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My half sister is Panic. A manic meteorite in cahoots with the conspiracists A charismatic child with no sense Utterly stupid and prone to tantrums A sobering taunt that brings you out of your world Pulling you into hers to suffocate you with her foolishness So that it becomes all you think about - How dense she is! Telling stories about things she’s only ever seen On TV because she doesn’t read books Sucking the composure out of you like a Marlboro Telling lies about a new job or a lost friend New illness or an old flame come back to haunt But she is the ghost girl! jun 6 2023 ∞
jun 6 2023 + Immanuel, I outgrew my cheeks Adonai built me too combative and weak Black-eyed and reactive to men like a beaten dog With a fiercity which cannot be prayed away or upon Or an ankle-length skirt could hide I possess a sexual prowess all my mothers would glorify - Men are so smart, they know things innate Machines, laws, anatomy and how to lose weight They prime our systems to survive like vaccines 1 Corinthians 1:19 It is a charming dogma To believe a woman’s only armor is karma jun 6 2023 ∞
jun 6 2023 + As a good bellower with hair unkempt, I shout messily to the sky Are all you Gods squeamish? Do you go blind when things turn eye for eye? - I am surviving on sativa and Seneca And a rapid-eye lobotomy Nothing can pry these memories from the retina - I am only good for gaslighting, laced with affectionate backstories that manufacture empathy Making me crave a ceremonial womb-like exodus - Just to say that my rebirth was a cesarean And I almost didn’t make it But now I’m saved, a presbyterian - jun 4 2023 ∞
jun 5 2023 + almandine fetus in need of folic acid and iron, you are dizzying! featureless murmur in my belly swirling, one day in September, your fingers will unfurl soft and pale as gardenias in winter suctioning through fissure and fuchsia cannon with an attitude like you've done this before and this world is an inconvenience too angry to be a Shannon. dented brow, coned crown doused in fluid a soaked jewel squeezing breath from new lungs siphoning the beauty from everything by being, benign eyes set behind unruly lids glass irises take in the mirror of my face the holiest embrace I will ever hold. jun 30 2022 ∞
jan 27 2023 + Wind-folded prairies tickle great storms from the sky. Stalks of gold and brass sprout largely, to become bramble in two seasons. Wet air drenched with sun energizes the oaks, maples and hickory, fatigues the farmer. Thistles, red clovers, chicory sprout easily. Queen Anne's lace offers second chances to question the venom of the hemlock. Creeks breathe and exhale into great rivers. This place used to be all forest. Can you imagine? What takes more skill? The hawk's hunt or the vulture's scavenge? Exhausted silos remind us of the sorrows of time's movement. And I think of the families that built them: the daughters who married the neighbor boys, and spoke to the census takers, about the children they lost. The dirty hems of their dresses, the dirty hands of their sons, the dirty headston... dec 30 2019 ∞
jun 4 2023 + I was born in the morning, open to the wind, without a witness and ass first under a blue wash of stars. Papery and radiant and purgatorial. With a fully intact abalone ego. Little blonde, wild thing. Cloaked in amniotic gossamer, roaring her life's gospel and begging for a drink. jun 16 2022 ∞
jun 16 2022 + You do not get to harvest in me, what you did not plant. (Final) may 6 2019 ∞
jun 15 2022 + |
Bad ankles, the 82nd, whatever the reason As you head into your final season: - I will always forgive you You are still the hero Even if you can’t save yourself - In the midst of the opiate utopia Know I am missing your deflated mind And I recognize that you used your last hallelujah Somewhere in Fallujah - None of this is your fault. - Your eccentric sister To the left of your heart like a ventricle, - Sissy jun 6 2023 ∞
jun 6 2023 + The absurdity of luck is being the 13th caller Winning the last dog at the firehouse, On the six o’clock news After a story of a baby left in a dumpster - Now there is a whipping tail, thrumming happy welts on our faces Oh, what cosmetic joy! Our way of stomaching life between capsules We find things in the spots, cloud gazing on stiff fur - Pronounced heart shape on the ass A flopped-eared rabbit under the neck Whatever dulls the pendulum headache Of debating the black and the white jun 6 2023 ∞
jun 6 2023 + Under a midnight oasis seeking gnosis With jaundiced stars, bloated and hopeless Swollen cerulean cirrhosis - I have lost my eye to the left of Orion Venus is a sharp, bald giant But of the pleasure she promises, I am hardly compliant - Rain seeps like lymphatic drainage From some soft, heavenly basin Watery assault to ensure our salvation - Like accepting milk from the tit of God Mouth gaped hungrily in awe But still reserved to believing it’s a facade from beyond - I have gone too little with and too long without To accept an easy comfort without doubt jun 4 2023 ∞
jun 4 2023 + Stone bears an inscription blanketed by clover Calloused chisel marking a hardly legible life blown over Ant hills and bruised earth grows strong over your name The sunworked dirt and tired feet push turf to reclaim Thickening the distance between life and thereafter Flowerless, lacking tributes, no peony, iris, aster. - May memorials seeping grief into thought I loop twice around the gravel before pulling fixed like a French knot To find some grave that calls me, away from oaks and elm Abandoned by descendants left in this realm I am not of you, we meet by chance in a small effort to be good may 27 2023 ∞
jun 5 2023 + Anger sits in my lap and I hold it like a great grand daughter. An indigenous temper I wield as both scythe and scalpel The only heirloom I have been given Both anchor and the maelstrom depending the conditions Racing through the veiny atlas of my being jun 29 2022 ∞
jun 6 2023 + My frail braille heart takes tender handed touch to learn Afflicted with thickly calloused fingers and no patience Blackened and coal-soaked on cracked linoleum, begging to be felt An open woman is an open wound She holds a stiff arrow poised for anti-cupid archery, toward a corroded carotid artery to take out her misery heartily. may 5 2019 ∞
jun 5 2023 + |
The men with their pens In a scribbling fury again ‘I possess three states of being Ketamine, cayenne or zen’ - The mosaic of eyes are clinical These ones peacock green and biblical Wanting to offer me salvation in capsule form Abilify, rispideral - They’re here to clean house By examining the houses in which I’ve lived And the houses I’ve built in myself They always miss a spot - Find your fissure, Mr. The smudge in the criteria I’m inside all the textbooks on the hysterically misbehaved Which renders me less observant and infer... jun 6 2023 ∞
jun 6 2023 + (7-syllable terza rima) Greeting veiled strangers through glass Little eye speaks words from paths Traveled sometime in the past - By fingertips achievement We have resolved bereavement While tempting God’s vehement - A chance to reanimate A soul gone to germinate Not equipped to incarnate - A move ‘Yes’ to then swift ‘No’ Good odds to apprehend hope Of conscious beyond our bones - Bridge to a distant era Via pine planchette antenna Grief leaves a stain like henna - A quick extinguish of wick jun 5 2023 ∞
jun 5 2023 + Followed a map of varicose veins on my heels, The same which forded you passage across the big ol’ veil Putting the bitter over our shoulders like an old wives tale Greeting Death with a “Did-I-forget-to-turn-the-oven-off?” exhale - There's anger in the stars tonight, you say in windspeak, grab your coat Soundlessly take your licks until you fold like an old envelope Guiding me steady from heaven like a Sunday horoscope, You are not as close as you think you are to the end of your rope jun 4 2023 ∞
jun 5 2023 + beneath every stone in the stream a crawdad is crowded by dreams of a little girls hand unafraid of the land and the claw that pinches too mean jun 30 2022 ∞
jun 30 2022 + Loneliness is my complexion. It is hereditary. (Final) may 6 2019 ∞
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