• pay the cable bill
• figure recycling
• clean my room
• do laundry/get my laundry from downstairs
• rake leaves
• figure what to do with leaves
• finish creative nonfiction

• finish short story by this saturday (to have edited and e-mailed by june 3rd with bio)
• eat all vegan for two weeks (technically 13 days at this point)
• go to the beach a few times before i leave

• Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison
• First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes
• Dream A Little Dream of Me - Robinella
• Because the Night - Patti Smith
• Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine

• realistically, regardless of how i do now, i'm still capable of doing well with my life
• i am smart and capable, i really am
• i am so loved by some pretty wonderful people
• the world is a complex, at times scary place, but it is not against me
• a grade is a grade is a grade is a grade; it does not signify who i am as a person or what i am capable of achieving in the future
• the world is impermanent, everything fades, nothing can hurt me
• being a good person, a kind person, a self-less person is far more important in the long run then being the smartest, most attractive person

• i absolutely hate ding dong bang bang after midnight
• that the creepy, extremely attractive cancer-ridden brother needs to be pale and take his shirt off more often
• i sometimes dress like bedward volvo and frankly, that's a life choice
• i like to drink my mud coffee out of the smiley face mug
• fugiama is my refuge sunday through thursday
• coke is a joke, regardless of what anyone else says
• when i say i'm angry, typically, i'm angry
• anything sung to the tune of 'disturbia' is amplified in awesome-ness like 100%
• awesome is a legitimate response to such questions as, 'what are you doing?'
• 516 is state of mind...a very small, very messy, state of mind

• ecote huarache sandals in burgundy (urban outfitters)
• despi racerback one piece (urban outfitters)
• deux lux traveler knap sack in dark brown (urban outfitters)
• prima donna high heels (mod cloth)
• blue topaz flats (mod cloth)
• one in vermilion clutch (mod cloth)
• xena staight leg jean in fluid wash (guess)

• have my dad compliment me on album I've brought into his life
• be acknowledged as a bad ass (once in my life) by someone who has a clue
• be THAT girl

• learn more about how hospitals are trained to respond to the birth of intersexuals
• learn more about what is being done to advocate the rights of intersexuals & transexuals
• continue supporting the rights of homosexuals
• stop using so much hairspray
• stop buying bottled water (remember to carry around my water bottle)
• ecuhmenical movement
• stop using plastic and paper bags at the grocery store
• turn on fewer lights when at home
• be nicer to the people i come in contact with everyday
• be kind, helpful, and extra patient with the elderly and children
• do more for the March of Dimes
• do more to advocate college and higher ed...

• Les Miserables – Victor Hugo
• Beloved – Toni Morrison
• Jazz – Toni Morrison
• The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald
• The Catcher in the Rye – J. D. Salinger
• Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
• Slaughterhouse 5 – Kurt Vonnegut
• To Kill A Mockingbird- Harper Lee
• Lord of the Flies – William Golding
• Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
• Dracula – Bram Stoker
• Fahrenheit 451 – Ray Bradbury
• The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood
• Brave New World – Aldous Huxley
• Metamorphosis – Franz Kafka
• A Prayer for Owen Meany – John Irving
• Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
• The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini

• my iPod, I dropped it while running on the treadmill at the Y and then it flew away onto the ground (my dad got me the warranty so i got a new iPod for free)
• my phone, it was eaten by my printer (my dad just fixed this)
• my printer, it tried to eat my phone (dan fixed this)
• my internet, 516 has basic internet problems its a requirement for living there (i don't know how this was fixed, jackie probably helped me out)
• the side of my mom's old car, the church parking lot is a terrible, terrible place for cars (this was never fixed, just ask my brother, this is now his car)
• 516's microwave, do not try to pop pop corn kernels in tupperware for more then 3 minutes (this was promptly fixed)
• my dad's microwave, do not forget to select timer and not cook when trying to coun...

• Angels - Within Temptation
• Smells like Teen Spirit - Tori Amos
• To Be Alone with You - Sufjan Stevens
• Opening Theme - Sweeney Todd Soundtrack
• Hanging By a Thread - Nickel Creek
• I Try - Macy Gray
• La Monture - Notre Dame de Paris

- Or: What I've Learned are the Essentials -

• a semi-formal outfit that can be made formal when heels are added
• make up bag
• hair pins, hair spray
• pair of jeans and a presentable top
• pair of sweats
• two pairs of underwear, two bras
• one pair of socks
• flats, heels, tennis shoes
• shampoo, toothpaste, tooth brush, deodorant, comb
• picture ID, passport
• 3 granola bars
• ipod, cell phone
• notebook, pen (have emergency numbers and addresses in notebook before departure)
• emergency cash hidden somewhere intimate on your person

-it has been my experience that these are...

-eyes-

• studio gear invincible eye cream in "earth"
• color workshop shimmer powder in gold
• jasmine la belle 100 color eyeshadow palette in dark gold, light gold, and pastel yellow
• prestige cosmetics liquid eyeliner in black/brown
• maybelline colossal volum' express

applied with...

• slanted shader/liner brush from ulta
• standard eyeshadow brush

-face-

• jane foundation in 01 ivory
• bare minderals spf 15 sunscreen fairly light (pigment)
• loreal blushess in mauvelous mauve
• studio gear twinkle, shimmer, & glow 2008...

• Pierre Babbitt
• Joe Reed
• Chris Gasper
• Griffin Bonnema
• Matt Underhill

• Converse All Stars
• Christian Louboutin
• Dolce Vita
• Marc Jacob
• Jimmy Choo
• Chinese Laundry
• Kenneth Cole Reaction
• Bobbi Blu

• run to mom's & grab clothes
• donate to TAL
• short story
• other homework
• father's day gift

• Christian Louboutin (seriously sir, please let me have your children...or at least your shoes...)
• Yves Saint Laurent (beautiful shoes (though Louboutin will always be my first love), beautiful clothes, and wonderful perfume)
• Gucci (I have a handbag and it's made of such supple leather!)
• Chanel (because honestly, who doesn't love Chanel? The definition of class!)
• Dior (lovely shoes and handbags)
• Hermes (Gah! A woman wearing a scarf by Hermes, black pumps by Louboutin, and a blouse skirt combo by YSL! I want to be THAT woman!)
• Vera Wang (Okay, could I be married in a Vera Wang dress? Ahhh!)

• i'm unattractive
• i'm fat
• i'm boring
• i'm dumb/ not as smart as others
• i'm not good enough for other people
• i'm horribly awkward
• i can't hold a conversation with people
• i can't make new friends
• i'm not funny
• i will always be single
• i don't deserve a significant other/ i won't ever be able to get a significant other
• i turn people off with my conversation

DAY 1

• my dad's jeep
• that huge plaster hanging sculpture my mom has
• those stuffed ducks of doug's
• the dressing screen my dad has
• my dad's book and CD collection
• the awesome trunk of my dad's

• boston road trip with liz
• that one thing...oh you know
• grad school
• the summer of the hippy

• "Everyone knows fucking pikachu." - Jackie
• "This guy killed two...oh wait, it's a woman." - Jackie
• "I hope people send me mean e-mails." - Jackie
• "Can I have some honey for this bitch?" - Jackie
• "Sporks, what it is? A spoon or a fork? But whatever it is, it bites." - Jackie
• "Dad made me into this vampire thing, now he's telling me I can't do it. What the fuck Mom?" - Jackie
• "Edward, stop you're killing her. Edward, stop. EDWARD! Damn it! I have to do everything myself! You are so grounded!" - Me.

• ugg boots
• starbucks
• north face jackets
• vera bradley anything
• clothing from A & F
• tanning
• convertible cars
• E! and the E! network
• adam sandler in comedic roles
• the twilight books
• edward cullen
• spring awakening
• hairspray
• dane cook (he was funny once, i'll even admit to owning his cds, but that ship has sailed)

- in theaters -

• doubt (+ + + +)
• the reader (+ + + +)
• valkyrie (+ +)
• defiance (+ + +)
• twilight (+)
• revolutionary road (+ +)
• rachel getting married (+ + + +)

• anything math related
• topics to do with the army, navy, marines
• sports
• cars
• sciences other than basic anatomy and earth science
• jazz music
• literature of both pre & post Soviet Russia
• slang
• males

• ULYSSES by James Joyce
• ✔ 2. THE GREAT GATSBY by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  • A PORTRAIT OF THE ARTIST AS A YOUNG MAN by James Joyce
  • LOLITA by Vladimir Nabokov
• ✔ 5. BRAVE NEW WORLD by Aldous Huxley
  • THE SOUND AND THE FURY by William Faulkner
  • CATCH-22
  • DARKNESS AT NOON by Arthur Koestler
  • SONS AND LOVERS by D.H. Lawrence
• ✔ 10. THE GRAPES OF WRATH by John Steinbeck
  • UNDER THE VOLCANO by Malcolm Lowry
  • THE WAY OF ALL FLESH by Samuel Butler
  • 1984 by George Orwell

• i hate wearing socks
• i'm an english nerd
• i have an ugly scar on my left leg that the unknowing often mistake for a bruise
• i have a scar on my right pointer finger
• i can't spell to save my life
• i'm horrible with grammar
• i don't like chat speak, and if it weren't for the aesthetic appeal of typing in all lowercase, this whole incomplete lowercase listography nonsense would drive me crazy
• i was named after the capital of WI, where my parents meet
• i have a younger brother
• my cat fluffs and i have a love/hate relationship
• i believe in the power of high heels
• i wish everyone dressed in haute couture
• david sedaris and ira glass are my idols, i would do anything to work for either o...

• spiritual
• respectful
• intelligent
• funny
• outgoing, likes to try new things
• spontaneous
• can put up with musicals
• can put up with long, pointless -insert day of the week here- drives
• doesn't mind getting dressed up occasionally
• enjoys movie, plays, books that are thought provoking
• is so passionate about something in their life

- these days being: winter semester 2009 -

• sleeping (this various from slouthful amounts of sleep, to like 4-3 hrs nightly, depending)
• class
• homework, studying, studying, studying, homework
• writing and writing contests
• working (yay tours!)
• listography...
• adventures to such exotic locations as Notre Dame, Chicago, Grand Rapids, Ann Arbor, Kalamazoo, and eventually Boston
• saving money (yay money!)
• scheduling every moment of my life and attempting to follow said schedule
• sleeping on couches
• Facebook
• feeding Paavo and otherwise loving him
• eating chocolate (which I should stop)

-USA-

• California (Yosemite National Park)
• Connecticut (Hartford, Cheshire)
• Florida (Tampa, Orlando, Miami, Key West, Key Largo)
• Georgia (Atlanta)
• Illinois (Chicago, Evanston, Lake Forest)
• Indiana (South Bend)
• Iowa (Iowa City)
• Kentucky (some places next to an Old Country Buffet, where we ate that morning)
• Massachusetts (Boston, Salem, Cape Cod)
• Michigan (Grand Rapids, Owosso, Kalamazoo, Dearborn, Flint, Norton Shores, Muskegon, Grand Haven, Traverse City, Mackinac Island, Bad Axe, Saginaw, Lansing, random UP, etc…)
• Nevada (Reno, briefly)
• New Jersey (Trenton)
• New York (Manhattan, Brooklyn, Buffalo, L...

• My dog Mo, got hit by a car & died
• Grandma Ruth died
• My brother started crying at my Grandpa Ron's funeral
• Worrying about Lash last year
• Christmas party 2008

• Keys
• Cell phone
• Sunglasses
• Winter gloves
• Tennis shoes
• WMU ID

• buy a phone card
• buy an alarm clock

• Like A Virgin - Madonna
• Naughty Girl - Beyonce
• Cheatin' Heart - Patsy Cline
• I F***ing Hate You - Godsmack
• Sexual Healing - Marvin Gaye
• The Bitch Went Nuts - Ben Folds

• PASSPORT PICTURE (!!!)
• PASSPORT COPY (!!!)
• TRANSCRIPT (!!!)
• STUDY PHIL (TUES) (!!!!)
• STUDY AM. LIT. (WED) (!!!!)
• WRITE REL. 1000 (WED) (!!!!)
• have a dance party to relieve some of this stress....what? (this will probably happen when i'm by myself...)

• Art Institute of Chicago (art museum)
• Museum of Science and Industry
• Field Museum
• Grand Rapids Public Museum
• Ford Museum
• Jello Museum (LeRoy NY)
• Salem Witchtrial Museum (Salem, MA)
• Museum of Modern Art (Chicago)
• Grand Rapids Art Museum
• Grand Rapids Children's Museum
• Children's Museum of Chicago

• lauren ash (two weeks in the south of france, how bohemian of us)
• jackie goodlock (best roommate ever <3)
• kristan phillips (shared a bed room for a year)

• Thurs. March 12th, Frostic Reading @ Little Theater @ 8 pm. (FREE!)
• ✔ Fri. March 13th, film "Rachel Getting Married," @ Little Theater @ 7 pm ($3 w/ student id) (And it was awesome!!! despite the older women behind us... "Golly! Oh Golly!")
• ✔ Tues. March 24th, Frostic Reading @ Little Theater @ 8 pm. (FREE!)

• the amtrak train experience with liz
  • "i'm scared. please tell me this isn't our stop."
• the starbucks guy forgetting my chai, then messing up my order and giving me a size larger than i had paid for
• not noticing the bookstore we were in was in fact a Catholic bookstore until we stupidly asked a sister if they sold notebooks
• forever 21, with five pairs of jeans, "they're like a drug to me. my own, personal brand of heroin."
• louboutin shoes (!!!)
• the cop at dinner
• attractive ryan and steve
• the cab driver after dinner
• getting totally lost on wabash
• visiting ann arbor buddies

• ATLAS SHRUGGED by Ayn Rand
• THE FOUNTAINHEAD by Ayn Rand
• BATTLEFIELD EARTH by L. Ron Hubbard
• THE LORD OF THE RINGS by J.R.R. Tolkien
• ✔ 5. TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD by Harper Lee
  • 1984 by George Orwell
  • ANTHEM by Ayn Rand
  • WE THE LIVING by Ayn Rand
  • MISSION EARTH by L. Ron Hubbard
  • FEAR by L. Ron Hubbard
  • ULYSSES by James Joyce
  • CATCH-22 by Joseph Heller
• ✔ 13. THE GREAT GATSBY by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  • DUNE by Frank Herbert
  • THE MOON IS A HARSH MISTRESS by Robert Heinlein
  • STRANGER IN A STRANGE LAND by Robert Hein...

• emergency exit (childhood, early preteen years)
• silver jeans (early high school)
• GAP jeans (junior year)
• forever 21 jeans (senior year 'til present)
• GUESS jeans (presently)

• Les Miserables
• The Phantom of the Opera
• RENT
• Notre Dame de Paris
• Sweeney Todd
• Legally Blonde: The Musical
• Wicked
• The Producers
• Little Shop of Horrors
• My Favourite Year
• Avenue Q
• Into the Woods
• Jesus Christ Super Star

• forgetting my wallet, keys, or ID
• getting back homework with a lot of corrections on it
• getting a bad grade on a quiz, test, homework assignment, or paper
• when people don't call when they said they would
• getting splashed by passing cars
• walking home in the cold and rain
• having all of my stuff fall all over the place when I'm trying to get from class to class

• my short story workshop went better than i thought it would
• my tours went better than I thought they would
• i did really well on my philosophy test
• it's my birthday this weekend (02/22)
• i'm going to get to see Joe this weekend
• i got to see Liz over Valentine's
• rediscovered my love of roller blading
• less than two weeks until spring break
• i got a package in the mail this month
• i bought new shoes, two sweaters, and blouse (all of which was on sale)
• i got to dress up for ALD (02/15)
• my grandma sent me a check in the mail
• ashley and jackie bought me a doughnut (02/16)
• i've finally got my week organized and am caught up after several weeks of being behind
• the snow is melting

• This American Life
• All Things Considered
• Piano Jazz
• Wait, Wait, Don't Tell Me!

(In no particular order)

• My mom, she basically heads the Madison Edwards' crisis center & is absolutely hilarious too.
• My dad, he's funny, he's smart, & he never lets me feel sorry for myself because he knows (even when I don't) that I'm better than that.
• Liz!!! I die without you. Enough said.
• The Grounder, aka Krystal. She never complains when I'm being self-indulgent, always lets me hang out in her room, talks with me about issues great & small, and is basically one of the coolest people I know.
• My wonderful roommate (the best roommate ever) Jackie. I love her SO much. She's funny, she's considerate, she doesn't yell at me when I leave my things all over the place, she listens to my pointless stories, and she never lets me whine. I could...