• I have to give meaning to things but in order for that to happen, there has to be meaning at all
  • parties aren't parties if you can't make mistakes
    • or if everyone is making mistakes
    • the best conversations I've ever had were after/during/before throwing up
  • I'm half way prim between too much ambition / demand and constantly being drugged
    • though sleepless either way
  • faking emotions again
    • until I'm high
  • talking to the mendota
    • past
    • present
    • future
oct 5 2016 ∞
nov 4 2016 +
  • Caffeine
  • Nicotine
  • sometimes weed
  • sometimes alc
  • when i'm in love
  • when i'm heart-broken
  • when there's a good idea, thought, notion, conversation, when there's something profound
  • when it's dark fall taco bell weather
oct 6 2016 ∞
oct 6 2016 +
  • Eve
    • poem/story
  • (to) the girl in the cage
    • poem
  • aesthetic properties of man
    • essay
    • prolly will never happen idk
  • the whole faster world thing i'm too foggy to write it out
  • not a title but that one thing about the burning people
may 4 2014 ∞
may 4 2014 +
  • Cb, E
    • I was hoping that one day I'd have a chance to tell you about the moths. I thought I'd be able to press you open like I used to do with flowers, thumbing the petals, running fingers up the scale of leaves.
    • it's almost funny how acquainted I've become with the delicate. I've twirled smile lines around the tips of my fingers. I've held the redness of an apple and sank my teeth into the wholeness.
  • F
    • don't you even dare you fucking piece of shit all it ever was about was you. I've stitched along the edge of all four chambers and for the first time let a living breathing human being see the glint of darkness I hold under my tongue I bound your...
sep 29 2013 ∞
oct 28 2016 +
  • fur coats (not real though that defeats the purpose)
    • black
    • white
    • red
  • rocks
    • smokey quartz
    • rose quartz
    • lepidolite
    • malachite
      • always
    • sugelite
    • carnelian
  • boots
    • doc martens
  • my anger
  • air force ones
oct 6 2016 ∞
oct 6 2016 +
  • The multifacetness of the characters in Charles Dickens's "Great Expectations" are simply suburb
    • (((I don't know how to underline forgive me father for I have sinned)))
  • *Tips Fedora* My Lady
  • a particularly large amount of hope, pleasure, purpose, and interest have disappeared from my life
  • I have never enjoyed kissing anyone before
    • (Choose one of the below)
      • So instead you're going to have to sit here and listen to me blather on about overdone and pointless topics
      • So lets try to see if I ever will
  • Tell me about your dog/cat/ferret/etc
  • I was one of the millions who was nominat...
mar 25 2014 ∞
mar 25 2014 +
  • Scientists could scour the very depths of the arctic and would still not be able to find anything colder than you
  • Believe me, I've tried to find it in your eyes but all I've found is the semblance of warmth. For some time that's all I really needed.
  • Someone once told me that observing such a thing is the same as putting your hand over a flame. While it burns, it's beautiful. But that doesn't change the fact that you end up with a mutilated stump.
  • I told my self that this was beauty. I was wrong.
  • All the words left unspoken and yet I think it's better this way.
sep 14 2013 ∞
sep 14 2013 +
  • need to learn how to confront the physical and learn where it is located
    • is satisfaction from pulling it out or putting it back in?
    • long story short-- I need to find someone, or at least become better at finding someone, or become better and those anonymous things without any of those loose ends.
    • Need to learn how to confront my will to be alone w something that i cannot do for myself
      • and all the negative things that being Not Alone bring, even if it's good, in the moment
  • garnet, malachite, rainbow obsidian
  • november 14/13; 9 months after valentines day. last thing u did, i did, etc. The year passes over. Isn't it weird how one d...
nov 13 2016 ∞
nov 13 2016 +
  • green tea
    • l-theanine
    • i can pretend
    • mom dropped it off with the other things from trader joes and maybe i learned a bit about love, but i didn't want to, and i don't
  • coffee
    • half-decaf /half-regular
    • decaf
    • left over from the day before
      • what will now become a regular thing
  • black tea
  • non-caffeinated tea
    • why
    • but i'll drink it (see third subsection of green tea)
oct 5 2016 ∞
oct 5 2016 +
  • Note: I do not know all of the authors, and the titles might have mistakes in them, since I read some long, long ago.
  • Unwind
    • By: Neal Shusterman
  • A Clockwork Orange
    • By: Anthony Burgess
  • JtHM
    • By: Johnen Vasquez
  • Veronika Decides to Die
    • Paulo Coelho
  • House of Spirits
    • Isabel Allende
  • House of Leaves
    • Mark Z. Danielewski
aug 9 2011 ∞
oct 18 2011 +
  • September 22, 2014
    • We do the same thing, except we do not name it or tell others
      • connections and disruptions
    • J, I cannot offer advice (as I have been doing) because despite a false exterior of callousness and commoradie, I am just the same as you are
    • I was not made to hold hands or conversations.
  • xx
    • My heels are standing in the corner in fifth position; a point on a stack of letters, a toe on a receipt. And my mother and all the mother's mothers are watching, silence; and endless loop of flesh. Gnawing on a chicken bone, my father tosses bits of skin down to the cat. "we're hunters...
sep 22 2014 ∞
nov 27 2014 +