Marjorie told me that a writer needs to live. Here are my adventures so far:

• getting frisked by the police on the side of the road and then having to walk back to my dorm from an unknown location.
• hickory hills park in a painted black midnight. walking in wet clothes and not seeing inches in front of me.

• i used to be able to call my mother and she would answer. now not so much.
• i am a jealous person.
• i am selfish.

• the way the sky looks like at night
• my window that looks onto the alley
• lincoln square
• front porches
• public art
• lemonade stands
• elotes
• ice cream carts
• walking through the parks
• the lakefront
• wind

• i like when you call me 'babe'
• i pretend to smoke more often than i actually smoke
• i would rather forget people than not be with them

• pictures of dead relatives (grandmothers)
• jello shots and he punches when we kiss

• sorry about your sari
• the retrosexual fictioneers
• take a clara bow

• firefly tag-it is freeze tag. to get unfrozen: catch a firefly. can only be played in dark backyards or fields.
• el lobo-it is like hideandgoseek except my grandma always seeks and she is the wolf (el lobo) and when she finds us, she eats us.

• The Glass Eye by Rachel Rose
• Something Amazing by Elizabeth McCracken
• Cordoba by Stuart Dybek
• We Didn't by Stuart Dybek
• Jon by George Saunders
• Any short story by Joe Meno
• Any short story by Ernest Hemingway
• Any short story by Miranda July
• Ficciones by Jorge Luis Borges
• Any short story by Barthleme

• may i feel said he- e e cummings
• mary-scissor sisters
• the list of "why you should take me back"
• scissor sisters

• ian: origami frogs, book trading, kisses, and i made him feel(realize) that he was calloused. (six hours)
• drew: cigarettes, sox bic lighter, shaky frozen hands, awkward bathroom and conversation fumbling, and "can i kiss you?" (thirty minutes)
• toby: building a fort, india ink tattoos, delinquency, Canadian, writers camp (two weeks)

• Joe Meno's The Great Perhaps
• Roberto Bolaño's The Savage Detectives

• waterfountain kisses
• blindfold kisses
• phone kisses
• bubblegum kisses
• cigarette kisses
• animal kisses
• monkey
• butterfly
• swan
• mouth to chin to chest kisses
• massage the back kisses
• orange juice pulp kisses
• wrong tilt of the head but i correct it for you kisses
• bikehelmet kisses
• ninetyfivemeaningless kisses
• glossy floor dark trash room kisses
• "conversation between the kisses" kisses
• clavicle kisses

• pinky swears
• AOL profiles
• field trips
• pen pals
• board games
• capture the flag
• horse and carriages
• blood oaths
• revolutions
• family fueds/starcrossed lovers
• pet rocks

• stage an impromptu public poetry reading
• bake a cake for someone
• have a funeral for a found dead animal
• make a time capsule for a first date
• have a fake argument in public
• make a five minute documentary

1. shove my hand down your pants and up your shirt intimacy
2. foreplay before we fuck intimacy
3. foreplay after we fuck intimacy
4. you're a character in my stories intimacy
5. you're a title for my story intimacy
6. shower together without kissing or having sex intimacy
7. i don't have to say i love you because it is in everything else i do intimacy