• REAL salt water taffy
• air conditioner
• roll of quarters
• inhaler
• new contacts
• klean kanteen
• hair cut

i have bad seasonal allergies and some that are year-round but most can easily be kept under control in the cooler months. all of that in addition to being a celiac. this is a list of food and activities i continue to sparingly enjoy but pay for later or will pay for eventually. everyone dies!

• spelt flour
• malt
• soy sauce
• modified food starch
• oats
• beer
• corn bread
• cherry pie filling
• white vinegar
• running outsi...

• making my computer talk to me
• when i am on ichat late at night or cleaning the house
• having my roommate type funny or dirty things from the other room
• making it read craigslist casual encounters
• making my computer "sing" song lyrics
• lady gaga's "poker face" (ugh) but it does this thing where it instead of saying "puh puh puh poker face" it says "pee pee poker face"
• making up songs with james
• listening to...

• finances
• school
• savings
• shades of colors
• ingredients
• my body
• how easy it would be to be happy
• about all of my parts working together
• making lists, checking off lists
• my netflix queue
• the mail
• everyone's sadness
• the sun
• the joy received from simple things
• how ideas came to be, inventions
• potentially funny situations
• my parents

• prepare loan payment
• go to peru
• pay rent
• deposit leftovers into savings
• clean bedroom
• rearrange netflix queue
• visit the beach
• one time
• two times
• three times
• phone meeting with school, 06/29
• sign up for fall classes
• get a tan
• write grandma
• eat all junk food in apartment
• calculate finances for july... already? july?
• buy mint seeds
• wash all blankets in apartment
• flannel living room quilt
• light brown fluffy
• pooh bear
• gran...

• c.o. bigelow
• sephora
• j. crew
• american apparel
• american eagle
• starbucks
• amazon
• gap
• bed bath and beyond
• dairy queen/orange julius
• panera bread
• target
• blick
• akira
• free people
• joe's jeans
• target
• yankee candle
• crate and barrel

• mango, 5
• golden delicious apple, 2
• avocado
• medium grain rice, 5 lb
• tamales
• chicken
• pork
• sweet peas
• horchata powder
• navel orange
• strawberry jam

• scan nikki's form
• email form
• watch netflix
• step brothers
• reaper
• give self facial
• get photos from lauren
• clean
• bedroom desk
• bedroom floor
• window sills
• living room floor
• jog
• tummy exercises
• sign up for a couple swaps
• tape SYTYCD for wednesday and thursday
• morning read in bed time
• go see up
• do laundry
• make more rice

• buy
• raspberries
• limes
• cilantro
• nectarines
• milk
• send check and letter to allison
• watch netflix
• the reaper
• june bug
• the house of yes
• finish book
• watch SYTYCD
• clean room
• unpack suitcase
• check library due dates
• clean bathroom
• buy body soap
• jog
• clean kitchen
• empty soup pot
• upload pictures
• organize closet

• meals:
• duck fat,large fries with raye's mustard and horseradish mayonnaise and salad
• beals, butter almond crunch ice cream
• walter's, dueling petite fillets
• bangkok thai, tofu w/ basil, sticky rice w/ mango
• yosaku, 1/2 hat trick, cucumber maki, and avocado salad
• tandoor, lamb, potato and pea, chicken chili, rice, cheese in chickpea flour
• whole foods picnic, greens with mediterranean tofu salad, chipotle s...

• planet of the apes
• stand by me
• the baxter
• life is beautiful
• mean girls, haha
• the muppet movie
• punch drunk love
• husbands and wives
• best in show
• american beauty
• texas chainsaw massacre

• toothbrush
• toothpaste
• loofa
• face soap
• conditioner
• shampoo
• phone
• phone charger
• pillow
• shuffle
• water bottle
• wallet
• keys

• oatmeal
• jell-o sugar free pudding
• dark chocolate
• boston cream pie
• bing cherries
• raspberries
• corn pasta curls
• rice lasagna pasta
• shirataki noodles
• wallaby yougurts

• send rent, wednesday
• remind james to water plants
• finish library book, tuesday
• return all books, wednesday
• air out suitcase
• pack, thursday
• laundry
• get bikini
• eat all produce, friday
• beach, thursday (no sun :( )
• cash checks, wednesday
• cash another, friday
• get beach blanket
• calculate finances for june

• make swap
• go to post office
• tape so you think you can dance
• get produce
• cilantro
• carrots
• onions
• celery
• cabbage
• raspberries
• pears
• avocado
• either watermelon or honeydew
• bell pepper
• plus cans of
• broth
• tomato juice
• go on a walk
• go the the beach
• plow through book
• be sure to drink my 8-10 glasses of water
• fix computer cord
• clean messy room
• clean desk, this never gets done.
• take shower

• go on vacation
• save money for fall semester
• continue to work out every other day
• continue to walk any place within a two mile radius
• bi-weekly visits to the beach
• keep skin exfoliated and protected
• visit indiana at least three times
• work my ass off @ 40+ hours a week
• continue to read two-three books every three weeks
• limit eating out to twice a week
• try control my feist at work

• buy scale
• something has to keep me in check
• obviously (see winter body) i can't tell when my body gains/loses weight by myself
• drink water (05/09)
• all of the time, like 2005 all over again
• before i even get thirsty
• before, during, and after work outs
• in the morning before i leave my bed
• gummy bears put on shelf that requires step-stool (05/09)
• cereal and fruit for breakfast with skim milk (04/09)
• joe's o's ...

• "you don't have to love me. you don't even have to like me, but you will respect me. you know why? cause' i'm a boss"
• "step back you're dancing kind of close. i feel a little poke coming through. on you."
• "shawty you the hottest. love the way you drop it. brain so good could've sworn you went to college."
• "i want your body, i need your body. long as you got me, you won't need nobody."
• "you must be a f...

• to be a full time student again
• not having a smell when coming home from work
• being able to work less hours but get paid more
• i wouldn't say i would not like to work at all, because i actually do like having a job.
• mandatory siesta
• getting to see my friends more often
• a job where i am respected for what i can do and not will do
• being able to afford all of the fancy things i like
• pedicures/manicures every ...

• grocery shop
• watch ellen
• watch snl shorts
• finish book
• re-pot plants
• unload dishwasher
• clean desk
• hang up clothing
• vh1.com tv
• take nap
• work out
• rearrange netflix queue

• red raspberries
• bananas
• corn flakes
• pears
• wine
• skim milk
• baking potatoes

• the beach boys
• fergie
• the beatles
• pharrell
• abba
• lily allen
• the carpenters
• neutral milk hotel

• eat breakfast
• laundry
• wash
• dry
• hang on line
• hang on hanger
• fold
• return role models
• watch netflix
• watch antm
• finish book
• water plants
• clean bedroom floors
• clean desk
• make bed
• sort important papers in cabinet
• exercise my pathetic stomach
• cookies for alex for covering my saturday shift
• watch ellen

• new books
• beautiful weather
• taking care of our sprouting seeds
• manicures and pedicures
• earning more money
• because i got a raise! they better recognize.
• america's next top model finale
• sitting on the back porch
• running after the mexican ice cream cart
• james becoming our third roommate
• going on summer vacation with lauren
• tip checks
• snl video library
• finding out that chocolate lucky charms are gluten-free
• enjoyin...

• a new knife
• mandoline
• 9" x 13" cake pan
• a couple new tupperware containers for leftovers
• new corkscrew
• klean kanteen
• clay pots for herbs
• brita refill filters

• copies of taxes, signed
• get check from work
• fill out forms for verification
• turn in forms at the financial aid office
• get new work-shoes
• get groceries
• cereal
• wine
• cash check for work
• send rent
• make dinner
• make banana bread
• finish book
• clean kitchen counters
• pilates
• tidy bedroom
• file important papers in new folders

• clinique dramatically different moisturi...
• cover girl professional super thick lash...
• maybelline lash stylist mascara
• estee lauder eyes in wine cup
• bare escentuals buxom lips in katie
• vaseline 100% pure petroleum jelly

• q-tips
• limes
• grape jam
• carnola oil
• cereal
• milk
• raspberries
• white wine
• chocolate chips
• butter
• parmesan cheese
• lemons
• worcestershire
• parsley

this was very challenging to go to my past and think of the names of people who mostly i didn't care about and didn't speak to that often. i missed one. the name is escaping me. no one cares.

• todd
• renee
• mrs. reed
• jane
• andrea
• david
• chris
• mike
• barry
• denise

• follow-up email about illustrator position
• scan page
• get paid
• call school and if the call goes well
• go to financial aid office (i dread this)
• go to academic advising
• go to spring art sale, possibly
• get two new pens
• get sushi for lunch from osaka (i've missed you)
• get actual vacation date from lauren
• load dish washer
• read a few chapters
• go to cupola bobber's premier
• call mom back
• repaint finger and toe nails

• finish book
• clean sofa cushions
• watch netflixs
• let the right one in
• pretty baby
• get a milkshake from suzie's for my throat
• clean tub and sink
• take a bath
• take a nap
• dye eggs
• watch antm on youtube

• having two nights off in a row each week
• going dancing
• going to lauren's birthday party
• watching horror movies
• getting to know/learning about stan
• going to cupola bobber's premier
• going out with lauren
• extra cash flow
• warmer weather? lord, please!
• finishing a book
• starting another
• easter candy
• chocolate covered marshmallows
• cadbury mini eggs
• jelly beans
• dying eggs
• lauren's possible gluten-free brownies
• enjoying a ...

• get groceries
• milk
• cereal
• raspberries
• eggs
• russel stover's easter eggs
• wallaby yogurt
• clean for four hours at work
• do something with stan, maybe dinner at los noplaes?
• finish book
• watch netfix
• tidy apartment
• send off two swaps
• write grandma

• the yellow brick exterior
• the cornice on the exterior because it is an old building
• how pretty our courtyard is in the summer and fall
• the molding, not the gross mold, that runs seamlessly throughout our walls.
• brand new appliances in the kitchen
• granite counter tops
• marble tub and sink in the bathroom
• honey colored wooden floors
• only being able to see roof tops out of my bedroom window
• windows that open f...

• pudding, the skin
• cabbage, the core
• pie, the filling
• brownies, the edge
• pumpkin, the seeds
• peaches, the fuzz
• casserole, the edge
• pizza, the crust
• chicken, the dark
• sushi, the seaweed snap
• tacos, the tortilla
• snickers, the peanut
• potato, the skin
• broccoli, the stem
• mushroom, the cap
• tootsie pop, the tootsie
• pad thai, the peanut
• cucumber, the flesh
• cow tail, the tail
• cake, the icing
• rainbow chip icing, the rainbow chip...

and surrounding hoods

• glenn's diner
• caro mio
• spacca napoli
• urban belly
• kumas
• chicago brauhaus
• the globe pub
• cho sun ok
• hot doug's
• lula
• friendship chinese
• opart thai
• yes thai
• ay ay picante
• la oaxaqueña

• gate ankle boot
• sandy dot cut-out one piece
• love true love animal print bikini
• the girl is mine jacket by obey
• new watch band and clasp
• eat me: the food and philosophy of kenny...
• floral dress
• 80%20 boots
• lamixx shirt

child:

• light-up L.A. Gears
• matching spandexes
• layered colored socks
• pixie cut
• slap-bracelets
• Madonna layered necklace look
• Adidas track pants
• Lee dungarees
• Air Walk tennis shoes
• roll-on cheek glitter

tween:

• glitter pants
• printed capri pants
• Abercrombie t-shirts
• butterfly clips
• Nike's with the large shiny Nike signs
• Volocom winter coat
• rhinestones

teenager:

• straight across long bangs
• goodwill chic
• skinny jeans
• flats
• short...

foods i should try to cut out completely. they are making me fat.

• cheese
• chips
• french fries
• beer
• mixed drinks
• chocolates
• soda
• ice cream
• sausages/hot dogs
• juice
• unnecessary salt

• summer class, _ _ _ _
• road trip of east coast in may, 300
• repay debt to nikki, 350
• funds to open a savings at chase, 400
• new wardrobe, 300

total: summer class + 1,350

total: summer class + 1,000

total: summer class + 600

total: summer class + new wardrobe (see wishlist)

• the unfinished basement of my first home where i would roller skate. banana boxes full of garage sale toys lining the walls.
• the front door-way of the second house i lived in. the closet and the smell of leather that came from the closet and the jewel-toned stone floor.
• the garage of the second house i lived in. we would do the laundry in there in an old-fashioned wringer machine. i collected large ...

• take showers in the natural light from my window
• make time to moisturize my skin
• take care of my poor feet
• leave time in the morning to lay in bed in the sun
• walk to work
• keep bedroom floor tidy
• keep drawers and closets closed
• make time to cook two of my meals or snacks
• listen to the radio while getting dressed

• grocery shop
• go to bank
• go to library
• write rent check
• watch the office online
• possibly watch rupaul's drag race finale
• pedicure, seriously
• finish book

• let the right one in
• the thing
• faust
• nosferatu
• the innocents
• invasion of the body snatchers
• event horizon
• the blob
• the brood
• alien
• stephen king's it
• child's play
• pet sematary
• the mist
• nightmare on elm street
• videodrome
• hell raiser
• jaws
• evil dead II
• poltergeist
• the hitcher
• henry: portrait of a serial killer
• eyes without a face
• M
• the evil dead
• dead alive

• fresh blueberries
• fresh raspberries
• skim milk
• corn flakes
• baby spinach
• peanut butter
• fresh ground coffee
• mushrooms
• wallaby banana vanilla yogurt
• cheddar cheese
• dozen eggs
• small sour cream
• low-fat large curd cottage cheese
• mozzarella cheese
• pizza sauce
• turkey pepperoni
• avocados, 2
• spanish rice mix
• diced tomatoes

dad:

• my dad doesn't like to go places were there are a lot of people. he never went to any of my choir performances, award ceremonies, or graduations. he doesn't go to the grocery store during the day often and hasn't been to a movie theater in years.
• he loves watching music dvds for hours straight of simon and garfunkle, the eagles, bb king, and eric clapton, i'm not sure what other ones he has bou...

• cheers, 12:00 a.m.
• 3rd rock from the sun, 12:30 a.m.
• cosby show, 4:00 & 4:30 p.m.
• steve harvey, 5:00 p.m.
• that 70's show, 5:30 p.m.
• married with children, 6:00 p.m.
• andy griffith show, 6:30 p.m.
• fraiser, 9:00 & 9:30 p.m.
• sanford and sun, 10:00 p.m.
• andy griffith show, 10:30 p.m.

• david letterman
• bruce willis
• jack nicholson
• mick jagger
• anderson cooper
• pierce brosnan
• bill clinton
• hugh grant
• clint eastwood
• william shatner
• michael caine

body appearance:

• swatch
• some sort of shoe that can be worn without socks
• blue jeans
• a tank or sports bra
• american eagle underwear
• light pink nail polish that is probably mostly chipped off
• cotton shirts, possibly with sweater

face appearance:

• fine messy yet clean hair
• glasses/contacts
• mascara at least on top lashes
• well moisturized skin
• chapped lips

carrying along:

• diet coke or water
• cellular phone
• wallet
• food jour...

• zip and hooded sweatshirt
• denim shorts
• sunglasses
• perfume
• bikini
• beach jumper
• high waisted running shorts
• mid-thigh casual skirts

• thumb tourists drawings
• working on line width control
• writing down my dreams
• daily journaling and lists
• making innovative paper chains at work

since i only have basic cable i don't watch a lot of the shows i actually like. so i watch some shows on basic and others that are available in full episodes online. i miss food network.

• ellen
• rupaul's drag race
• conan
• letterman
• maury
• america's next top model, march 4th
• i don't like to admit it but, vh1 reality television
• for the love of ray-j
• tool academy
• rock of love bus tour
• home movies

• becoming a professional roller skater, who did flips and wore leotards with glitter while doing so.
• bookmark maker
• saving the animals
• being an artist
• stamp creator

• try to cut out high fructose corn syrup
• start bikram yoga
• pay nikki my remaining debt to her
• buy new shorts
• take a sushi class at the fish guy on elston
• go home to see the new baby
• get a hair cut
• get a pedicure and manicure
• finish taxes

let me educate you on things that are awesome. also borrowed from loren on listography. and inspired/borrowed from www.1000awesomethings.com:

• complimentary dessert or candy at restaurants
• the car your family had when you were young
• the meals you made yourself as a child (mustard sandwiches, macaroni and cheese with tuna)
• wearing sandals when you shouldn't be
• being in someone else's shower using differe...

• tuna
• chocolate
• sushi
• toast
• white wine
• gummy bears
• lattes
• eggs
• french fries
• cabbage
• milk
• spanish rice
• dill pickles
• ice cream

• first grade assistant, i wish i could remember her name. i used to practice writing it on my mother's board she used to put on her lap to play solitaire.
• mrs. lantz, the first time i met a stern woman.
• mr. clark, pushed me without me knowing it.
• mr. off, believed in me.
• kyle beachy, inspiring/helpful feedback
• mark jeffery, encouraging and insightful.

• A is for Ass
• B is for Busy
• C is for Curious or Crass or Commas
• D is for Dry
• E is for
• F is for Feminine
• G is for Gangle or Gluten
• H is for Hungry
• I is for Inappropriate or Impossible
• J is for
• K is for
• L is for Leisurely or Loner
• M is for Might
• N is for Nostalgic
• O is for Observant
• P is for Particular
• Q is for Quaint
• R is for Rebellious
• S is for Space Cadet
• T is for Task Oriented
• U is for Uninterested
• V is for Vanilla
• W ...

making this list instead of doing my finals:

• micro-mesh bra in nude
• tri-blend leggings in grey
• tri-blend fem. track shirt in tri-indigo...
• baby rib basic in creme
• california fleece pullover dress in cran...
• unisex flex fleece zipup in mauve
• stretch bull denim short shorts in almos...
• micro-poly short shorts in green light
• piqué cross-front jumper in black
• california fleece tulip skirt in cranber...
• stret...

here i am keeping track of how many times i have used public transportation in this fresh month because the cta has decided to start charging eleven dollars more a month on my chicago-card plus. i might downgrade to the chicago card which charges you per-use, 2.00 bus, 2.25 train.

1. bus, once, 2.00
2. bus once, 2.00
3. bus twice, 4.00
4. bus once, train 3 times, 8.75
5. train twice, 4.50
6. bus twice, 4.00
7. train twice, b...

• bigelow gift card
• postcard paper
• water color set
• flannel pajama pants
• haircut
• foot treatment & massage
• gummy bears
• klean kanteen

• i realize that my listography is not as easily to access as the blogspot.
• and when i say it is not as easy to access i mean that you are being lazy if you are not the person reading this right now because you only have to click two more things to arrive at this utopian land of my mind in list.
• if you are having trouble accessing my performance section in the archive be sure to tell me.
• if you want to...

always thought elvis was nasty. he was, actually, back then. thrusting his hips twards the audience. now that i have been immersing myself in elvis i have found that when young and without those hideous sideburns that he was a beautiful man. on the inside too. he is coy.

• one of my favorite songs
• my mom and dad would sing this in the ki...
• i had to sing this in 5th grade on stage...
• this video made me ...

• a warm, fall, half-day of high school, on a couch, at sarah garber's house, watching nick lachey and jessica simpson's newlyweds show on mtv. it tasted of winterfresh gum. he was wearing some sort of black shirt with a yellow draw string at the bottom. i was wearing a light pink sweater from old navy. his hair smelled like elmer's glue. i wasn't expecting his move. i froze up. i think i thought th...

• sleep until at least noon
• drink a big glass of water
• use the restroom
• get back in bed
• lay and read for at least an hour
• eat brunch, normally eggs and orange juice
• clean entire kitchen
• take a long shower
• let my entire body air dry
• pilates or a wander are both ideal
• call my parents, write some people, internet
• watch a movie or extensive youtube videos, tv shows
• put myself together
• get dinner with a friend
• go some...

• drawing(s)
• sushi
• napping
• baking
• taking care of people
• b-lister's reality television
• food network
• silence
• a cuddle
• cleaning, everything
• fiction
• furry animals
• being taken out for an evening
• being still
• woody allen movies
• drinking nearly only water
• working out with tapes or an instructor
• the drunk hug
• smaller shared beds
• a burger, plenty of vegetables. no cheese & bun. thank you.
• swimming
• schooling
• working until sore
• a rub...

• music
• raw, plain tomato
• green pepper
• bob dylan's voice
• a medium-sized percentage of all relationships with anyone i have ever met (truly liking, in the most sincere truthful,truthiness)
• short haired cats
• certain textured leathers
• athletic shoes
• ok, mostly shoes and socks
• ham
• terry-cloth
• jewelry of any sort
• bras
• vh
• taking medication
• conversation with adults
• action movies without bruce willis
• food shoveled from the ...

set one: physical

• a cute set of lips and teeth with gaps
• darker hair
• not green eyes
• at least the same height as me or taller
• not all that pale
• tailored clothes, not necessarily fashionable
• shorter men should be slim, taller men can be more filled out
• the possibility to have dense facial hair, but they keep it shaved
• smells like clean man
• eye contact
• tattoos are not really ok but i can let slide, piercing not...