• oh
• hush
• bittersweet
• voluptuous (sounds of the sea)
• wilderness
• enchant
• ethereal
• opulence
• murmurous
• penumbra (a half-shadow)
• déjà vu
• poppy
• faery
• midsummer
• swoon
• endearing

• typewriter
• sewing machine
• kaleidoscope
• bubbles
• tarot cards
• rocking chair
• teapot
• seeds: lavender, chamomile, pansy, lily, mint
• teas: saffron, jasmine, chai
• lava lamp
• satin sheets

• smell of campfires
• lullabies
• the tenderness of being sick
  • bruises
• chamomile-lavender tea
• "would you like some honey honey?"
• coming in from the cold
• remembered dreams
• big spoon, little spoon

• The lawn /is pressed by unseen feet, and ghosts return /gently at twilight, gently go at dawn /the sad intangible who grieve and yearn. -T.S. Eliot
• We exist with a wind whispering inside and our moon flexing. Amid the ducts, inside the basilica of bones. The flesh is a neighborhood, but not the life. Our body is not good at memory, but at keeping it. —Jack Gilbert
• Last night I dreamed about you. What happened in detail I can hardly remember, all I know is that we kept merging into one another. I was you, you were me. Finally you somehow caught fire. — Franz Kafka to Milena Jesenska, 1921
• May 1935: Storm sky in August. Gusts of hot wind. Black clouds. Yet in the East a delicate, transparent band of blue sky. Impossible to look at it. Its presence is a torture for the eyes and for the soul, ..._Notebooks_

• sleep paralysis
• paranoia
• vulnerability
• stuttering
• "in case of emergency, secure your own mask before helping others"
• disassociation (are these hands my own?)
• seeing faces in everything
• sartre

if the planets were notes [http://www.informationisbeautiful.net/20...]

space [http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html]

past & present [http://irinawerning.com/back-to-the-fut/...]

kaleidoscope [http://img.izismile.com/img/img2/2009061... ]

secrets [http://www.postsecret.com/]

spooky [http://flowers-instead-of-faces.blogspot...]

lovely [http://anasomnia.com/]

life [http://www.highexistence.com/life-secret...]

dreams I [http://www.facebook.com/groups/180314481...]

dreams II [http://www.dreammoods.com/]

haunted [http://www.nickcannon.com/post/10-most-h...]

poems [http://www.poetserv.org/SRR19/ritsos.htm...]

time travel- [http://www.funnyordie.com/articles/6ea1a...]

future [http://www.flickr.com/photos/amphalon/33...]

cutest faces [http://hinh.tv/]

bodies [http://www.jinxiboo.com/blog/2009/12/15/...]

story [http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2011/08/...]

before i die [http://candychang.com/before-i-die-in-no...]

cherry blosom [http://www.thecherryblossomgirl.com/]

what you are [http://hereswhatyouare.com/]

journal I [http://balzerdesigns.typepad.com/balzer_...]

journal II [http://fiveprime.org/hivemind/Tags/art,m...]

• get a big notebook with pages that call out to you, and a pen you quite like to write with. give yourself a deadline by which to completely fill the notebook, and you absolutely must finish by that time.
  • optional: take acid and do it all in one day. the words will hardly be able to contain themselves (& may slip off the page or crawl into places you never intended)
• 1000 journals makes me want to burst into flames of paint & consume all the empty pages that ever existed
• creative writing prompts
• do something new every day
• 100 ideas
• doilies

• “One farmer says to me, 'You cannot live on vegetable food solely, for it furnishes nothing to make bones with;' and so he religiously devotes a part of his day to supplying his system with the raw material of bones; walking all the while he talks behind his oxen, which, with vegetable-made bones, jerk him and his lumbering plow along in spite of every obstacle.” ― Henry David Thoreau

• the allegory of the cave
• mediated, by thomas de zengotita
• the matrix
• be here now
• the dhammapada
• why i am not a christian
• the poetry of charles bukowski
• dharma bums
• tumblr

2005-6-7 (?)

• jars of clay (with church group)
• zoegirl and superchick (with church group)
• falling up (rachel's birthday)

2008

• kaki king + the mountain goats
• mirah and kimya dawson (with carlin and di)

2009

• guidance counselor (carlin and sarah)
• modest mouse (with carlin)
• jamie stewart (alone)
• nurses (in pioneer square)

2010

• sam cooper (with courtney)
• devendra banhart (courtney's birthday)
• why? and xiu xiu (first day in brooklyn)

california

• piedmont cemetery
• golden gate bridge (wind vortex)
• the bordello
• albany bulb
• mad tea party at the end of time
• children's fairyland

oregon

• rimsky-korsakoffee
• the good karma box
• archangel michael

state of mind

• rainbow gathering
• land of the poets

far & wide

• sedona
• macchu picchu
• the isle of eigg (singing breezes)

that changed my life:

• When Elephants Weep
• A Language Older Than Words
• Cunt
• Evasion
• Slaughterhouse-5

poetic prose:

• White Oleander
• Sappho's Leap
• The Incantation of Frida K.
• Lolita
• Delta of Venus

spiritual:

• Be Here Now
• The Book- On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are
• Tarot Of The Spirit

graphic novels or comics:

• "la muchacha más preciosa del mundo"
• "sweet dreams" for goodbye
• sign on the road: "soft shoulders"
• (when the little boy saw our empty shoes by the riverbank) "mom, mom- how do they stand up with nobody in them?"

• what dreams may come
• enter the void
• interview with a vampire
• addams family
• the craft
• the crow
• the rainbow & the serpent
• eternal sunshine
• little miss sunshine
• alice (svankmejer)