♡ favourites | ✶ recent additions | ⚠ sensitive content

𝔦. — general

• animals awarded human credentials
• common misconceptions ♡
• cosmic latte
• headfooters
• hedgehog's dilemma
• i can eat glass
• inflatable rat
• lonely hearts killer
• love lock
• menthol cigarettes
• pantone 448 c
• plants with symbolism ♡
• rat king
• uk special forces selection
• unusual bio / chemical names
• wolf collar

𝔦𝔦. — history & events

the place where he inserted the blade, black country, new road — or praise the lord, burn my house / i get lost, i freak out / you come home and hold me tight / as if it never happened at all / where is your light? am i home? / i will try not to keep you too long

glutton for punishment, heartworms — i'm so shy, it pains me to ask you to save me too

dumb, nirvana — i'm not like them, but i can pretend. the sun is gone, but i have a light. i think i'm dumb, or maybe just happy

introvert, brakence — whenever i approach you, i'm always getting close to saying it out loud. so take out all the o2, the autumn wind will blow through, you'll never find out. he said, curse that fallen angel, one mistake after another, i forgot - i do not want you save me.

jesus christ, brand new — jesus christ, that's a pretty face / the kind you'd find on someone that could save / jesus christ, i'm not scared to die / i'm a little bit scared of what comes after / i know you're coming in the night like a thief / but i've had some time alone to hone my lying technique

✶ current | ✧ audiobook | ♡ favourite

𝔦. — partially read

• man's search for meaning — viktor frankl
• killers of the flower moon — david grann ✶
• crime and punishment — fyodor dostoevsky ⏸
• a tremor of bliss: contemporary writers on the saints
• figure drawing: design and invention — michael hampton

𝔦𝔦. — finished reading

• the portable nietzsche — kaufmann (trans. ed.) ⭑ jan
• indigenous justice — ed. shyba & yakeleya ⭑ jan
• the metamorphosis — franz kafka ⭑ feb ✧
• the picture of dorian gray — oscar wilde ⭑ mar

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — to read

• in cold blood — truman capote
• white fang / call of the wild — jack london
• the brothers karamazov — fyodor dostoevsky
• the idiot — fyodor dostoevsky

• albums ⭑ in rainbows ⋅ around the fur
• animals ⭑ deer ⋅ bleeding heart dove
• anime ⭑ death note ⋅ jujutsu kaisen
• bands ⭑ deftones ⋅ pinegrove ⋅ radiohead
• candy ⭑ sea salt dark chocolate
• colours ⭑ black ⋅ army green ⋅ red
• composers ⭑ rachmaninoff ⋅ tchaikovsky
• disciplines ⭑ philosophy ⋅ art ⋅ literature ⋅ law
• drinks ⭑ earl grey tea ⋅ iced tea
• f1 drivers ⭑ leclerc ⋅ verstappen
• films ⭑ whiplash ⋅ amadeus ⋅ there will be blood
• fruits ⭑ mandarin oranges ⋅ sultana grapes
• insect ⭑ moth ⋅ dragonfly
• instruments ⭑ electric guitar ⋅ violin
• mario kart character ⭑ black shy guy
• movie genres ⭑ psychological thriller
• music genres ⭑ indie rock ⋅ rap ⋅ nu metal
• smells ⭑ lavender ⋅ wood smoke

♡ favourite | ✶ to finish | ✓ finished

𝔦. — playing

• dead by daylight ♡ w/ friends
  • killer main: sadako, spirit
  • surv main: cheryl, ace
• f1 25
  • career mode
• baldur's gate 3 ♡ ✓
  • campaign w/ classmates
• red dead redemption 2 ♡ ✶

𝔦𝔦. — to play

• cult of the lamb ✶
• deadlock
• dishonored
• divinity: original sin 2 ✶
• fallout: new vegas ✶

• around the fur — deftones
• in rainbows — radiohead
• mezzanine — massive attack
• preacher's daughter — ethel cain
• to pimp a butterfly — kendrick lamar
• iowa — slipknot
• quest for fire — skrillex
• twin fantasy — car seat headrest
• everybody is going to heaven — citizen
• nurture — porter robinson
• bronco — orville peck

✧ — if you ever decide to age, love, invite me. i'll retire my bones to make you tea and read you poetry.

• besides, other people's heads are a wretched place to be the home of a man's true happiness. ― arthur schopenhauer
• your loneliness is precious to you, i know. does it disturb you to know you are dear to me? do not let it. it is such a quiet feeling. it is like the light coming into a room, the moonlight ― katherine mansfield
• there is a luxury in self-reproach. it is the confession, not the priest, that gives us absolution. ― oscar wilde
• i have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, yet, somehow, i am in love with life. ― voltaire
• to be alive: not just the carcass, but the spark. that's crudely put, but if we're not supposed to dance, why all this music? ― gregory orr

✶ new | ♡ loved | ̶d̶n̶f̶

• perverts — ethel cain ♡ ✶
• hurry up tomorrow — the weeknd ✧
• glutton for punishment — heartworms ♡ ✶
• illmatic — nas
• the devil and god are raging inside me — brand new
• at folsom prison — johnny cash ⠀♡
• i am music — playboi carti ✶
• mezzanine — massive attack ⠀♡♡♡
• love deluxe — sade
• tsunami sea — spiritbox ✶
• f*ck u skrillex... — skrillex ✶
• ste the beautiful martyr — bladee ✶
• dead channel sky — clipping. ✶

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