• I think i might compile my drawings and writings into a little book someday
• I am going to narrate the high days and display them in writing
• It's a ritual
• I hate that anything i write really isnt private, and I dont mean this website but anything on paper, there is always the feeling someone will go wandering away and find it, happend to me just recently actually..
• I hate to think about him because of ...

• I love to be obnoxiously loud when I laugh, especially if it scares people.
• I tell a dozen people a day everyday "I love you"
• It's hard for me to let go of things/people
• right now in my life I want to draw not paint
• I do not want to be mean to people

1. I am always thinking
2. I worry a lot
3. sometimes I think that everyone is insane for not missing my grandmother as much as I do
4. love, my love was a lie
5. I say things I don't mean ...kind things
6. I bite my nails
7. I bite my lip a lot
8. I hate that everything is a sexual indeundo
9. I want that boy in my bed
10. I want to stay a virgin forever
11. I've considered being a nun
12. I have learned
13. I have learned from my past relationship
14. I ...

1. no parental recognition for good grades, sad but true
2. the crappy week of summer
3. not enjoying my summer at all because I'm a buttface
4. not wanting to paint but dying to do it
5. drawing then getting really fucking frustrated
6. not talking to my brother at all
7. the war on iraq
8. women who deny their culture and heritage
9. stupid girls that are weedy greedy
10. girls dressed up like they are going to the club but are in you...

1. I want to drive a really bad ass corvette
2. I saw the Phenomenauts tonight they were fun and creative
3. Not as awesome as Flametrick Subs though
4. I completely embarassed myself infront of that little boy
5. I think the door boy is way to fuckin cute
6. I actually start to blush, it's bad
7. I've seen D.A. more times than anyother local band in Corpitos
8. Oh I smile a lot when I actually get a chance to think

1. He can dance
2. dirty dancing- enough said
3. He looks like he's posing for a vd ad
4. his hair is kickin ass
5. If someone told him to dance he'd jump up so fast and shake that booty
6. His shirt suggests that perhaps we caught him in the middle of a workout
7. Is he wearing shoes, I dont know either?
8. Look at this rippling muscles...what an inspiration
9. The Greeks would have sculpted patrick 20 times and set his marble scu...

1. I made an A on my Art history test that I naturally thought I would fail
2. I am studying hard and working hard
3. I'm actually doing my homework and hey, guess what? It's paying off
4. I'm rediscovered a pretty black skirt
5. I'm looking forward for the fall, I CAN DO IT DAMNIT!
6. I MADE THE DEANS LIST!

1. gyspy dance was especially good
2. notes in sequence to produce lovely sound
3. her dedication or persistence i should say
4. she is good...i swear

1. waiting around for her to clean her room
2. looking at random shit on myspace
3. singing along to lovely feathers really loud with my buddy
4. being productive together, i do homework and you clean
5. telling me i cant do anything till i finish my studies
6. roadrunner at her house so I dont have to worry about them missing a highly important phonecall
7. room decorations and knowing the story behind some stuff
8. random pic...

1. cheers to random nights
2. hooray for exclusive art displays
3. boo to friends that leave early and dont stick it out!
4. boo to mean boys
5. yay to friends that drive far away to see you
6. yay for parental freedom
7. oh shit for stupid boys that hang around
8. hooray for good friends that share with you
9. cheers for love in random places around the city

1. Rocky..ohh yeah!
2. Augie Garcia- boo hoo
3. Guy I met in Austin -yeahhhh
4. Nathaniel Perrin- my lil cowboy
5. Sacha Winkler- fucking lame
6. Jon Fair- nice records!
7. Tony Steiffel -damn his cynical humor
8. that one guy i saw on campus...thats all of that

1. fuck him
2. fuck him
3. fuck him
4. I hate that he has this fucked up way of getting on my nerves
5. when i start to feel better he just decides to not care and step on it all with his fucking fat foot
6. I cant figure out how to just rid him of my life
7. I WANT TO!
8. I want to just not care, genuinely NOT CARE
9. i cry, i really sadly enough cry and its fucking stupid, i hate to cry
10. i hate knowing he has an effect on me
11. i shoul...

1. friends arent really that reliable sometimes
2. some people who shall remain nameless use me for attention
3. some people who shall remain nameless SUCK

1. I got to wake up late (and re-enact #17), lay around listening to lovely feathers and not-thinking/thinking at the same time
2. immediatelt showered off the negativity of the night before
3. I danced around and sang loud in the bathroom
4. my parents weren't here so i got to lounge around in my little mexican dress that I so dearly love and didnt have to worry about under garments
5. I ordered Capote on T.V and i...

1. morrissey-moon river
2. morrissey-jack the ripper
3. metric-too little too late
4. metric- hustle rose
5. gisella numba one- the swedish

1. morning or midnight runs, when you just feel infamous and your feet fly
2. sing loudly in the shower, cleaning, doing dishes, everywhere and anywhere, i'm surprised i havent been caught
3. read the bible
4. reorganize my room
5. just plain clean to good music
6. dance, dance, dance...i just want to dance
7. check the mail
8. write
9. read anything political from the present or past
10. dancing around in the bathroom after a shower,wi...

1. Preface:

So while wandering around Half Price for a new summer read I asked this guy what book he really enjoyed, I love option and opinions. So he starts to go off about all these authors I had never heard of and I was hooked then I realized ...I want a guy like that...and guy completely different from the one I'm focusing on now. I want:

1. a philosopher
2. a reader
3. a thinker
4. a true lover
5. a romantic
6. an artis...

1. Living on my own and missing my family
2. Not knowing where anything is
3. Discovering cool places to eat
4. Making new friends with new views
5. Being introduced to so many more bands
6. Finding a great guy to share some time with and have a good conversation
7. Finding a new church
8. Creating a chill spot for myself
9. Going to the top of the tallest building so i can see the whole city
10. driving hours and hours home and thinkin...

1. I deserve better
2. It will never work out because we will always fuck it up
3. Things will always end up the same unless I change and I dont see why I should have to change for someone else.

1. His hair is exceptionally long
2. He pisses me off
3. He likes to look at lizard magazines during leisure time
4. Willing to spend more on his animals than his girlfriend
5. Constant complaining
6. Somewhat detached lost feelings that the black hole around me ate up
7. Consistent Drinking
8. School starting in the fall
9. I shouldn't focus on anyone but me right now
10. Time consuming
11. Beware of jealousy, my lord, the green-eyed monste...

1. the squinting eyes
2. the confused state of mind
3. eyelash motion
4. moving the head
5. parking the car
6. putting the key in the door
7. quiet when you walk
8. try not to be weird
9. dont talk
10. dont make noise
11. just go upstairs
12. stare at that picture
13. tear einstein off the wall
14. hear noise
15. hear the lovely feathers

1. Art History I
2. Drawing II
3. Work on digital media in lab
4. Email Mr.C about using lab
5. Run in the mornings or evening-decide
6. No more cokes
7. Finish or start a painting
8. Look for a job
9. Start look for hair style to trim
10. Blue hair again? perhaps
11. Call Courtina on Birthday!
12. Clean out car weekly-fucking rain
13. Slowly start acquiring more clothes
14. I want my bridge again, order jewelry
15. Reorganize room
16. Find and devote a session to a...

1. cramps today
2. pain in my tummy today
3. eyes feel tiny
4. legs feel sore
5. messy hair
6. glasses that slip off nose
7. wasted feeling
8. hunger strikes
9. restless force
10. forgotten task for the day
11. thoughts of sleep
12. homework

1. seeing sacha
2. seeing tess
3. seeing veronica
4. seeing ricki's ex-b/f
5. seeing the evil mail man
6. talking to Sam
7. Leah
8. seeing selena