religion/christianity/sexuality/chastity/celibacy--for current papers and future reference and eventual thesising ... or something

• spiritual marriage: sexual abstinence in medieval wedlock
• dynamics of identity in the world of early christianity
• your half of the apple: god and the single girl
• spiritual direction and the gay person
• straight to jesus: sexual and christian conversions in the ex-gay movement
• burden of the flash: fasting and sexuality in early christianity
• real sex: the naked truth about chastity
• eunuchs and castrati: a cultural history
• the new celibacy: why more men and women are abstaining from sex--and enjoying it
• porneia: on desire and the body in antiquity

• mental health
  • coping skills
  • depression, anxiety, stress, anger
  • self-love, self-care, self-esteem
• love letter to you, to myself
• you are not alone
• poetry
• prose
• literary prose, flash fiction, or whatever it is that i write
• hand embroidered together
• watercoloured covers
• cardstock covers
• lists

• a simple/abstract martlet, above my right hipbone—over where my fading birthmark is—in blue
  • also golden snidget-esque
• icarus along my left shoulder blade, in ancient greek and dark grey
  • Ἴκαρος
  • and vieni á volare underneath
• be still along my right shoulder blade, in dark grey
• my blood approves along my right lower arm, written from my inner wrist
• little divinity around my left inner wrist
• love after love on my left hipbone

• wrists/wrist-bones
  • inner wrists
• clavicles
• hipbones
• birthmarks
• certain freckles
• neck
• shoulder-blades
• underside of hands
• waist
• certain scars
  • knees
  • left hand
  • lower lip
• jawline
• suprasternal notch

• sleep when i'm tired at night; don't stay up till it's early for no reason
• also, just sleep--more and earlier
• start reading for pleasure again
• lose myself in a hobby, in order to keep myself busy and not let my mind wander to anxiety-increasing things
  • crochet
• do not relentlessly tell myself "i can't"
• stop apologizing needlessly
• see my therapist regularly
• and psychiatrist
• write in my journals
• namely, continue to keep my mental health journal and with more regularity
• believe that my psychological disorders are real, but also believe that they do not define me or make me any less of a human being

• (reread) the great gatsby
• a midsummer night's dream
• (reread) the tempest
• brave new world
• (finish) extremely loud and incredibly close
• the fault in our stars
• everything is illuminated
• paper towns
• (the dante club)
• the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
• the sirens of titan
• what would jesus deconstruct?
• the secret life of bees
• the book of laughter and forgetting
• the queer god
• the art of travel
• status anxiety
• the letter q
• christian identity in a multi-faith world

• I open myself to my intuition and deepest knowing.
• I accept that I am an unlimited being.
• I rethink all negative thoughts about myself and others and change them to positive energy.
• I live in the truth of my grace, beauty, and intelligence.
• I love myself exactly as I am right now.
• I am an open channel for divine love.
• I surrender to this moment.
• I am kind to myself.
• I trust more; I fear less.
• I am centered and grounded.
• I am healing: body, mind and spirit.
• I am worth loving.
• I have the freedom to do as I choose with my time.
• I unconditionally love and approve of myself all the time.
• I am deserving of what I want.

from galadarling's list

• make a list of reasons why you love yourself
  • write down compliments other people give you
• reach out to others
• change the way you think about food
• stretch in the mornings
• really listen to people when they are speaking
• have media black-out days
  • once a week?
• ask for help
• know that you are good enough--all the time
• find a mantra/affirmation & hold it close
• do your very, very best to stop judging people

• "the lady of shalott" by alfred, lord tennyson
• "soda crackers" by raymond carver
• "things" by lisel mueller
• "anyone lived in a pretty how town" by e.e. cummings
• "!blac" by e.e. cummings
• "stopping by woods on a snowy evening" by robert frost
• "the sciences sing a lullabye" by albert goldbarth
• "the forgotten dialect of the heart" by jack gilbert
• "beethoven" by shane koyczan
• "sometimes i am alive because with" by e.e. cummings
• "love after love" by derek walcott
• "so you want to be a writer?" by charles bukowski
• "textbook statistics" by arkaye kierulf
• "failing and flying" by jack gilbert

• read for pleasure again
• continue keeping my mental health journal, hopefully with more regularity
• like who I choose to spend my time with
• spend a lot less time online
• reblog less and post more (writing)
• write more
• improve my handwriting
• crochet more
• sleep more and better
• exercise regularly
• drink more water and be hydrated

• fall 2013
  • classics
    • elementary latin i
    • advanced greek
    • love and sex in the ancient world
  • languages
    • first year modern chinese i
      • mwf 10:00-10:50
    • advanced french?
  • literature
    • cinema and cultural memory: "new cinema" in hong kong, taiwan, and china
      • w 12:30-3:20
  • music