Last day of 2010. Not partying, but having some quality time for myself:

• wallpaper paste, wire, pliers
• folding new origamis
• little walk outside in the darkness
• sauna and new nail polish
• peace, space and quiet

Giving up isn't necessarily bad thing. It can also make life simplier and easier. Or is the right word rather relinquishing or letting go?

• Food that makes me feel bad
• Pain
• Being everywhere all the time, participating in too many things
• Excessive thinking that doesn't lead anywhere
• Trying too much
• Items i don't need and use
• Addiction to everything sweet
• Crankiness

I wish to have:

• ✔ one weekend without any agenda
• ✔ one weekday evening at home without anything to do.

I wish to find:

• ✔ missing raincoat
• missing earphones
• ✔ missing knitting needles
• ✔ missing enthusiasm and motivation.

I wish to:

• ✔ see a good movie for a long time
• ✔ get back on track with my healthy diet
• ✔ learn how to get up there in urdhva mukha paschimottasana
• ✔ sleep late on saturday morning and have a good breakfast
• ✔ wander in woods
• ✔ be caressed right now.

• Steel Mammoth: The Kingdom of the Golden Hammer
• Steel Mammoth: Atomic Mountain
• Black Atlantic: Reverence for Fallen Trees
• Hjaltalín: Sleepdrunk Seasons
• Joy Division from Spotify
• She & Him: Volume One
• Krishna Das: Pilgrim Heart

Monday requires easy listening music.

Some books waiting for me to grab them:

• ✔ Siri Husvedt: The Blindfold
• ✔ Timo Airaksinen: Hulluuden houkutus
• Alan Watts: The way of Zen
• Haruki Murakami: The blind willow, sleeping woman

And of course Orhan Pamuk's The Museum of Innocence, which I've tried to finish for several months.

I love...

• Hemp protein
• Jussi Lehtisalo's new album called Rotta
• My own yoga
• My blender
• Client's thanks for work I've done
• Tax refund
• Daida Daiga Duu's purses and little creatures
• Creative people and their intelligence
• Sharing
• Solidarity
• Friend's tip for Miljard

The good day. I have been waiting for this slow sunday for so many weeks.

• Intense morning practise
• Healthy, yet delicious breakfast: lingonberry-cardamom-hempprotein-smoothie, onion pie, vitamin d and selfmade lingonberry juice
• New Orham Pamuk
• Not so new Peter Jackson
• Hot chocolate and whipped cream in café with my father
• Meditation and pranayama in silent forrest
• Exploring autumny surroundings
• Taking photos
• Lots of sleeping
• Sun kissing my face
• Listening to myself
• Baked aubergines with mozzarella and tomatoes
• Taking care of the huge pile of laundry
• Washing the washing machine!

There are many, but these are the dearest authors at the moment.

• Haruki Murakami
• José Saramago
• Gabriel Garcia Marques
• Anna Gavalda
• Banana Yoshimoto
• Orhan Pamuk
• Fred Vargas
• Paul Auster

And some of the all time favourites:

• Michael Cunningham
• Eric-Emmanuel Schmitt
• Simone de Beauvoir
• Jean-Paul Sartre
• Albert Camus
• Herman Hesse
• Franz Kafka
• Fedor Dostojevski

• loving my love
• finding some zen in the middle of the rush
• making my own art after a pause
• forthcoming exhibition with Tiina next February
• My roommate for next two weeks
• Knowing that I'm loved and caressed by someone special
• Aiming a bit of balance in my yoga and life
• New Circle album called Infektio

First days of November and last week of summer holiday. Lot of good fun and several great gigs:

• Wed Jex Thoth at Kuudes Linja, Helsinki
• Thu 22-Pistepirkko at Torvi, Lahti
• Fri Taipuva Luorisuora, Tuliterä and Demonic Dead Judge at Torvi, Lahti
• Sat Fleshpress and Pharaoh Overlord at Torvi, Lahti

Long term wishes, that makes me bankruptcy:

• Heliosphere (Feb), Tallinn, Estonia
• Roadburn (Apr), Tilburg, Holland
• Dunajam (Jun), Costa Verde, Sardinia
• Hanne Sydänmaa workshop (Sep)
• Kärkölä retreat (Jan)
• Houtskar retreat (Jul)
• Linda Taakala workshop (whenever)
• Me eat tofu -shirt from Jeti shop
• Birdcage from TitiMadam Walnut collection
• Personal food consultation by Miia Saastamoinen
• Too many cds to buy and movies to see

Good things to be grateful from last weeks that just pop in my mind in random order:

• New blender from mom and dad
• Great live music: Circle, Teemu Elon puhuvat eläimet, Ufomammut, K-X-P, Ulver, Ville Leinonen ja majakan soittokunta, This is Sirius, The Mutants, Fry, Porocks and always entertaining The Steaming Love Boat Orchestra. Many more bands in Flow festival and Tehifest.
• Friends, who really care how you are doing and let you know that when you least expect it.
• Good conversations and sharing also the deepest thoughts
• Visiting places: Turku, Pori, Tampere, Kalkkinen, Helsinki, Helsinki, Helsinki (for the whole weekend or just quickly popping in for an hour)
• Freezer full of self picked berries
• Lovely new yarns for autumn