• mac miller
• andrea gibson
• dry the river
• bombay bicycle club
• lydia
• frank ocean
• yellowcard
• angus & julia stone
• first aid kit
• bon iver

• The Ocean swelling, a love’s breath, the advance of film in an analog camera, wind brushing through trees’ leaves, rain pattering against windows and rooftops, the alto saxophone, Opera music, my little sister’s laughter, etc.

• two great cups of green tea
• revision, revision, revision of behaviorism
• running in the rain towards shelter
• receiving a great scholarship for my queer-rights related leadership efforts
• purchasing Siddhartha and The Road
• Indian food for dinner
• Monsieur Lazhar

• good things: London in four months, the new season of "30 Rock", getting into Wellesley College, planning out my tentative fall schedule, disposable cameras, Ben Howard, rainy weekends, Spring Break in five days, recycling old clothes, simplifying, encouragement from my father about my poetry, Jeanette Winterson, day dreaming, inference tests for Statistics, salads from Chopt'd , walking around Georgetown, spending the weekend with Yeree, spending the whole afternoon wrapped up in an issue of "The Economist", etc.
• bad things: pale/bleeding gums (again), etc.

• read Whitman's words or something just as grand
• drink peppermint tea
• befriend a cute, grey cat on the way home who purrs at your presence
• watch an episode of "Arrested Development"
• cross more things off of my to-do list

• Tolstoy's "Family Happiness and Other Stories"
• Neruda's "The Book of Questions"
• Winterson's "The Passion"
• Nabokov's "Lolita"

• how heavy their souls weighs in their body
• the emotion in their eyes (color, too)
• (if they are carrying a book), then which
• if they are looking at their phones or the world around them
• how i could fall in love with them (if female; also i tend to fall in love with strangers all of the time)
• how they smile back at me
• what song they are singing underneath their breath
• how their eyes are the color of a certain shade on the light spectrum
• how they would not treat me like she did (if female)
• how they smoke/breathe in the winter air

• "just a boy" / angus & julia stone
• "home" / edward sharpe and the magnetic zeroes
• "yellow" / coldplay
• "better together / jack johnson
• "colors" / barcelona
• "one hundred million years" / m. ward

• keeping great things / good things / bad things lists in my red notebook
• writing stories
• falling in love

• Rauschenberg
• James Abbott McNeil Whistler
• Monet
• (this is a growing list)

• the sea wall
• "bula" every where i went
• fresh eggs and pineapple juice every morning
• sleeping on that sofa
• "my century"
• feeling at peace with my self for all hours of those five days
• shopping in the markets
• children playing rugby and soccer
• the landscape

• singapore
• iceland
• hong kong
• suva
• morocco
• mongolia
• montevideo
• perth
• Seoul
• Moscow

• the Olympics / london
• feeling completely comfortable with my self now
• wellesley
• getting film developed
• saying goodbye
• chilling / napping

• teach arabic, 9-1 PM on weekdays
• get ready for london / wellesley
• buy a shit ton of new clothes for wellesley
• donate old clothes
• recycle myself
• come out to self as transgender
• get new frames for glasses and a new pixie cut (exciting stuff)
• see "beasts of the southern wild" / eat gelato / eat some rad mexican food
• buy head bands to accessorize said hair cut
• buy lots and lots of film
• explore dc (hopefully soon - i need to find time after work)
• stay up really late listening to clarity / mac miller, and reading, and loving every good thing
• write letters to nani and anna
• be the happiest ever

• unplug from the internet, essentially
• finish my moleskine and begin a new one
• read lots of books, and issues of the new yorker, and the economist
• purchase three disposable cameras to take to london
• thrift for more winter sweaters
• simplify
• drink out of mason jars
• sit underneath my favourite tree for hours on end
• become pen pals with pavorst, and leah, and etc.
• nap like there is no tomorrow
• untie, unwind

• great things: Rue Royale, Freelance Whales, getting all "A's" this quarter, the beginning of Spring Break (today), Andrea Gibson's "The Nutritionist", Al Whitton's project LOSTBIRD, Spring Open Campus in less than a month, drinking out of mason jars, "Beginners", gathering addresses for penpals, reading fantastic books until the early hours of the morning, healing gums (mostly), two hour naps, etc.
• bad things: n/a

Good things:

• "Kafka on the Shore", meeting Kate last weekend, eastern market, that spicy tuna sandwich, chai tea, re-watching "Arrested Development, the way em says "good morning" to me on her better days, the perfume of old books, my grandma and the fact that she is starting to find happiness again, my english teacher's quirky comments, only four classes tomorrow, raw almonds, feeling the sun kiss my short-wearing legs, hb boxers, julia stone's "This Love", Laura's new album announcement, wandering the halls singing "Postcards from Italy" with the girl you fancy, M. Ward, Bombay Bicycle Club, "hunter's hearts" mix, England in four and half months, senior projects in a little bit over in two months, the prospect of getting my film developed this weekend, e.f.j's solo project, the word "likely" in context of my ee letter, ...

• underneath my two favourite trees
• on the aeroplane
• in my room
• whilst I am in love

• wear my R&R DISCRIMINATION shirt to school
• basically come out of the closet as a result
• feel shaky
• do a statistics chapter basically in a night
• comfort ruthie
• feel sick because she feels terrible
• make her a mix
• talk to eden and lexi and lena
• etc.

• went to bed at 3:00 AM because my brain was so wide awake and alive
• went to church and read whitman the entire time because his words are closer to my heart than verses of the bible
• ate too many sugary things at brunch so then my stomach hurt
• wandered around my neighborhood in my new grey sweater
• a man honked his car horn at me because i was walking too slowly across the street
• listened to andrea gibson and then some of the wombats and then some M. Ward whilst walking home
• a dog barked at me and tried to follow me, interrupting my spiraling thoughts about you, and its owner kept yelling at it to stop bothering me
• walked past molly's house; I still hope her parents live there

• read Whitman
• drink peppermint tea
• listen to Isbells, M. Ward, Julia & Angus Stone, etc.
• think about Fiji
• dream of college days and nights
• talk to Emma
• etc.

• zoe, and her 99 year old soul, and her love sketching and talking to trees
• the metamorphosis of a man
• walking through the wilderness of trials

• pan's labyrinth
• a separation
• fishing without nets
• rajul
• if a tree falls
• the barber of birmingham
• saving face
• la luna
• a better life
• albert nobbs
• the tsunami and the cherry blossom
• a serious man
• another earth

• take free french classes at gwu
• read more books from my goodreads' list
• explore more of washington, dc
• drink more iced tea
• wander barefoot
• unplug from the internet

• field notes notebooks
• more books for kindle for fall break / any break in school where i can spend the day reading
• etc, etc

• the Submarine (2011) soundtrack
• Vacationer’s Dreamlike
• Wild Child’s Pillow Talk
• Mumford & Son’s Timshel
• Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros’ Man on Fire
• Tom Rosenthal’s Away with the Fairies
• Blind Pilot’s We Are the Tide
• Bess Rogers’ I Don’t Worry

• rehoboth
• hawai'i
• fiji
• in love

• savants, the hirshhorn’s various exhibitions, big sweaters, street performers, the fact that spring is soon, watercolors, the mix ‘listless’, beirut (the band), cute little kids on the metro, learning, whitman, peppermint tea, etc.

• "A" on my Statistics test
• the routine of proportional z-score tests
• you enjoyed my gift of egger's "what is the what"
• beginning my ritual of peppermint tea
• mom bought me diary-free cream cheese and dark chocolate and fancy french soap
• crab ravioli and vegetable lasagna
• my mix, "sleepy sun"
• bombay bicycle club
• getting rid of ills
• wearing big sweaters every where
• a new hair style on saturday
• i played my ukulele whilst you sang "elephant gun" and i filled the gaps of your memory with my voice
• listening to Gregory Alan Isakov
• late nights full of inspiration
• watching the Take Away Show series (for Bon Iver, Beirut, etc.)

• with a girl who reads and treats your books like she will treat your heart
• who makes you a perfect cup of tea in the middle of the night
• who does not mind when you write her poetry
• who loves Emma Boo

• write a certain story that has been festering in my head for two nights
• begin my english paper (introductory paragraph)
• complete my first driving lesson with my father
• start psychology chapter 11
• study statistics

• read the beginning of book, when it is all sleepy and the excitement has yet to arrive
• listen to gregory alan isakov's "master & the hound" on repeat
• do not think about ghosts or other supernatural things which in turn will scare me

• a package of peppermint tea bags
• cashews
• eggs

• eat less diary
• eliminate sweet foods
• walk around more
• start doing bikram yoga

• the stars at night were so bright and all-encompassing
• the heat and my tan skin
• sleeping outside in the sun
• the hammock
• the fresh pineapple and other foods
• the grocery store around the corner
• my healing and infinite feelings
• discovering so many wonderful bands
• sleeping by the sea whilst camping