverage → dr. pepper
  • last phone call → I don’t remember
  • last text message → also don’t remember
  • last song you listened to → dope - BTS
  • last time you cried → maybe a few days ago
  • dropped your phone in the toilet → nope
  • depended on someone → yes, stupidly
  • dated someone twice → nope
  • been cheated on → yes
  • kissed someone & regretted it → yup
  • lost someone special → eh
  • been depressed → been sad a lot...
  • been dumped → lots of times
  • yellow
  • green
  • blue
  • black
  • Made new friends → yup
oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as we both can in all of them, compile photo evidence
  • Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of our favorite books
  • I’ll dress up as a ghost and you dress up us Pacman. Walk around downtown holding hands, and whenever anyone sees us, pretend to be embarrassed, and run off screaming “WOCKA WOCKA WOCKA!”
  • Create photo evidence suggesting that we went on an adventure that didn’t really happen
  • Dress up as superheroes and stop at least one petty crime “ie. Jaywalking, littering….”
  • Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.
  • Try and visit as many people as we can in...
oct 24 2020 ∞
oct 24 2020 +
  • desk
  • shelves
  • folding chair
  • clothes x2
  • books box
  • bedroom stuffs
  • luggage/dufflebags
  • fan
  • office stuff
  • military box
  • bathroom box
  • kitchen box
  • cat stuff
  • legos
sep 10 2020 ∞
sep 10 2020 +
  • exercise regularly
  • eat well, cook more at home
  • drink more water
  • have a more consistent sleep schedule
  • make a morning/night routine habit
  • make time to clean the house/enjoy cleaning
  • declutter
  • spend time enjoying my own company
jul 3 2020 ∞
jul 3 2020 +
  • bench press
  • step ups
  • bicep curls
  • spiderman planks
  • tricep press
  • plank w/ leg raises
  • medicine ball slam
  • kettle ball swings
  • plank jacks
  • plate press overhead
  • stability ball crunch
  • split squat w/ arms raised overhead
  • mountain climbers
  • sumo squat
  • double battle rope slam

30 seconnd each/15 second break

apr 12 2020 ∞
apr 12 2020 +
  • yesterday when I wrote that list about good things that have happened recently I had to stop because my fingers started to get tired typing it all up on my phone but today I got my new laptop in the mail so now I can type more!
  • the list from yesterday was so long and it didn't even encompass half of the good things from recently and just seeing how long the list was made my heart so full honestly
  • today was another good day!!!!
  • got a ride to work from rachel
  • living w rachel has been really fun these last few weeks
  • we're making a list of cute roommate things to do together!!
  • its nice to see hoover again at work everyday
  • chocolate covered strawberry from coworker
feb 14 2020 ∞
mar 19 2020 +
  • clothes
  • camera
  • headphones
  • chargers
  • waterbottle
dec 17 2019 ∞
dec 17 2019 +
  • clean house
  • workout
  • eat healthy
  • hang out with rachel
  • spend time with nugget
  • make christmas cookies
  • study chinese
  • car registration
  • get flu shot
  • think of more things to do...
dec 4 2019 ∞
mar 19 2020 +

his body kind of blows my mind... I hadn't had sex more than once in a row in a year... I'm sore... but the best part is his playfulness, mannerisms, kindness... haven't felt that in a long time

nov 20 2019 ∞
nov 21 2019 +

its really hard for me to say that...

nov 15 2019 ∞
nov 15 2019 +
  • someone having pepperoni pizza delivered to my house as a surprise
  • me eating the whole pizza and not gaining any weight
  • having a picnic on top of a hill w family size bag of sour cream and onion lays
  • reading a story to a cute boy while he lays his head on my lap
jan 11 2016 ∞
jan 11 2016 +

so I found out he's a dirty rotten piece of shit liar

I feel overwhelmingly elated and free!

nov 6 2019 ∞
nov 29 2019 +

so yesterday went better than expected... I feel a lot better. even though my heart is shattered, the shards didn't pierce my lungs

oct 25 2019 ∞
oct 25 2019 +
  • clean room
  • clean kitchen
  • clean toliet
  • clean bathroom
  • shower
  • eat healthy lunch
  • get frame for photo
  • get nails (to hang photos)
  • get string/circular hanger for origami
  • make origami
  • get ceiling hangers
  • get dinner with annalissa
  • laundry
  • get ready for work tomorrow
  • call supervisor
  • make cupcake-oo
oct 8 2018 ∞
oct 17 2018 +
  • bookcase
  • stuffed animals
  • candles
  • yellow pottery bowl -
  • camera x 4 (plus equipment) -
  • books -
  • magic eight ball -
  • label maker -
  • headphones -
  • sand from okinawa -
  • bedroom lamp -
  • purse, grocery bags x 2 -
  • marathon medal -
  • extension cord -
  • laptop (+charger, mouse) -
  • bedroom fan -
  • dresser
  • clothes
  • tv (+wii/wii equipment) -
  • storage bin (+office supplies)
  • frames (+photos) -
feb 21 2019 ∞
mar 24 2019 +
  • guest room?
  • living room tv stand
  • clean up front yard
  • mow backyard
  • clean grill
  • clean bathroom
  • new towels?
  • put clothes away
  • more toys for nugget
  • organize kitchen
  • decorate for winter time ??
  • organize papers and closet
oct 15 2019 ∞
aug 9 2020 +

I'm really taking things one day at a time.

I don't think I've ever had this feeling before.. like my heart has fallen out of my chest and its bleeding on the floor and I'm dragging my entrails along as I walk, stepping on my heart with each step, pounding it harder and harder into the dirt. I'm watching myself do this, like an out-of-body experience.

I feel grey most of the time.. like I'm lying on the edge of the beach where the water reaches for the shore, sand sticking on my skin, and the slow ripples are creeping up on my throat. The water isn't murky, but its grey and cold.. the sun isn't shining.. Paralyzed but my mind is oddly clear, aware of each second before the next crash of waves comes.

He's fine.. probably has a date tonight..

oct 16 2019 ∞
oct 28 2019 +
  • no pressure to wear pants in my presence
  • or any clothes at all really
  • but it’s up to you
  • u can be big spoon or little spoon
  • totally your choice
  • i’m always ready to make out
  • aLwaYs
  • also u don’t even have to buy me things just maybe an ice cream cone every once in a while that’s it
  • i’ll let you lick it though
  • i mean the ice cream cone
  • well not just the ice cream cone
oct 22 2019 ∞
oct 22 2019 +
  • clean room
  • clean shower
  • laundry
  • clean car
  • read
  • workout
  • organize finances
  • spring cleaning
  • eat healthy
  • enroll in college
  • sapr office meetings
  • new cac card
  • ssgt test results
  • volunteer events
  • photography
  • hiking
  • etc
jun 22 2018 ∞
oct 16 2019 +
  • ice cream for breakfast
  • pho place for lunch
  • nice weather
  • clean sheet
  • vacuumed room
  • got rid of some extra unnecessary things
  • had healthy dinner with my honey (salad place gave me a free chia lemonade the other day!)
  • worked out with hennig and ran faster, felt good
  • ate mcdonalds for dessert, oops
nov 16 2017 ∞
nov 17 2017 +
  • CHINESE
  • maintaining relationship with family/friends
  • saving money
  • cooking things
  • ds games
  • blogging
  • netflix
  • hiking/adventuring
  • reading
  • oragami
  • getting a better run time
  • biking
  • organizing
  • photography
  • nutrition
  • airmanship
  • volunteering
apr 10 2016 ∞
apr 10 2016 +
  • less is more, focus on living more minimally!
  • call home more
  • wear sunscreen
  • spend more time thinking than talking
  • be outdoors as much as possible
jun 11 2017 ∞
jun 11 2017 +
  • homework
  • clean car
  • workout
  • take out trash
  • eat healthy
  • laundry
  • be cool
mar 18 2019 ∞
mar 22 2019 +
  • clean room
  • laundry
  • oil change
  • eat healthy
  • work out
  • study chinese
  • budget
  • call lorenz's wife
  • think of more things to do
oct 30 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • gossiping
  • judging
  • negative
  • complaining
  • excuses
  • exaggerating
  • mixing up facts/opinions
feb 20 2018 ∞
feb 20 2018 +
  • pass dlpt
  • goodfellow
  • hawaii
  • college
    • bachelors degree
    • CCAF
    • DLI AA
  • learn hawaiian
  • learn sign language
  • europe
  • surfing
  • save money
  • australia
  • new zealand
  • tawain
  • think of more things to do
feb 28 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • green dufflebag
    • military clothes
  • suitcase
    • clothes
    • film camera
    • random other little things
  • boxes
    • everything else
    • rice cooker
    • blender
mar 8 2017 ∞
mar 20 2017 +

I need to sit the fuck down and fuckin' chill. none of this means anything anyways, I just need to focus on me and my future. I don't want to go all sappy now. remember: boys are dumb.. (girls are dumb too, I'm extremely dumb!)

mar 24 2017 ∞
apr 16 2017 +
  • deleted him 100%
jan 8 2017 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • outprocessing online training
  • study chinese
  • CRI
  • get film developed
  • budget money
  • check mail
  • watch you've got mail w/ pennie
  • make valentine's day cards
  • drink more water
  • hearst castle
  • san jose on saturday w/ davis
feb 13 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • laundry
  • shower
  • sleep
  • clean room
  • workout
  • eat healthy
  • study
  • go to the beach
  • take car to get checked out
  • pack
  • christmas shopping
  • buy bras
  • develop film
dec 17 2016 ∞
dec 20 2016 +

So here I am again. I'm laying in bed at three in the morning on Youtube distracting myself from you. I hate the word you sometimes. I hate when you always means someone new. I look at your instagram a hundred times a day you without exaggeration you, but I refuse to cry over you you. I don't remember the last time I cried. (Well obviously not including in the theater last week because of the Disney film...) But I really don't remember the last time I sat down and cried, it was probably a month ago or so. I feel like I feel less the older I get. Well, I actively try to feel less because the pain isn't worth it anymore. I used to feel like if something was painful then it was worth more. If I loved someone and it was painful to love them but I didn't give up, then that meant that my love was stronger. But what I keep bumping into time and time again is that people, or you, whoever the hell ...

dec 31 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • run to lover's point
  • saw cute dogs
  • pennie stopped by to talk
  • tea with yeshi/madrid
  • chinese food
  • clean room
  • lazy weekend days are nice sometimes
dec 4 2016 ∞
dec 6 2016 +
  • calhoun gave me a free gatorade (red!!!)
  • harry potter movie w/ friends!!
  • pokemon sun (they opened the store for me!!!!)
  • pizza/bww/chinese food/ice cream
  • kilberg gave me medicine and was very sweet
  • got to say goodbye to wetmore, she is a sweetheart
  • teal rope skit/cat ears
  • weller/rogers sushi/they are super nice
  • movie w/ pennie
  • fresh sheets/clean room
  • lots more things have made this week very good but I can't remember them right now and that has reminded me that even though some parts of life are hard the good outweighs the bad and I am very lucky. I'm exactly where I want to be and I'm surrounded by very nice people and I have so many opportunities. I am happy.
nov 20 2016 ∞
nov 21 2016 +

holy shit I can't believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jan 16 2017 ∞
jan 23 2017 +
  • study chinese
  • shower
  • dr. strange
  • buy clean wipes
  • do dishes
  • buy leggings
  • buy body wash
  • workout
  • hiking with gannon
  • hydrate
  • do laundry
  • make cupcakes
  • volunteering dli ball
  • eyebrows
nov 4 2016 ∞
nov 6 2016 +
  • lil bob & the lollipops - nobody but you
  • sam cooke - nothing can change this love
  • charlie parker - embraceable you
  • chet baker - I fall in love to easily
  • blink-182 - first date (perfect first song)
  • mumford & sons - white blank page
  • coconut records - west coast
  • etta james - I want a sunday kind of love
  • velvet underground - I'm sticking with you
  • moldy peaches - anyone else but you
  • regina spektor - us
oct 30 2016 ∞
dec 31 2016 +

pros:

  • moving far away
  • he doesn't love me
  • we don't like the same music

cons:

  • he's cute
  • I love him
  • good memes
oct 30 2016 ∞
oct 30 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • run
  • harry potter festival
  • clean room
  • eyebrows
jul 30 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • woke up late
  • uod pt clothes comfy
  • yummy kukis lunch
  • ssgt stevens was nice
  • branches race was cool
  • laundry
  • picked up dry cleaning
  • ate healthy dinner
  • cute boyfriend kisses
  • did pretty well on pretest
  • long shower
jun 15 2016 ∞
jun 15 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • make cupcakes
  • laundry
  • clean room
  • take out trash
  • shower
  • clean dishes
  • bww
jan 29 2017 ∞
nov 15 2017 +

I want to get a tattoo sleeve that's a combination of the little things in life that make me happy such as:

  • cats
  • pancakes
  • kites
  • origami birds
  • okinawa
  • something that reminds me of my mom
  • tea
  • flowers
  • etc etc etc
  • this is a work in progress....
nov 11 2015 ∞
nov 11 2015 +
  • clean room
  • shower
  • study chinese
  • clean teapot
  • run
  • laundry
may 1 2016 ∞
may 6 2016 +
  • study chinese
  • watch GoT season 5
  • do taxes
  • organize schoolwork
  • put on teal rope/afternoon volunteer friday
  • bike ride this weekend
  • budget
mar 29 2016 ∞
nov 15 2017 +
  • chinese
  • airmenship paper
  • laundry
  • clean room/mtt
  • get chinese food back/eat it
  • run
feb 28 2016 ∞
feb 28 2016 +
  • airmenship homework
  • chinese homework/study
  • harry potter marathon
  • chill w Andrews
  • brunch w Robison
  • lunch w Wootton
  • volunteer Sunday morning for run
feb 11 2016 ∞
feb 14 2016 +
  • when he holds my face while he kisses me
  • neck kisses
  • when he grabs my hair while he kisses me
  • I know I'm such a typical girl but I don't care
  • I am getting to flustered thinking about all the kissing to even talk about the other things I like that he does...
jan 24 2016 ∞
jan 24 2016 +
  • downtown abbey
  • portlandia
  • game of thrones
  • adventure time
  • steven universe
  • star trek: the next generation
  • parks n rec
dec 26 2015 ∞
aug 7 2016 +
  • this movie is really scary
  • I never want to watch this again
dec 21 2015 ∞
dec 21 2015 +
  • study
  • get christmasy sweater out of box
  • christmas tree/decorating
  • make japanese dinner tonight
  • grocery store shopping w luke
  • christmas shopping for family/luke/party
  • SEE MOMO/cuddles galore
  • read leisurely books
  • watch Harry Potter
  • hateful 8 in theaters
  • take lots n lots of pictures
  • home made meals
  • recipts from shopping spree
  • get car ready/insurance
  • budget
  • organize boxes in garage
  • run
  • think of more things for this list
dec 19 2015 ∞
dec 25 2015 +
  • woke up early w/o alarm and made cookies!!!!
  • ate yummy cookies
  • made people happy w previously referred to cookies
  • mcdonalds
  • chillin' w andrews
  • space jam
  • raccoons during taps
dec 13 2015 ∞
dec 13 2015 +

things are so nice here and I think I'm happier than I've been in a long time

nov 28 2015 ∞
nov 28 2015 +
  • french toast
  • good idea for teal rope stuff
  • dinner w all my pals
  • good talk w my mom the last night
  • last choco
nov 24 2015 ∞
nov 24 2015 +
  • sleep in
  • great chinese food with the bros
  • caprisuns
  • will ferrell movies
  • #realtalk with andrews
  • talked to luke on phone
nov 24 2015 ∞
nov 24 2015 +
  • all call
  • car repair
  • christmas shopping
  • budget
  • study chinese
    • immersion essay
nov 28 2016 ∞
dec 3 2016 +
  • shiba inu named stanley
  • cats named oliver and figaro
  • ten indoor plants ranging from succulents - hanging ferns
  • cardboard cut-out of han solo
  • a billion christmas lights
jun 11 2014 ∞
jun 11 2014 +
  • french toast
  • someone said my hair was nice (trying sock bun)
  • ate a lot of unhealthy yummy food
  • farmer's market with wuench
  • hanging out w/ andrews
nov 11 2015 ∞
nov 11 2015 +
  • reservoir dogs
  • pulp fiction
  • wayne's world
  • studying chinese
  • andrews/chillin'
nov 9 2015 ∞
nov 9 2015 +
  • mom came to visit this weekend
  • got my bike
  • laundry clean and smells good
  • fried chicken
  • attempted the weight room
  • room alone (although I miss my roommate)
oct 18 2015 ∞
oct 18 2015 +
  • salary: $1250 per month
    • roth ira: $100 per month
    • virgin mobile: $35 per month
    • boingo: $50 per month
    • entertainment: $150 per 2 weeks
  • penfed: $5200 (EMF)
  • usaa: $6786 (checking)

goal: Jan 2016 open a usaa savings account with $10,000

oct 10 2015 ∞
oct 22 2015 +
  • wake up
  • shower
  • gymnastics @ 1pm-3:30pm
  • gymnastics again @ 4:30-8pm
  • cuddles
  • pokemon
mar 7 2014 ∞
mar 7 2014 +
  • disposable cameras
  • pillows/pillow cases/sheets
  • world map
  • books
  • calendar
  • running jacket
  • origami
  • japanese lantern
  • posters
  • frames for posters
  • pants
  • earrings
  • more earrings
  • cardigans/sweaters
  • ukulele
  • film camera (walmart)
  • harry potter audiobooks
  • workout clothes
jan 17 2013 ∞
aug 9 2020 +
  • wake up
  • shower
  • look cute
  • school
  • JD
  • Mcdonalds tax info
  • DQ
  • Baci's
  • laundry
  • homework
apr 9 2013 ∞
apr 10 2013 +
  • harry potter
  • harry potter
  • harry potter
  • pokemon
  • ADORKABLE
  • japan
  • hot bod
  • gentle
  • chill
  • I like to kiss his face
  • cats
oct 12 2013 ∞
oct 12 2013 +

boys:

  • Albus
  • Caspar
  • Charlie
  • Flynn
  • Henry
  • Holden
  • Louis
  • Oliver

girls:

  • Amelia
  • Emma
  • Phoebe
sep 6 2013 ∞
sep 6 2013 +
  • found out truth about hope/dane
  • paycheck in the bank/cookie
  • doctor who/relaxing
  • nice supper
  • $1 drinks at dutch bros all month!
sep 6 2013 ∞
sep 6 2013 +
  • productive morning
  • walk with sharky and nice talk
  • explored dmc
  • chillin' with andrews
  • yummy pizza
  • bought lots of nice things (including new blanket!)
  • someone called me cute heheheh :3
oct 26 2015 ∞
oct 26 2015 +
  • math/david/mitchell
  • dad/ice cream
  • funny story in writing
  • smores ice cream
  • work
  • good sleep
aug 21 2013 ∞
aug 22 2013 +
  • TOMS
  • running shoes
  • tank tops (4)
  • swim suit
  • shorts (2-3)/leggings
  • spending money on cool stuff
  • sunglasses
  • cleanliness things/brush/makeup
  • socks (3)
  • backpack
  • camera
  • phone/phone charger
  • harry potter scarf
  • book for traveling
jun 18 2013 ∞
jun 18 2013 +
  • school
  • peter and the starcatchers
  • hanging out with Jon
  • breadsticks
  • found phone
apr 16 2013 ∞
apr 16 2013 +
  • church
  • hiking
  • mormon church
  • coffee
  • taxes
  • homework
apr 14 2013 ∞
apr 15 2013 +
  • slept in
  • dutch bros
  • barnes & noble
  • fault in our stars
  • phone #
  • olive garden
  • one day
aug 31 2013 ∞
aug 31 2013 +
  • so busy yesterday that I couldn't make the list!
  • good run
  • postcard from peru from David
  • soccer/Dawson/chillin'
  • breadsticks
  • beauty makeover/hair/Amanda
  • bowling
  • Mitchell
  • SUPER GOOD WEATHER ALL DAY
apr 13 2013 ∞
apr 13 2013 +
  • re-organize room
  • make Easter cards for the Fickes
  • research home/living contract
  • taxes
  • buy school textbooks
  • fill out midway application
  • get a job at Baci's
  • READ THE BIBLE EVERY DAY
  • eat absolutely NO candy
  • RUN RUN RUN
mar 13 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • church
  • arbys with family
  • full truth from Dane
  • maintained a positive outlook
  • good sleep
feb 25 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • get outta bed
  • make bed
  • take a shower
  • brush teeth/hair
  • get dressed
  • drive to RR
  • Frankie's haircut
  • haircut?
  • make sushi
  • watch movies
  • go to church with Amanda
  • workout afterwards
apr 6 2013 ∞
apr 7 2013 +
  • oatmeal cookies
  • good talk with mom
  • baci's friends/hangout
  • unexpected new friend
  • made/ate good dinner
  • skyped with Dane
feb 26 2013 ∞
apr 8 2013 +
  • BEACH!
  • five dollar foot long
  • good hangout time with ari/law/dane
  • felt God's grace
  • mango smoothy
  • free cookie at subway
  • dutch bros
feb 19 2013 ∞
feb 19 2013 +
  • doodled
  • relaxed
  • spagetti
  • family time
  • home group
feb 22 2013 ∞
feb 22 2013 +
  • twenty dollars
  • hike
  • eva fickes
  • ice cream
  • okay with not talking to dane
feb 13 2013 ∞
feb 13 2013 +
  • clean room
  • good talk with dane
  • change exchange
  • baci's interview
  • bball game
feb 8 2013 ∞
feb 9 2013 +
  • shower
  • high five mommy
  • homegroup
  • new sushi place
  • picture with april
feb 7 2013 ∞
feb 8 2013 +
  • clean room
  • bought a car!
  • pizza for dinner
  • took a shower
  • two top comments on youtube
jan 29 2013 ∞
jan 29 2013 +
  • baby llama
  • free candy
  • good talk with dad
  • talked to dane a lot
  • shower/shave
feb 3 2013 ∞
feb 3 2013 +
  • woke up/starbucks
  • RRC meeting
  • resumes/hospital
  • watched the lorax/the last song
  • lunch with grandpa
  • productive and content feeling
  • going to the RRHS play tonight
feb 1 2013 ∞
feb 2 2013 +
  • church
  • lotr
  • ipod
  • cookies & cream ice cream
  • air america with robert downey jr
jan 27 2013 ∞
jan 28 2013 +
  • smile
  • think of all the blessings you have
  • thank God
  • love others
  • don't stop smiling
jan 23 2013 ∞
jan 23 2013 +
  • good bones/castle episode
  • FOOOOOD/panko for dinner
  • driving!
  • giving the homeless dogs food
  • mom sledding video
jan 22 2013 ∞
jan 23 2013 +
  • go grocery shopping
  • take a shower
  • fingernails
  • call shnucks about tax info
  • do applications for two places
  • put away laundry
  • dane time
  • pray
  • starting reading casual vacancy
  • BE POSITIVE
jan 22 2013 ∞
jan 23 2013 +
  • go to the airport with dane
  • put/send care package together for dane
  • contact applebee's/schnuck's about tax information
  • contact RCC
  • take a shower
  • bake cookies
  • read casual vacancy
  • keep myself busy so I'm not sad
jan 20 2013 ∞
jan 22 2013 +
  • pauline - dec 7
  • brian - dec 11
  • josh - june 14
  • luke - june 3
jan 18 2013 ∞
jun 5 2015 +
  • fruit:
    • strawberries
    • grapes
    • bananas
    • watermelon
    • pineapple
    • raspberry
  • fruit for smoothies:
    • strawberries
    • bananas
    • pineapple
  • juice:
    • orange
    • mango
    • grape
  • chicken:
    • lemon seasoned breast
jan 18 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • be happy
  • graduate college
  • be a cat owner
  • live somewhere warm
  • go to harry potter world
  • go to europe
jan 17 2013 ∞
nov 2 2015 +
  • unpacked/organized boxes from garage
  • content with deleting facebook
  • received reassuring text from dane
  • excited to start school soon!
  • really good brownies with dane
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • discovering jenna marbles
  • received a nice message on tumblr
  • yummy strawberry smoothie
  • kissing dane
  • watching legally blonde makes me feel motivated
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • smoothie for breakfast
  • optical/biking
  • start reading the casual vacancy
  • put my laundry away
  • clean room
  • take un-needed shit to donation
  • take a shower
  • be content with my life
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • ariel (the littler mermaid)
  • pocahontas
  • belle (beauty and the beast)
  • mulan
  • megera (hercules)
  • jane (tarzan)
  • jasmine (aladdin)
  • aurora (sleeping beauty)
  • cinderella
  • rapunzel (tangled)
  • tiana (the princess frog)
  • snow white
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 17 2013 +
  • matthew lewis
  • tom felton
  • hugh jackman
  • andrew garfield
  • ryan gosling
  • ewan mcgregor
  • HAN SOLO
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 18 2013 +
  • harry potter
  • disposable cameras
  • cats
  • cloud watching
  • dandelions
  • pizza
  • oreos
  • law and order
  • cuddling
  • puns
jan 17 2013 ∞
jan 31 2013 +