• first grade assistant, i wish i could remember her name. i used to practice writing it on my mother's board she used to put on her lap to play solitaire.
• mrs. lantz, the first time i met a stern woman.
• mr. clark, pushed me without me knowing it.
• mr. off, believed in me.
• kyle beachy, inspiring and helpful feedback
• mark jeffery, encouraging and insightful.

• A is for Ass
• B is for Busy
• C is for Curious or Crass or Commas
• D is for Dry
• E is for
• F is for Feminine
• G is for Gangle or Gluten
• H is for Hungry
• I is for Inappropriate or Impossible
• J is for
• K is for
• L is for Leisurely or Loner
• M is for Might
• N is for Nostalgic
• O is for Observant
• P is for Particular
• Q is for Quaint
• R is for Rebellious
• S is for Space Cadet
• T is for Task Oriented
• U is for Uninterested
• V is for Vanilla
• W ...

• the notebook (who hasn't)
• lars and the real girl
• big fish
• juno (this is extremely embarrassing and hard for me to admit because i hate this movie. i think the fact that someone else was falling in love when i was in the process of falling out of love saddened me)
• the pianist (not crying, but bawling)
• lonesome jim
• young at heart
• march of the penguins
• life is beautiful

making this list instead of doing my finals:

• micro-mesh bra in nude
• tri-blend leggings in grey
• tri-blend fem. track shirt in tri-indigo
• baby rib basic in creme
• california fleece pullover dress in cranberry
• unisex flex fleece zipup in mauve

here i am keeping track of how many times i have used public transportation in this fresh month because the cta has decided to start charging eleven dollars more a month on my chicago-card plus. i might downgrade to the chicago card which charges you per-use, 2.00 bus, 2.25 train.

1. bus, once, 2.00
2. bus once, 2.00
3. bus twice, 4.00
4. bus once, train 3 times, 8.75
5. train twice, 4.50
6. bus twice, 4.00
7. train twice, b...

• finish lolita
• finish pattern recongnition
• study for smoque exam, hahahaha
• notify FS
• write 3 pg. crit paper
• write more for performance final
• perform performance friday
• work tuesday 2nd, wednesday 3rd, fri. 5th, sat. 6th, sun. 7th.
• work BBW thur. 4th from 4-8.
• work BBW sun. 11:30- 3
• cash check (1)
• cash check (2)
• return library books
• get gift for swap-partner
• send in grant

• finish lolita
• finish pattern recognition
• write two page paper for crit week
• saturday nov. 22, 8 am meeting.
• monday, nov. 24th, training 4-8 pm
• sunday, nov. 30th, floor set @ 4pm
• tell girls at work about the three sundays i need off
• get heat fixed
• go home tues. nov. 25th, night time
• eat thanksgiving with my parents
• come back home fri. nov. 28th for 5 pm work.
• notify FS
• buy ballet slipper nail polish
• things to s...

• finish performance proposal
• finish the left hand of darkness
• finish lolita
• go to the library
• check out pattern recongition
• finish lists for performance (3.5)
• do laundry
• put laundry away
• watch and return tales of the crypt
• watch and return less than zero
• watch and return the dick cavett show
• go to interview saturday at 2pm.
• work the 15th, 16th, 18th, and 19th.
• go the the mca for the gatz, friday 3pm.
• get check f...

• bigelow gift card
• postcard paper
• water color set
• flannel pajama pants
• haircut
• foot treatment & massage
• gummy bears
• klean kanteen

• i realize that my listography is not as easily to access as the blogspot.
• and when i say it is not as easy to access i mean that you are being lazy if you are not the person reading this right now because you only have to click two more things to arrive at this utopian land of my mind in list.
• if you are having trouble accessing my performance section in the archive be sure to tell me.
• if you want to...

i am a moderate crier.

• being misunderstood
• being falsely corrected
• in my work
• at work, actually mostly at work. because i know what i am being corrected on is not that important.
• being told no when i know the answer should be yes
• someone or something getting hurt
• unfortunate silly accidents
• once in elementary i was going down the pole from the tree house and it had been freshly painted with yellow paint a...

always thought elvis was nasty. he was, actually, back then. thrusting his hips twards the audience. now that i have been immersing myself in elvis i have found that when young and without those hideous sideburns that he was a beautiful man. on the inside too. he is coy.

• one of my favorite songs
• my mom and dad would sing this in the kitchen or car
• i had to sing this in 5th grade on stage
• this video ma...

when i first started school here i was, and still am just not to the extent that i used to be, fascinated by television and its part in our lives. these are my favorite television theme songs, in order of the most favored favoredness.

• cheers
• married with children
• growing pains
• laverne & shirley
• family ties
• reading rainbow
• step by step
• if you watch a lot of television, i found these "name the tune" videos...

• wash my whites
• cash checks at chase
• send absentee ballot
• celebrate james' birthday
• pay rent
• finish leisure book
• start and finish lolita
• work throughout the week practicing performance mid-term
• read pages 1-96 of left-hand of darkness
• work the 26th, 28th, 29th, 31st, 1st, 2nd
• buy a bottle of wine for after my dreaded saturday night shifts
• mail netflix, monday
• cover notebook with butcher's paper
• watch antm
• find a...

• norwegian wood
• waltz for debbie
• lemon tree
• puff (the magic dragon)
• five hundred miles
• where have all the flowers gone?
• michelle
• nowhere man
• julia
• jumpin jack flash
• yesterday
• something
• here comes the sun
• the fool on the hill
• penny lant
• blackbird
• juila
• when i'm 64
• and i love her
• hey jude
• pavanne for a dying queen
• claire de lune
• close to you
• rain drops keep falling on my head
• walk on by
• wedding bell blues
• sukiyaki song
• blue ve...

• work a double shift
• help messina with her documentary
• buy an oil from bath and body works
• do my performance blogs
• create my 90 sec. performance for the 17th
• clean my bedroom
• clean the kitchen sinks
• clean the bathroom throughly
• pay tuition bill on the 15th
• go to work the 14th, 15th, 17, 18th, 19th
• do reading for contemporary science fiction
• finish norwegian wood
• do my laundry
• get groceries. i desperately need t...

• tortoiseshell sunglasses
• rabbit fur collar
• obey jeans
• wrap coat
• mauve sweatshirt
• asphalt shift dress
• blowfish leather fast boots
• that edge brownie pan, gah
• shiny peach leggings

• learn the basics of another language
• not swearing when i am angry
• drink only water for another year, like i did in 2005.

• a warm, fall, half-day of high school, on a couch, at sarah garber's house, watching nick lachey and jessica simpson's newlyweds show on mtv. it tasted of winterfresh gum. he was wearing some sort of black shirt with a yellow draw string at the bottom. i was wearing a light pink sweater from old navy. his hair smelled like elmer's glue. i wasn't expecting his move. i froze up. i think i thought th...

• sleep until at least noon
• drink a big glass of water
• use the restroom
• get back in bed
• lay and read for at least an hour
• eat brunch, normally eggs and orange juice
• clean entire kitchen
• take a long shower
• let my entire body air dry
• pilates or a wander are both ideal
• call my parents, write some people, internet
• watch a movie or extensive youtube videos, tv shows
• put myself together
• get dinner with a friend
• go some...