• may 19th:
  • work called that i can stay home because there is nothing to do, GREAT WEATHER YEAHHH!!
  • then i spend the whole day reading city of ashes and read +300 pages wohhh
  • also SKJHFSKDNDSCVJFHOIDFEJFSV
• may 18th:
  • such a great evening in dudorf :3
• may 17th:
  • LOVE LUST FATIH + DREAMS
  • wow, the grey's season finale was.. woooahhh!!! epic, i cried almost throughout the whole episode!
  • fuck, the vampire diaries finale was epic too, i can't eveeen
• may 16th:

you know, there are books that you put immediately on your wishlist on goodreads or amazon. there are others you don't put there because they are whole series or just don't feel so urgent. here i want to list all of them.

• a song of ice and fire by george r.r. martin
• ✔ an abundance of katherines by john green
• caster chronicles by kami garcia
• eat, pray, love by elizabeth gilbert
• edelstein trilogie by kerstin gier
• eragon tetralogy by christopher paolini (1/4)
• everything is illuminated by jonathan safran foer
• ✔ extremely loud and incredibly close by jonathan safran foer
• ✔ graceling realm trilogy by kristin cashore
• his dark materials by philip pullman

• even though i've grown up with harry potter, read the books, saw the movies & it was a loong, long way together, i still believe i love lord of the rings more. even though i only saw the films. i'd probably trade two of the harry potter books to have two more books (&films) of lord of the rings.
• i often not just sing along to songs but find certain harmonies and sing those. not only because it is fun & sounds nice to me but also because i think it trains my musical hearing and the ability to find harmonies very fast.
• once my old deodorant is empty, i buy a new one, which is never used before, because i love it so much when i smell them a few months later and they remind of things that happened while i used them.
• i sometimes try some harry potter spells. my favourite one is accio .

i tend to obsess over things. i don't just like something and i especially don't like all things equally all the time. i will obsess over something i really like for a few days/weeks.. sometimes months. and then something else takes its place.

may:

• still reading
• tv shows

april:

• book tumblrs
• reading
• making booktube videos
• chrissss

march:

• hörbücher (kristin cashore - die beschenkte)
• books, bookshelves, comfortable things
• redecorating my room

everything i love. everything that is so beautiful that i feel like crying. and often do so.

• standing on a mountain, sun is shining and i can see nothing else than moountains
• memories of my vacation 2008
• live version of "shimmer" by fuel ♥
• meet & greets with sandy
• waterfalls
• thirty seconds to mars live
• seeing a musical that i've known for so long and always wanted to see
• moments with my dad
• pirates of the caribbean
• seeing serkan kaya on stage (& meeting serkan kaya)
• wicked (defying gravity)
• hinterm horizont
• ghost
• dancing and being as free as you want to be

• books (especially:)
  • the book thief by markus zusak
  • the fault in our stars by john green
  • catching fire by suzanne collins (it would probably be an abusive relationship..)
• music (most certainly these songs:)
  • shimmer by fuel
  • rose by anna tsuchiya
  • lament by balmorhea
  • r-evolve by 30 seconds to mars
• chocolate
• hamburg
• autumn
• pirates of the caribbean
• middle-earth
• rain

• i have an intact family, a roof over my head, enough to eat and enough pocket money to buy myself things i like
• even though my birth was very hard and the docotor said i would be paraplegic, i can live a normal life today and except for a hollow-back it did not cause anything else
• i sing in a band for more than five years now and we are well-known in our city
• my life is in my own hands - i can go where i want and do what i want
• it did not even really started yet. i am still going to school and this is only the beginning
• i realised i do not need a boyfriend or need to be in love to be happy
• at the end of my life i want to die happy, knowing that i have achieved everything that i wished for - and that is why i try to live my life to the fullest every da...

• gym membership (well sign up for it)
• an awesome everything looks good reflex camera
• rest of the nana manga
• all published sailor moon manga
• complete my harry potter books & movies collection
  • first book
  • second book
  • fifth book
  • ✔ 7.1 dvd
• the lord of the rings extended editions
  • the two towers
  • return of the king
• ✔ 'girly' winter shoes
• ✔ print photos
• ✔ pay my parents money back from berlin
• a new hair straightener
• a headset

i mean.. i probably won't get all these and i am also not willing to pay so much if i am not 1000% sure, so it always takes thousands of years for me to decide if i really want one. best reason to get a list, in addition to the folder with pictures i have on my computer.

• 30 seconds to mars (probably lyrics instead of one of the signs)
• hinterm horizont (i will so definitely do this if it goes on like this)
  • 'nachtigall'
  • 'mein ding' (which just is quite strange but i know what it means sooo)
• sailor moon
• "carpe diem"
• "hope" or something like this on my wrist
• jack sparrow - probably somewhere under my left breast
• some general music themed thingy

• "Just when you're looking for a way out, life finds a way back in." ('Greta')
• "Ein Tag ohne Lachen ist ein verlorener Tag." (Charlie Chaplin)
• "Nie wieder", sagt der Vestand. "Jederzeit", sagt die Sehnsucht.
• "Vielleicht ist es so, dass jeder Mensch nur einmal im Leben richtig glücklich ist. Einmal. Und dafür wird er dann hinterher bestraft. Das ganze Leben lang. Die Strafe ist, dass er diesen einen Moment nie vergessen kann. Ich glaube, am besten ist es, wenn du dich im richtigen Moment verabschiedest. Und zwar dann, wenn du am glücklichsten bist. Genau dann. Am höchsten Punkt." ('Was nützt die Liebe in Gedanken?')
• Die Zukunft, egal wie bedrohlich sie auch sein mag, kommt auch nur einen Tag nach dem anderen
• "Dreams come true. Without that possibili...

• sebastian!!
• "frufo"
• smell of dirt because i fell down hundred times
• flower A, flower B..
• open air pool
• wrestling with my brother
• mixing all the hairspray and perfumes etc from my mom
• super mario
• pacman
• amusement arcades in spain and that shooting and motorcycle game
• having the worst sunburn in cyprus ever
• eating macaroni in the kids club
• my day nanny having an apoplexia :(
• zoo, touching a snake and striking a monkey baby
• sorting leaves into different seizes and shapes
• the smell of our class room

• starlight express, bochum (2 times)
• we will rock you, köln
• könig der löwen, hamburg
• tanz der vampire, berlin
• la belle bizarre du moulin rouge, remscheid
• jesus christ superstar, essen
• evita, dortmund
• tarzan, hamburg
• elisabeth, düsseldorf
• jesus christ superstar, essen
• wicked, oberhausen
• sommernacht des musicals XII
• hairspray, köln
• jeckyll & hyde, hagen
• wicked, oberhausen
• vom geist der weihnacht, köln
• hinterm horizont, berlin (2 times)
• grease, düsseldorf
• thriller live, köln
• my fair lady, hagen

• snow
• autumn
• winter
• musicals
• music
• serkan kaya
• hinterm horizont
• wicked
• ghost
• hamburg
• sailor moon
• pirates (well, the fictional ones)
• candles
• christmas and the smell of it
• my photo wall
• the little mermaid (disney version)
• give someone a present
• get presents
• dyeing my hair
• 30 seconds to mars
• concerts

• blog
• write lyrics
• write a story
• listography
• doodle
• sing
• read/practice monologues
• do a collage
• or just design something, like my calendar
• take photographs
• make a video about it
• mind-map so that something great can come out from it
• arrange my room
• bake
• go to tumblr
• photoshop
• make a gifset

• public transport (especially when it's full)
• the weather in rome
• smacking
• humans
• my natural haircolor
• being under pressure
• school
• french
• untidiness
• not getting what i want
• being wrong
• lack of creativity
• loving someone you can't have
• having an awesome idea but not being able to transfer it
• headache
• cooking
• not having the cast you wanted in a musical
• being lost

• albus dumbledore (harry potter series)
• augustus waters (the fault in our stars)
• carlisle cullen (twilight series)
• finnick odair (the hunger games trilogy)
• fire (fire)
• haymitch abernathy (the hunger games trilogy)
• ian o'shea (the host)
• jace wayland (the mortal instruments)
• jamie fraser (outlander series)
• jane bennet (pride & prejudice)
• mr. bennet (pride & prejudice)
• peeta 'bread' mellark (the hunger games trilogy)
• severus snape (harry potter series)
• sirius black (harry potter series)

• usagi tsukino/mamoru chiba (sailor moon)
• usagi tsukino/seiya kou
• haruka tenoh/michiru kaioh
• nana osaki/ren honjo (nana)
• nana "hachi" komatsu/nobu tarashima
• rosette chrstopher/chrono (chrno crusade)
• amber/bray (the tribe)
• amber /jay
• severus snape/lily evans (harry potter)
• remus lupin/nymphadora tonks
• will turner/elizabeth swan (potc)
• jack sparrow/the sea/the black pearl (he loves no one else ok?)
• link/sheik (the legend of zelda)
• marshall eriksen/lily aldrin (himym)
• barney/whoever he is happy with
• elphaba/fiyero (wicked)
• meredith grey/derek sheperd (grey's anatomy)
• mark sloan/lexie grey

• so long that my dyed hair will fully grow ut
• and keep all my memories in a handwritten book rather than taking only photos
• and eat things without thinking about the calories
• ✔ and wear no jeans but only always comfortable trousers
• long enough to make some people forget about me
• and fall in love with a stranger
• and slowly learn about the traditions of the countries i'm in
• to be in peace with myself
• meet the reimanns in texas

• crêpe with nutella (& strawberries or banana)
• mccafé chocolate cake ♥
• mousse au chocolat
• strawberries
• pineapple
• rocket (especially with parmesan & serrano ham)
• raclette
• mum's sandwiches & baguettes
• kinderriegel ♥
• ferrero rondnoir
• cookie, cake etc. dough
• pizzabrötchen (especially filled with cheese and ham, you might call these pizza rolls in english)
• cellar cake
• mc donalds cheeseburger (especially after a party or late at night)

• pirates of the caribbean trilogy by hans zimmer
• lord of the rings trilogy by howard shore
• the holiday by hans zimmer
• le fabuleux destin d’amélie poulain by yann tiersen
• pride & prejudice by jean-yves thibaudet
• ratatouille by michael giacchino

because i miss too much coming up in the cinema.

• ✔ breaking dawn part 2
• ✔ skyfall
• ✔ anna karenina
• ✔ the hobbit
• wreck it ralph missed
• ✔ silver linings playbook
• django unchained (i won't manage to see it.. probs)
• ✔ les misérables
• the great gatsby
• city of bones - the mortal instruments
• the hunger games - catching fire

i might go to london this year, if i don't start studying in april and so i plan on seeing a few musicals. and i tend to forget things soooo here's a list of potential things to see..

• billy elliot
• book of mormon
• charlie and the chocolate factory
• les miserables
• mamma mia! (if i can't see it in germany)
• matilda the musical
• once
• phantom of the opera
• rock of ages
• singin' in the rain
• viva forever
• wicked

well all of these songs could be done, which doesn't mean that i want do to them. this will just be my big repetoire of everything which i want to give the 'jury' or whatever you call those people. the bold ones are ones i'd love to do. this list will probably change a lot with time.

• gutes tun - wicked
• das einzige, was richtig ist - marie antoinette
• i will prevail - wonderland
• nothing stops another day - ghost
• with you - ghost
• ich bin es nicht - wicked (need sheet music)
• hilf den verstoß'nen - glöckner von notre dame
• lass mich dich nicht lieben - dracula
• wo ist der sommer? - 3 musketiere
• good morning balitmore - hairspray
• wahrheit - aida
• so einfach, so schwer - aida (need sheet ...