- Dinner and cuddles with C. Watching a movie in bed.
- Therapeutic boxing.
- Painting a life-size map of my body in Art Therapy. And grounding myself through intuitive painting. Flow.
- Visions. Reaching a meditative state after feeling dissociated for a while. The sudden insight that it's all about energy and attitude (which can also mean posture in German).
- New gadgets: a visual timer (a cute one with clouds and rainbows) and a tiny reading light.
- A huge art supply haul from Boesner.
- Late night conversation with Maria. She's easy to be with.
- Marion said that my free dance moves inspired her to start dance therapy!
- Sauna and cold water plunges in Bad Aibling. Snacking in one of the nest chairs. I call them Kuschelmuschel. Hanging out in the outdoor pool under the full moon in Leo, talking to C.
- Hugging Maria when she reappeared from her room after a few sick days. I even checked in on her one night to see how she was doing and to tell her that I missed her.
- The guy who slipped a pack of candy into my hand at the supermarket checkout.
- Delivering little presents to Leah's doorstep.
- Vöslauer sparkling water with raspberry flavor.
- Physio therapy with Mrs. K. She's got the magic touch.
- Talking with Lea and Anne during our walks. Breakfast with Christian. He just invited himself to my table. I love it when people help my a little with my social awkwardness by being straightforward and open.
- The herons flying in during sunrise with the almost-full moon still shining bright in the background. Seems like more and more birds are joining in each morning.
- Delicious Korean food in an unexpected place. C. got dressed up for Valentine's Day and even treated me to dinner.
- All the people who stopped and asked me if I needed help when I was standing on a lonely road with my warning lights blinking after an accident with a deer.
- Joking with Robert. I love people you can be silly with.
- A Sunday at Filzhof. Cooking together. A Spotify jam session. Playing Photosynthese with Tobi. Operating a tiny piece of glass out of Markus' foot. Being extra cuddly and lovey-dovey with C.
- Walking up to a paddock. A horse saw me and came to the gate. Allowed me to pet it. I just freakin' love animals. Usually I pet a cat when I walk past that particular farm but this time I got a horse instead!
- Going to the cinema alone. Feeling a few feels.
- A lovely, extra-long massage.
- Talking about life, the universe and everything with my therapist. Feeling seen.
- The items people put in my imaginary suitcase to say goodbye. Things like a sword. Time. An anchor. And a safe, loving space.
- I asked Erika about a really cool vase in her greenhouse and she told me I could "borrow" it and she wouldn't be mad if I didn't return it!
- Going to the cinema alone. Eating popcorn. Watching a movie about patriarchal structures. Feeling something. Rage. Compassion. A reminder that I tend to act in an anti-feminist way myself sometimes. And often lack female solidarity. I feel more comfortable being one of the dudes. I want to change that.
- HOWEVER, I felt a little honored to be accepted as one of the dudes when C.'s friends were visiting him for the weekend. One of these balance things I guess...
- Shopping in the men's department. Much better quality!
- Watching my favorite French summer movie with my boyfriend. And he absolutely adored it, too!!
- My last full day at the clinic was very insightful. I added the energy centers to my body silhouette and had a really good talk with M. about it. In Escrima, R. talked about the Sacral Chakra, too. Life force. Manu had an emotional moment and we were holding space for her.
- Noticing a smiley patch on someone's back pocket. Telling him I liked how positive his butt looked that day. He smiled and asked me if I wanted another look. I said yes! Of course.
- I went to the Slutering Let's Play event without C. and had a great time! And my first threesome with K. and U. (I loved the deep talk afterwards!) When we played Truth or Dare I kissed Martin and it was lovely. I adore his intense energy (and how he tastes).
- Making a cup of hot chocolate using raw cocoa powder, chestnut honey and spices.
- My last minute decision to join Anna's co-creative community weekend. I picked her up and we set up the space together. We played Krazy Words, burned a Chili Sin Carne, went swinging on the playground, cuddled and sang. I loved the makeshift doublebed for me and Christian.
- I bought an e-bike! Finally!
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