• reading 📖 ↴
  • fairies
    • by yoshitaka amano
  • the oxford book of modern fairy tales
    • edited by alison lurie
  • the provensen book of fairy tales
    • by alice provensen
• sigh 😐 ↴
  • got myself into an argument & now can't continue reading the above texts without feeling despondent about the inherent white supremacy of most of the genre
  • my teeth are still clenching from anxiety & spirals of rumination after that altercation. got asked about my race as if my opinions must subscribe accordingly to wh...❧

[ ❝ Innocence, on the Bicycle of Propriety, carrying the Urn of Reputation safely over the Abyss of Indiscretion ❞

• Edward Gorey · The Broken Spoke ]

[ ❝ In the 'The Bell Jar,' Plath profounds her enumerated existential parthenogenesis using subvertible intra-mural insight on the dissimulation of her classic bummer of the 20th century. ❞

• Lynda Barry · One! Hundred! Demons! ]

[ ❝ One time, as an excuse for undressing, Zelda pouted, ‘Oh dear, my slip is showing!’ ‘You mean you're show is slipping, don't you, darling?’ barked Tallulah. ❞

• Anita Loos · "Cocktail Parties of the Twenties" · Fate Keeps On Happening ]

[ ❝ Sometimes I think the best you can ever feel in a photo shoot is like a sexy clown... ❞

[ books ] ❧ [ ❝There is only one way to read, which is to browse in libraries and bookshops, picking up books that attract you, reading only those, dropping them when they bore you, skipping the parts that drag—and never, never reading anything because you feel you ought, or because it is part of a trend or a movement. Remember that the book which bores you when you are twenty or thirty will open doors for you when you are forty or fifty—and vice versa. Don’t read a book out of its right time for you.❞

• —from Doris Lessing's
  • The Golden Notebook ]

[ dialectic ] ❧ [ ❝You are not dead, although you were dead. The girl who died. And was resurrected. Children. Witches. Magic. Symbols. Remember the illogic of the fantasy. The strange tableau in the closet behin...

black or white? clouds or stars ? comedy or horror ? day or night? dusk or dawn? sun or moon? sunrise or sunset? early bird or night owl ? daisies or buttercups ? doc martens or converse ? sweater or hoodie? dresses or skirts ? leather or lace ? silk or velvet ? lip balm or lip gloss? lip gloss or lipstick ? dogs or cats? forest or ocean? mountain or beach ? history or geography? mythology or astrology? hugs or kisses? library or bookstore? paperback or hardcover? pastels or warm colors? pens or pencils? strawberries or blueberries ? raspberries or blackberries? lemon or lime ? lemonade or iced tea ? hot chocolate or coffee? roller coaster or ferris wheel ? sweet or salty? the smell after rain or the smell of old books ? tv series or movies ? werewolf or vampire ? witch or mermaid?

　i'm nobody! ㅤ ㅤ꧁꧂

• Who are you?
• Are you nobody, too?
• Then there's a pair of us
  • — don't tell!
• They'd banish us, you know.
  • ⸻ ❀
• How dreary to be somebody!
• How public, like a frog
• To tell your name the livelong day
• To an admiring bog!
  • —Emily Dickinson

　 hello. i

• took the name of a special pair of scissors for cutting warm striped berlingot candy before they cool into shape.
• don't really believe in astrology, but damn if i'm an aries!

• accessory × chandelier earrings
• actress × louise brooks
• animated film ⏵ la joie de vivre
• author × angela carter
• bird × hummingbird
• book × from the beast to the blonde
• butterfly × greta oto (glasswing)
• city i've been to × boston
• clothing × cashmere cardigan
• coffee × mocha
• color × burgundy × teal mint
• constellation × lepus
• decade × 1920s
• dessert × baklava
• director × guy maddin
• fairytale × fitcher’s bird
• film ⏵ pandora's box
• fish × koi × fantail goldfish
• flower × fuchsia × orchid × poppy/anemone
• gemstone × rainbow hematite × blue lace agate
• graphic novel × amphigorey series

2023/08/07

• In a dark tunnel through a large accordion pop-up book, an angular yellow butterfly stopped in its flight, forming a flat yellow square that floated in mid-air. The ghost of my former pet rabbit reincarnated into a light blue paper cut-out of a hummingbird poking its beak through the yellow square & it froze in that position. I ran off to tell my sister about this phenomenon, but when we came back to the tunnel the hummingbird was gone. We tried looking for it to no avail.

2023/05/17

• The Malleus Maleficarum caused the persecution of Catholic saints in this dream, casting medieval nymphs & dryads into trials on a giant chessboard where they faced unfair judgment by playing-card kings that looked like the King of Hearts from Alice in Wonderland.

in my cosmetic bag

• living libations
  • chocolate mocha
    • melts too easily
• moon valley organics
  • sweet honey ♡

on my vanity table

• burt's bees
  • sweet orange
• essence
  • fruit kiss in lime
• moon valley organics
  • velvety vanilla

wrapped chewy caramel

• prada
  • candy eau de parfum
• demeter fragrance library
  • caramel cologne

chocolate cookie crunch with peppermint cream

• it's skin
  • mint chip cookie & hand cream
    • discontinued

sweet mulled apple cider

• ogx
  • sparkling cider shampoo & conditioner

lovely

• 1949 · puce moment ⏵ glitter & fringe
• 1978 · watership down ⏵ bright eyes
• 1994 · pulp fiction ⏵ twist
• 2010 · dancing dreams · tanzträume ⏵ cute rehearsal
• 2016 · kedi: the cats of an ancient city ⏵ smile
• 1991 · impromptu · ♡ ⏵ stupid rain ⏵ cough
• 2014 · a girl walks home alone at night · ♡ ⏵ oriental dress... ⏵ instrumental
• 1926 · mare nostrum ⏵ a beautiful spy
• 1938 · marie antoinette · ♡ ⏵ birdcage hair ⏵ masque madness
• 2006 · marie antoinette · ♡ ⏵ cake & candy
• 1992 · orlando · ♡ ⏵ nature's bride
• 1970 · the conformist ⏵ tango
• 1929 · the divine lady ⏵ rose kiss

on the scary side

• 1950 · sunset boulevard ⏵ i am big!
• 1964 · strait-jacket ⏵ record struck
• 1962 · what ever happened to baby jane? ⏵ letter to daddy

straddling both loveliness & horror

palette-cleansers from my youtube history:

• ▸ dear
• ▸ catwalk
• ▸ dolls
• ▸ tingel tangel · based on ❧
• ▸ cherry: youtu.be/vOID2_-qt4c
  • the link breaks on listo, so just copy & paste it
• ▸ rare breads
• ▸ feathers & flourishes
• ▸ a historiscope
• ▸ bunny lion
• ▸ frosted lipstick
• ▸ london, 1967
• ▸ bunny mouth ASMR
• ▸ feminine transgressions
• ▸ magnificent! (⚠ blood drip)
  • ▸ ending credits

• ↻: rewatched
• tcm: turner classic movies

⇲

• ☑ 2015 · mad max: fury road · hulu
• ☑ 1986 · labyrinth · hulu
• ↻ 2014 · the grand budapest hotel · hulu
• ↻ 1915 · fanchon the cricket · tcm/hulu
• ☑ 1967 · the st. valentine's day massacre · fx/hulu
• ☑ 1948 · june bride · tcm/hulu
• ☑ 1936 · after the thin man · tcm/hulu
• ☑ 1933 · dancing lady · tcm/hulu
• ☑ 1982 · ladies & gentlemen, the fabulous stains · vimeo
• ☑ 1970 · fruit of paradise · youtube
  • voce stromů rajských jíme
• ☑ 2002 · dracula: pages from a virgin's diary · youtube
• ☑ 1923 · warning shadows · youtube
  • schatten – eine nächtliche halluzination

• ☑ 2006 · ballerina · балерина · kanopy
• ☑ 2005 · legends of russian ballet · kanopy
• ☑ 2015 · a ballerina's tale · {misty copeland} · kanopy
• ☑ 2019 · martin margiela: in his own words · kanopy
• ☑ 2020 · nose: inside dior's world of perfume · kanopy
• ☑ 2017 · dries: the creative process of a master fashion designer · kanopy
• ☑ 2017 · the drawings of yves saint laurent · kanopy
• ☑ 2021 · this is francis x. bushman · tcm on hulu
• ☑ 2005 · legendary sin cities · youtube
  • ep1: paris: the crazy years
  • ep2: berlin: metropolis of vice
  • ep3: shanghai: paradise for adventurers
• ☑ 1951 · colette · hoopla
• ☑ 2023 · the invention of cinema: the first colors of... · tcm on hulu
• ☑ 2022 · three minutes: a lengthening · hulu
• ☑ 2021 · woodlands dark & days bewitched: a history of folk horror · kanopy
• ☑ 1993 · drug-taking & the arts: the art of trippi... · youtube